I use to pick up my phone and see a dozen calls and messages, now a days I don't want to be bothered but I can't stand the lonelinesse. I have real friends and some associates, some I lost along the way while others I keep the closest. I've had a long time to process my thoughts, coming to conclusions and realizing that I'm at fault. My bitterness towards things in life is doing more damage than I know, Im at peace with myself but truth be told I don't want to be left alone. Everyone needs to find themselves and with that comes sacrifice, plus the longer your gone you get to see who really wants and needs your time. Distance happens in life so consider it a part of growing, if you never try then how will you know without knowing.