The Journey In To and Out Of Duality

I have many articles sitting in a draft folder on my computer. They were set aside because each time before finishing I would get a strong intuitive feeling that I needed to write on a different topic. So, before starting this article, it finally occurred to me I should ask my guides what I should write about, which I did through Tarot. The message was clear, “You are weary of the status quo and having to hold back emotionally. Liberate yourself from man-made illusions by embracing the feminine within so you can actively begin a new cycle.”

The next night I had a very simple, but clear, vision. It was of a man, with the energy of a Master or Teacher, holding a line and a triangle as if they were choices. The triangle was neither up nor down, but seemed to be moving. From researching dream interpretation, I found that the line is a symbol of duality, limits, boundaries and rules, and relates to movement or non-movement. The triangle symbolizes aspirations, potential, truth and spirituality. Each point of the triangle represents the body, mind or spirit. The interpretation also mentioned that if the triangle is pointing upward, it signifies the masculine, while pointing downward it is the feminine.

As I sat before my computer, I was finding it more difficult to begin writing this article than for any other article I have written. I didn’t know where to begin, so I just started typing thoughts as they came into my head without worrying about the order or even if they made much sense. As I was brainstorming, I became aware that I wasn’t going to be able to write about this subject unless I brought in my own personal experiences.

Recently, I’ve come to the realization that every aspect of this lifetime of mine was pre-ordained to expose all of the false beliefs and illusions I held from many previous lifetimes. I chose to be born into a family where pain and separateness ruled. Duality was the center of our consciousness and all our dealings with each other and the world around us.

Being an empath, I could feel the pain, the fear and the aloneness before I even left the confines of my mother’s womb. Unconsciously, I took on all those low vibrations and made them my own. Maybe it was to help ease the suffering of my family members or maybe it was because I believed it was my legacy, but either way, the light I was brought into this world with was very dim.

During most of my childhood, the cycle of misery that we felt chained to continued. We kept hurting each other hoping to ease our own pain a little bit. Although we were a good Catholic family, it was only appearances. The love of God we were taught about did not penetrate very deeply into our hearts and souls. We had no understanding or awareness of the true meaning of unconditional Love. We were limited by our neatly categorized boxes of right vs wrong, good vs bad.

A lot of our anguish was a consequence of our family heritage of denying the Divine Feminine within us. The men so completely distrusted their feminine aspect, they verbally attacked womanhood in general or refused, almost to the point of paralysis, to allow themselves to feel any softer, gentler emotions. The women for the most part internalized and suffered silently, as it was considered unacceptable to seek solace with another. Sharing, closeness, happiness and joy were missing. We were divided and conquered by our own rules and illusions.

The pressure of self-imprisonment was so great that eventually, you may suspect, someone was going to break. That someone was my mother. As she recovered from her nervous breakdown, she discovered she had “had enough”. Gradually, she stepped out of her comfort zone and reclaimed her personal power, in spite of the forceful and self-serving attempts from her family to keep her from changing. She knew the “carrot” of love and acceptance they held out to her was empty. The most precious gift I got from my mother was her honoring herself and persevering each and every day to awaken to her true self.

My “enough” came shortly after my daughter was born. I was blessed with a glimpse of what the rest of her life would be like if I continued down the path I was on. That is when I stood my ground and said, NO MORE! I could not let her be brought up in an environment where there was no respect for the individual, and everyone was too busy fighting their own demons to see the ugly, or beautiful, facets of their own nature.

Each of us has a Divine blueprint, which is that we are created in the image and likeness of God. God is neither just feminine nor just masculine. God is both Feminine and Masculine in perfect harmony. It is the tempering of the one upon the other that keeps the balance. Together, united as one, they make up the Divine. The Divine expresses the Masculine and Feminine qualities of the highest vibrations.

The separation of the masculine from the feminine arose from our fall into duality, which occurred simultaneously with the Fall of Atlantis. When we deviated from our Divine blueprint we created discord. Discord then allowed the shadow qualities of the masculine and feminine to manifest.

The dimension we have been living in for the last 10+ thousand years has kindled the inclination in us to pull things apart. Me/you, right/wrong, male/female, good/bad. Disconnecting them allowed us to examine, understand and experience from many different angles.

Nevertheless, it seems to me that the world has been ruled by the masculine, alone, for too long. The strength, ambition and warrior way of the masculine untempered by the love, compassion and cooperation of the feminine created the world we are currently living in of abusive power, senseless destruction, outright deceitfulness, and ignorant apathy.

Can you feel how we are being gently, but emphatically, encouraged to end this cycle of duality, to integrate the feminine and allow it to smooth out the rough edges of the masculine? Embracing the Divine Feminine, though, is not about denying the Divine Masculine. With both we can create a world of oneness, harmony, integrity, perfection, accord, good will and plenty for all of creation.

I find it interesting that duality shares company in the Thesaurus with words such as duplicity, deception, chicanery, cunning, deceit, dirty dealing, dishonesty, double-dealing, faithlessness, falsehood, fraud, guile, hypocrisy, one-upmanship, perfidy, stab in the back, treachery and two-facedness.  Hmmm!