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My Special Escape~ A Poem

Updated on January 24, 2013

Breithorn Enzian


My Special Escape

Maybe there’s a reason it hadn’t happened before

I try not to wonder why I never had much more

Dreadful memories run me over in my head

I took lonely times, examined them and look at where it led

All I ever wanted was to feel that special escape

I challenged the understanding then realized sometimes it’s too late

Loves me still, forever will, this I am sure

But the love is so different, for me I need much more

I may have made a huge mistake wanting my satisfaction

It hurts to watch hearts that break, more than one with this reaction

It took seeing it from afar to know that it exist

All the findings, strangely enough are the necessities that I’ve missed

I can want to be touched, I can want to be held, I can feel those things too

Now that I know it’s not all a myth, fantasy is all brand new

I ran through the wrong trap door but knowingly I didn’t halt

I see a life before me though the damage done is my fault

I think I’m falling in the wrong place, I need to trip again

No one can ever understand the mind set I’m trapped in

Evilness bares an unsightly core when temptation is at hand

The beauty that is within will not prepare me for the land

Afraid of my intentions to self, not sure when this will end

Please just don’t give up on me, for now I need a friend.

©COPYRIGHT DECEMBER 2012 BY lifesparadox


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  • lifesparadox profile imageAUTHOR


    5 years ago from USA

    Your very welcome ishwaryaa22 and thank you for your wonderful comment and voting up!

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    Ishwaryaa Dhandapani 

    5 years ago from Chennai, India

    A strong and powerful poem evoking feelings and thoughts in readers! Well-done!

    Thanks for SHARING. Beautiful & Interesting. Voted up

  • lifesparadox profile imageAUTHOR


    5 years ago from USA

    Rosemay50, yes there is ; ) in five totally different areas which all revolve around only one. I will struggle with this for quite some time, I'm sure....thank you for being one to see through it and for loving it : )

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    Rosemary Sadler 

    5 years ago from Hawkes Bay - NewZealand

    Awesome, there is so much going on between the lines. Loved this poem

  • lifesparadox profile imageAUTHOR


    5 years ago from USA

    Thank you Gypsy Rose Lee, I'm truly glad you like it! : )

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    Gypsy Rose Lee 

    5 years ago from Riga, Latvia

    Voted up and awesome. Wonderful poetry. Loved this. Passing it on.

  • lifesparadox profile imageAUTHOR


    5 years ago from USA

    life, you've got to love it. Thank you Frank : )

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    Frank Atanacio 

    5 years ago from Shelton

    life.. this was actually pretty good yeah..:) Frank

  • lifesparadox profile imageAUTHOR


    5 years ago from USA

    Thank you cleaner3, this one goes a long way back and sprouts off in many different directions but is all a part of my today.

    falshmakeit, thank you : )

    Deborah, once again I am very much honored that you love my work! I always look forward to a comment from you... I am still searching that's for sure ; ) Merry Christmas to you as well

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    Deborah Brooks Langford 

    5 years ago from Brownsville,TX

    I love your poetry.. very deep and so meaningful and full of searching and lots of love .. many blessings

    Merry Christmas



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    5 years ago from usa

    You wrote a very interesting poem lifesparadox

  • cleaner3 profile image


    5 years ago from Pueblo, Colorado

    very nice poetry..


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