I Believe I can
I Believe I can
As I walked through the doors for what maybe the last time, I turned back and looked without a wish to return; at a place that was filled with grey memories. I climbed its walls with great ambition and effort in search of success, but sadly I never saw the edge of that wall. Through those four years, I noticed that most teachers promoted apathy; I was faced with endless arguments and countless adversities and dint see endlessness to those three.
At first I found those obstacles disturbing, and unbearable. Lead me day by day to the path of failure, and questioning if I truly was gifted or capable of doing extraordinary things. The discouraging harsh words played and rewind in my mind everyday “that looks hideous, you’re not creative, that would never work, and worst of all “you know nothing at all”. It soon became clear to me that those words were a form of suppression and control. Through those words many students followed blindly towards the demands of their teachers in search of what they defined “creativity”. But was it really?
Tori Amos once said “There's room for everybody on the planet to be creative and conscious if you are your own person. If you're trying to be like somebody else, then there isn't.” That opened my mind to a lot of things. It was time I broke those intrusive thoughts of despair and began to write my page of success. It was time I believed that no one was able to lay hands on my future. I build, I create, and my accomplishments would never be overlooked if they were truly great.
I am thankful to have the courage to look behind those fears and believe that the sun will rise tomorrow. Those years have taught me discipline; the discouragement is but a form of energy that feeds my hunger for success. I will not crash into those obstacles, but peer around them.
The depressed words have left wounds, but not all wounds leave a scar. Now I’m building a ladder to reach the dark horizon, so that one day I would pick a star to make a light that others would follow. I want to color those dark grey skies with every rainbow color; filled with hope and belief. I want to end my journey knowing that I’ve left the world with something beneficial…I believe I can