Up Early As My Mind Tosses And Turns

It goes full steam ahead

Like it or not

We have to be prepared for the good as well as the bad

Don't get me wrong

I love this life we are given

I will always be grateful

Will I ever understand it ?

Most likely not

None-the-less I will constantly try

To dismantle my life and make it make some kind of sense

I take the rational to the irrational

The crazy to the calm

The uncharted waters to the deep

I have lived and experienced so much in such a short period of time

I know I forget more than I remember

I have been so blessed

Life could have been very bad that would have taken me in so many different directions

That just wasn't good

Somehow I have made it this far

I owe it to a power much greater than me

I will not hesitate to thank God

For my wonderful, incredible life

I don't remember how it all started

What I do know is I am still here

For now at least

I have tried to take my life and break down different times in my life

Then pick it apart like a bunch of chickens eating all at once

Trying to find a common theme

Love

Love is what I found drives me every day

Some people love politics or sports

I am so happy for them

For me it was a different turn of events

It was love from my family growing up

Then love from my friends

Then love from my wife

That has kept me on the good path

Trying to help people and give back the love that I have felt and received

It is my way of thanking the world in some small way

I try to track my steps

Long before counters were available

I wanted to know why I do the things I do

Then I also wanted to know how to change the way I think

So I can find and create ultimate positive results

I have gone down many rabbit holes

I have been treated poorly by some people

My only thought is how many people have I done the same too

In a time that I could not realize it

Was I just as bad or worse

I couldn't see it then and maybe still I can't see it now

So how can I judge other people for being unfair to me

When I was also responsible for the same damn thing

Now that I am sixty

I remember less and less of what I have done over the years

This could be a good thing

It keeps me from worrying about what I had no or little control over

Even though I have made many honest efforts to change

There have been so many highlights that I will keep trying to record

That make my life stand out

That make me say wow

I did all that

I realized long ago I don't even have to fabricate something to make it good

For one if I made it up

I have to have a good memory to remember what I said

I don't have that kind of memory

The other thing is

My life had some interesting tidbits

That was good enough for me

That made me smile and at the same time

Shake in my boots

I will continue to write and explain the best way I know how

One day at a time

Until my final day has arrived

Then like so many people before me

My curtain will close

Not forever

Just for a famous disappearing act coming up next

Hopefully you will enjoy

Maybe you will find out my secrets

Maybe you will have performed your act before me

Then in that case

I will be following your lead

Welcome to my life

As always thank you for following me

I hope I made you smile and get at least one good laugh

That is all I ever hoped for

Then I have done my best

To make the world a better place