Love, Passion, Devotion, Connectedness - Why Do We Lack This?
The Beginning of the Fall - Two Years Ago
Well...A vast majority of my loved ones have been faced with brutal turbulence in their love lives recently...Not to be slighted, I guess I just had to join in on the fun...
As I sit here, my heart cries out for your love, my arms ache to hold you with welcoming acceptance. My mind can't rest, my eyes are filled with tears and the saddest part is the little girl who has fallen down hard on the cold, dirty floor of my most painful inner realms.
In pure and innocent love, I gave you every little piece of my heart and Soul. I sacrificed my Self just to see your intoxicatingly alluring smile. My inner child held you in her loving arms so that you may find peace and comfort every night as you slept. The woman I have become through the past that took me down waited in the balance, wanting to give you everything...
But, you were unwilling to accept.
Yes, my love is strong and ruthless...Yes, I wield a mighty sword against any and all who would dare make trouble for those I love...Yes, my fiery passion is intense and hell yeah, I can send your body up in flames...
How can you be so scared of something that others yearn and beg for???
Stop playing these childish games and come out and play with me. Don't throw away the one thing that you have to know is real. I loved you then (24 years ago), I love you now and I will love you forever...You're just going to have to deal with that, because I will not allow you to kill it. Even if we go our separate ways, we will both always, always be present in one another's lives though maybe not in the flesh, but always in the mind, always in the heart...
When I reach for you later, reach back. Neither of us need another dose of the last time...
Love Always,
Windy Grace <3
Two Years Later...
Neglected love relationships turn into routine. Routine turns into monotony and monotony leads to indifference...
I still want, crave the same special connection. I still love you, but it's just not the same anymore. It's become so stale, so cold, so not what I have dreamed of my entire life...
It's never going to be enough to tell someone that you love them, but show them indifference. It's never going to be enough to remain distant from someone who craves that connection, who has experienced that connection with another before...
Once a person has tasted the sweetest, most complete dissolve into another human being, nothing else will ever satisfy them, nothing else can quench that thirst. That complete unity between two human beings who truly love and accept one another with all they've got is not easily duplicated and is very seldom transcended by another. Yet, this is what I crave, this is what I need, this is what I must have. Anything less leaves me longing, yearning...
