12. Cocaine High
Cocaine High is the continuation in a series of hubs in which I discuss my life of rebellion, dabbling in the Occult, drugs, crime and prison to life-changing conversion through Jesus Christ. Click here to read it from the beginning. In this hub, I will discuss experiences that I had using cocaine.
At around the age of 21, I developed a full blown cocaine habit. At the time, I was already selling cocaine; so I had easy access to it. Becoming a coke (cocaine) addict is not something someone plans; but a time of depression in my life plunged me into the addiction.
I had a rather painful and depressing personal experience, which I will not go into detail about. Nonetheless, to dull the pain, I started heavily using cocaine, and I increased my consumption of alcohol. It seems like alcohol and coke go together. Many times, when I was too drunk to drive home from the bar, in my car I would line up some coke on a CD case and sniff it with a dollar bill. It caused instant sobriety. It worked like magic. However, there is a downside to using cocaine. Once you start using it, it is not easy to stop. This is because the initial high of cocaine feels so good. Below is a description of the effects of cocaine.
Cocaine stimulates the brain in the same way that a real accomplishment does, creating a rewarding feeling. That is the main reason people who get addicted want to get high on cocaine again and again…. users can have the illusion of feeling better about themselves than they usually do, … users may feel more energetic and sociable, … they may become talkative and gregarious, but on the other hand, getting high on cocaine can sometimes lead to angry outbursts, restlessness, hyperactivity (difficulty with self-calming), anxiety to the point of paranoia, and even seeing, hearing or feeling things that aren't really there—known as perceptual disturbances or hallucinations.
Being high on cocaine also makes people feel different physically. Physical cocaine effects include a general feeling of stimulation. Cocaine can cause changes to heart rhythm or breathing, sweating, feelings of being very hot or cold, muscle weakness, or nausea…. If cocaine intoxication is taken to the extreme, the experience can be dangerous as well as unpleasant. In particular, there is a risk of heart problems, seizures, and even death.1
To the Extreme
I became addicted to cocaine very quickly. Maybe that is because I have an addictive personality. When I smoked weed, I smoked a lot. When I drank alcohol, I drank a lot. The same was with meth. I always did things to the extreme. However, now I have replaced those addictions with good habits, like exercising, writing, and living a Christ-centered life.
Anyway, at times, I would do so much cocaine that I would be up for days! Cocaine is a very expensive habit. The reason being is because the high wears off so quickly. I would do line and be high for maybe half an hour. Then I would have to do another, and another, and so on. There were times when that is how I spent my entire night.
It typically started at the bar. That’s also one of the places where I sold my dope. I would be drinking alcohol and selling cocaine into the night. At the same time, I would do a line here and there with some friends so we could keep drinking and partying. This would last until about 2 a.m., when the bar closed. Then I would go back to my apartment, usually with a small group of friends; and we would continue the party until the early hours of the morning. I remember going through a half-ounce of cocaine like that in one night.
How Cocaine Affects the Brain
My life started spiraling out of control. I became completely irresponsible because my sleep patterns were so erratic. Up until that point, my drug dealing was rather profitable. However, afterwards, I started missing out on a lot of opportunities to make money because I would be sleeping during the day, or I would just be getting high too much and didn’t feel like going anywhere. It got to the point where a lot of people stopped calling me. Not to mention, I was using way too much of my dope.
People react differently to cocaine. There was this one time when I was getting high with a group of friends in my apartment and a new girl joined us. She was doing cocaine with us for the first time. At the onset of the night (2 a.m., after coming back from the bar), she told us that she had a tendency of becoming paranoid when getting high. I didn’t think much of it. However, by the time 6 a.m. rolled around, she quickly stood up, fidgetingly announced that she had to go, and took off out the door. We all just laughed.
Cocaine is a feel-good drug that works wonders to numb the painful realities of life. However, the risks far outweigh the benefits. It is very easy to get addicted to; and it is a very expensive habit to maintain. It is bad for your heart, and it leads to irresponsibility in users. I mentioned before that one of the drugs I sold was marijuana. In my next hub, you will learn more about that. Click on the link below to read it.
1. Hartney, Elizabeth. "What Does Cocaine High Feel Like." Addictions. About.com, 09 Aug. 2011. Web. 21 Jan. 2012. http://addictions.about.com/ od/cocaine/a/What-Do-Cocaine-Effects-Feel-Like.htm.