An alien inside my body
Have you ever felt hallow after achieving an important goal?
Reached your goals now what
For as long as I can remember I have worked very hard to get what I want. I stayed up late, woke up early and endured experiences that I probably should not have. Now that I have what I wanted, it might not be allot in the yes of others, I find myself seeking more, a reason or higher purpose. Even worse I find myself suffering from impostors syndrome. Is it really my unique talents and capabilities that has achieved all that I have or is it just some pie in the sky, thing that helps me reach goals without having to work towards them.
I know that I work hard, I was there, but how do I acknowledge and truly accept all the good things that I have accomplished. This has always been the case with me. I remember the all the times I failed and none of the times that I succeeded. During my childhood I got too comfortable with not having, so comfortable that I struggle with gratitude.
Gratitude that my dad changed his life around. That my parents encouraged us to become the best that we can be. I have received a good education. I have the best family. Gratitude at the grace that I have experienced in my life through the help of others. To be honest, growing up, I dd have two roads to choose from, my life turned out to be beautiful beyond my wildest dreams.
I guess, that I am not an alien in my body. But me trying to find myself at the various levels of growth. And even though I feel alien to myself right now, I will be able to find my next purpose and learn to life with gratitude.
In my next article, I will document my journey on finding my higher purpose.