I won't pretend to understand
I wrote this hub a while ago and I have updated it now and then. While I have been fortunate enough to meet some very wonderful people in my life, I have also met some people who weren't quite as wonderful. There were the ones who never left the starting gate or the ones who just didn't make it the full course. Some of the partings have had no reflection on the relationship and some have been because of it. Some have been a relief and some have left an empty space where their presence is still felt and often revisited. This collection is for them.
I won't pretend to understand why some people walk away
leave without even saying good bye.....
I read. Therefore, I understand that people leave because they have to
I use quotes in my oh so wise posts, "let them go, they were never yours to begin with, their part in your story is over"
I know they have their own agenda but still I wonder...
what I said, what I did... to scare them away...
to make them leave without a word....my shame apparent in my pleas...
sometimes silent...often not...too many times I tried to joke my way back...
into their good graces. Pretending it doesn't matter whether they go or stay
So proud of my ability to hide my vulnerability. For what? For why? My friends tell me
they just weren't meant to be. And in my heart I know they are right. But....
without words of explanation...
not even a good-bye, a good riddance, a have a nice life! I will always wonder.....
what I said, what I did....and why....
What I wish I said....
"If you're stupid enough to walk away - then I'm smart enough to let you go"~unknown
"I don't want to mess this thing up. I don't want to push too far"
letting go of friends
On letting go...
“When people walk away from you, let them go. Your destiny is never tied to anyone who leaves you, and it doesn't mean they are bad people. It just means that their part in your story is over.”~Tony McCollum
You've got to know when to fold
In the past year, I have spent a good amount of time either forging new friendships or reinforcing the ones I already have. I decided to leave the "dating" scene aside for awhile. That's not to say that I wasn't still interested in dating but that I wasn't going to actively pursue it. (IE: online dating) I have made some nice friends. And some annoying ones! I have found that real life mimics manufactured/virtual ones. I know, right?! All this time I thought it was the other way around but our computers and TVs have taken over! But back to my real story. I have learned that: I still make bad choices. I am still a pushover. I still don't know how to "play the game" or "ask the question" or whatever it is I am supposed to do to maintain a relationship or move it on to the next level. I have also learned: Sometimes, I don't care. I am for the most part, content and happy with myself. I can,usually, pick myself up, brush myself off and move on. I have also learned: Sometimes, I don't want to. Sometimes, I feel that "do or die" need to "ruin it or not" by saying something that may send someone running. And I seem to do this so well! As Kenny Roger's so aptly put it,
"You've got to know when to hold 'em, know when to fold 'em, know when to walk away and when to run" Well, Kenny, I'm not there yet. And I'm thinking, at this stage in my life, I probably never will be!
Why ruin a good thing?
You let me go
you dropped the ball
what hurts me though
is that we were friends
we knew what to say
we each "got it" in our own way
my mistake, yes, it was my bad
for thinking you and I could be more
when we were already a
5 point sure!
"When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us"~Helen Keller
I leave you with this thought....
"I believe that every thing happens for a reason.
People change so that you can learn to let go,
things go wrong so that you can appreciate them when they're right,
you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself.
and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."