God is my Rock thus helping me be others stepping stone

For about 4 years (until the last year) I was reaching out to others via the Internet. My illness took my immune system down but my spirituality would take a soar into Gods domain. Once I became that close to God and my gifts from God had been magnified significantly,It only felt fitting to try to give back to his children( plus I received a message from God to do so) and I truly felt blessed to be able to serve God in this incredible new way.

Within a few weeks of chatting with people ( I was very new to the computer) What They and I realized quickly, there was a beautiful energy present and I was able to make them feel spiritual ( without saying much at all) and see into their past ( made some very uncomfy) as well as present and also some of their future and with some I was having Medium experiences. Before long I had people from many other countries asking me for readings.

The word "reading" and psychic" are not words I feel very comfortable with. My background in the Southern Baptist Church had taught me that those things were not of God so for most of my life I tried not to have visions or know things I should not have knowledge of.

My children actually told me I was psychic when I was 40. I asked them to say intuitive because that is what I am, as most people are when they listen to their Gut feeling or God , when he speaks to us.

My life has always had God in it but at 40 years of age I knew I had God in me. God is my rock and in just that I truly can be a stepping stone for others...... to find God or to just get closer to God and within that finding....... to find strength, courage, patience and tolerance for themselves and others.

For the last year I have not had many readings or reaching out on the internet except for writing on Hubpages. ( which I love it here) My health took a nose dive (again) but I had things to learn (about myself) and God showed me a few new things within my own life and for my own life as well. Now I am concentrating on my children and my new life with my new wife.

I was convinced my children did not need me anymore ( as I was too sick to be what I felt they needed) no longer could I expect to take care of my elder parents either but I saw what an impact I was making on people I didn't know well at all. So I decided to take this year and make it about my human side happiness and helping my family cross the bridges they choose .... and I so hope I can be a Godly stepping stone for them as well. One that remains sturdy and plenty of foot room, one that can be counted on to be there the next time its needed and one that is well guarded against slipping on. I want to be there for my family .... always.

Maybe someday I will go back to helping others with their issues as I enjoyed so much feeling needed and knowing I was doing Gods work and feeling useful but I have heard " charity starts at home" and I promise you... it sure does :)

My girls are used to the fact that I can't go many places ( it still disappoints all of us) and we talk about every subject known to man (ok known to us but a very broad range:) The higher they soar in life life and toward God makes me feel as happy as a mom can feel.... to help them in their journey makes me feel as useful and needed as I will ever need.

My little jots of thought tonight are mainly for myself but I hope that my message is still clear here. We are never too sick or old to be needed ( maybe too busy and that should never stop us) We all have the power to help our love ones, friends, neighbors and our community.... to help them gain insight, wisdom, patience, tolerance .... and sometimes all we have to do is LISTEN .

When we share of ourselves and let our love ones know how much they mean to us, let them feel how much we care about them, let them share their laughter, fears and regrets without judgement..... we invest in a healthier mind, body, soul, community and we invest in our own future.

Again one day I may get back into readings and support for others online , who know I may become a minister, counselor or just be the wife and mom that my family need. Whatever it is.... I will be content because God is my rock and my lighthouse too !