My Special Escape~ A Poem
Breithorn Enzian
My Special Escape
Maybe there’s a reason it hadn’t happened before
I try not to wonder why I never had much more
Dreadful memories run me over in my head
I took lonely times, examined them and look at where it led
All I ever wanted was to feel that special escape
I challenged the understanding then realized sometimes it’s too late
Loves me still, forever will, this I am sure
But the love is so different, for me I need much more
I may have made a huge mistake wanting my satisfaction
It hurts to watch hearts that break, more than one with this reaction
It took seeing it from afar to know that it exist
All the findings, strangely enough are the necessities that I’ve missed
I can want to be touched, I can want to be held, I can feel those things too
Now that I know it’s not all a myth, fantasy is all brand new
I ran through the wrong trap door but knowingly I didn’t halt
I see a life before me though the damage done is my fault
I think I’m falling in the wrong place, I need to trip again
No one can ever understand the mind set I’m trapped in
Evilness bares an unsightly core when temptation is at hand
The beauty that is within will not prepare me for the land
Afraid of my intentions to self, not sure when this will end
Please just don’t give up on me, for now I need a friend.
©COPYRIGHT DECEMBER 2012 BY lifesparadox