Broken Hearts Do NOT Mend: or do they?
When you are with a person and you think there are problems; it seems to be the end of the world. It may not be the end of the world. But it feels like it is the end of YOUR world. Those feelings that you feel are fear. Fear that you will lose everything that you have fought for, not just in the relationship, but period. You fight everyday to make your life better and then when something as big as the relationship falls through, it is like saying, "I have failed again."
A broken heart does not mend. It stays with you. You believe in the things that they said to you or the things that shown you that you are nothing to them. With them being your world, you feel as if the world views you as what they made you out to be. I see this. I know this. They are easy words to say, but there is no way to change how you or someone else feels. There are so many things that were OK before that person was there in your life. But after, you view everything different. Everything has been altered. You cannot view a movie the same way, or hear a song the same way, or even smile the same way.
You may chase away the pain at points of time, but when you allow yourself to think about it, the sadness is still there, you are just getting used to the pain (less tears). So, I guess less tears means that you are getting over that person? Getting over a person must mean, getting used to the idea of being without them, not getting over the pain, correct?
It seems as though being numb is a part of it. What is that about? So much pain that you just shut down? I think so. I hear everyone say the word "numb"; meaning no emotions on that certain subject. It has to mean that right? No emotions because there were too many?
Even when the numbness goes away, your heart is still broken. You can never mend it, the pieces that were given away will always be gone, so my true question in all this is... Why?