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Updated on March 5, 2010


Here I am at the crossroads once again,

Somedays I am happy, the others I pretend.

I didn't wish for it to be this way,

What else can I do, but take it day by day.

I've been so many places, seen and done so many things,

I've seen birth, death and miracles,

I've exchanged vows and wedding rings.

I thought we'de be forever, when we said I do.

But I will never regret the day, when I told you that we were through.

I had to let go, I had to say goodbye.

I had to let go, So I could spread my wings and fly.

I'm so unsure of so many things.

But this I know is true,

I would rather be alone forever,

Than be unhappily married to you.

© Sunshyne Ellen Dickerson


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    • WannaB Writer profile image

      Barbara Radisavljevic 

      7 years ago from Templeton, CA

      I'm glad you are able to write what you are feeling. It helps. Thanks for sharing your journey.

    • Mentalist acer profile image

      Mentalist acer 

      8 years ago from A Voice in your Mind!

      Try not to forget the miracals in your life..

    • Dink96 profile image


      8 years ago from Phoenix, AZ

      Very nice. Keep writing!

    • MFB III profile image

      MFB III 

      8 years ago from United States

      "Run and dont look back.

      ©-MFB III


      When love withers

      and no nurturing can

      allow regrowth.

      When evenings are

      completly spent

      before night even falls.

      When snoring replaces

      pillow talk

      and a warm bath

      starts to look really good.

      When the televion

      takes priority

      and interruptions

      of any show

      draws wrath.

      When small mistakes

      became monumental,

      when kisses are

      a tight lipped

      turning away too soon,

      when all approaches

      are detoured,

      when sighs are

      like a voice choir

      in the rafters of your house,

      when panties are just laundry,

      when "I love you's"

      are spoken and the silence

      remains unbroken,

      when tears are dried up

      and no more can be coaxed,

      when your heart

      is a raisin

      in the glare of

      his or her

      heated glances ,

      when sex becomes only

      the first part

      of sex-tuplets,

      and seven has been

      four for far too long,

      and not ever long enough,

      when hard means attitude,

      and cuddling is some

      time with your puppy,

      when kind words are only heard

      on the telephone

      directe to someone else,

      when loneliness sits on you

      and the wieght of it

      crushes all hope,

      when you ask, plead

      beg, curse

      rant and scream

      yet the stone face of the

      latest edition

      to Mt. Rushmore

      simply gazes into space.

      When you realize it

      has evaporated like

      the perfume she used

      to wear for you.

      When life is one long

      dreary event that rears

      it's ugly head daily....

      Run ...beat feet....

      hit the bricks

      give it up...take only

      what you can carry

      and don't look back.

      No documentation of

      love's death

      no long sad goodbyes

      love leaves just as harshly,

      and those that stay around

      get ground up in the

      details of why??

      Run ...don't ponder

      get as far away as you can,

      start over,

      start anew,

      it never happened.

      She/he never was

      there's a whole world

      of people who ran

      out there

      looking for someone to run with,

      believe me you won't be alone for long.

      Excellent hub, Sunshyne~~~MFB III

    • Enigmatic Me profile image

      8 years ago from East Coast Canada

      The cleansing that takes place when the truth is told and one embraces the next chapter of their lives. I wish you a golden road to your future and appreciate the sharing you have done!

    • Krazy_Teaney profile image


      8 years ago

      I really like this one mommy

    • Sunshyne1975 profile imageAUTHOR


      8 years ago from California, US

      Moulik Mistry- Thank you so much. I really appreciate it. I have been writing since I was 12, but have never done anything with it. I am beginning to think that hubpages is the right place for me to express myself. Thank you again!

    • Moulik Mistry profile image

      Moulik Mistry 

      8 years ago from Burdwan, West Bengal, India

      This is very evocative, you are so good with your words...


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