Birthdays and Getting Older
I was about to be born on November 14th, and wow, what a journey being more than a half a century old can be! Its a time to look back and express gratitude and to ponder.
If I had a crystal ball that could have seen my future, it would have been a movie portraying twists and turns, that probably would have dismayed and thrilled me at the same time; life on Earth as we all know is in a dual reality, where we experience the good as well as the challenges, because we cannot know "hot" without experiencing "cold", or "love" without experiencing the tears of "rejection". Fortunately, we don't need to stay stuck in a negative polarity, we can transcend our experiences through the growth of our awareness.
If I had a magic formula that could make me 35 years old again, but with the condition that I would go back to my emotional level of being 35 again, I would pass, even if the vain side of my femininity, would love to retain the physical body of a 35 year old. I find that yes, we do age somewhat by the time we reach our 50's, but being in a place where one can react with wisdom and equanimity to life, is a wonderful place to be in. I have found that in order to reach a higher place within, we need life's wide range of experiences, as well as focusing on the understanding of Truth, the workings of the mind and emotions, or else we stay stuck in the drama of this world.
Do I value the life I have, on a planet that often seems to the human perception, filled with chaos and uncertainty? Yes. Life is a sacred gift, even if I don't necessarily want to come back to Earth (should I have a choice after my demise) so Creator, Mom and Dad, (wherever you are) thank you, for bringing me forth into this planet. I got to experience true love for the first time in my middle years with a partner who is my playmate.
Life is meant to be joyful, to be expressed without repressions from anyone, and this is what my life and that of my mate's looks like now; we are together, but we are literally flying free as the dove in the picture I am sharing here, because we do not suppress each other's spirit, we allow each other to be. The love, quiet harmony and potential for continuing growth which we both experience nowadays, has made my trip on the second half of my life worth it and balances the sorrows of yesterday.
He is my best "birthday" gift.
