hate is such a weak word
living nightmare
i.
these tears
are not sad
truly
they are mad
scared and hurt
how can you inflict
this dreary world of negative inertia
love does not cause pain
please refrain
these foolish habits you practice
there is nothing more to gain
love is not selfish
says the bible from our God
it does not give us shame
what you have done to me
words cannot explain
ii.
i hate every piece of you
from top to bottom
the way you look
the way you smell
you inflict the feeling
of a ticking time bomb
i truly hate
what you have done to me
i know that is selfish
if i knew you really cared
i would never confess
such a thing
from my head
to my toes
my blood boils
with such detest, such loathe
you play with humans
as if they are toys in a game
like a child playing with dolls or trains
when you are finished with them
you retreat for a day
then back at it again
to see who you can shame
after a while though
as humans, we grow weary
we grow hearts and grow love
not knowing all we are giving you
is a love of theory
i am going to sleep now
praying i do not wake up
for if i do i will know
i will have failed
please
do not let me wake up
