Dangerously in my 20s

Momma told me I's supposed to be a

House cleanin'

Man pleasin'

Baby breedin' type

Woman

Now that I's be married

I can't go to the Juke Joint

I can't be

Swin' my hips

Kissin' other mens lips

Small dress wearin' type

Its not what wifes do

I thought as I drunk another glass of her dream juice at the Juke joint.

Big girls don't cry is dedicate to someone special to me. She will always be my love bug. I will always be there for you babe. Hold your head up.

I'm a big girl now mommy

I don't cry, I promise I don't

I promise I won't

he grab me by my hair

and slaps me down

dignity and AB all over the ground

I begged

I pleaded

but I didn't cry

even when his he took his fingers and wrapped them around my neck

my legs dangled

I scratched at his hands

he applied pressure to my body

I felt like I was going to see you soon

but no tears from these eyes

he spat at me

as he ripped the only thing I had to remember of you

he ripped it into little piece

I promise

I tried

But mommy is it okay?

is it okay if Big girls cry?