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It'z Been a While...

Updated on May 11, 2010

Since I've Felt Like Disappearing Like the Setting Sun...

Sunset in Oak Hall, Virginia, U.S.A. Photo by Windy G. Mason.
Sunset in Oak Hall, Virginia, U.S.A. Photo by Windy G. Mason.

These Walls Are Closing in on Me...

My career is just beginning although I feel the curtain is closing on me...I've been feeling pretty dark, just wanting to let go. I feel like no one else cares, so why should I??? When one aspect of my life is going great, another one falls apart.

When I reach out there's no one there; and, yet, you reach out for me and I am still here. I'm still right here, giving blood, keeping faith...For what I ask??? Why do I torture myself in such ways when I could essentially have everything I have ever dreamed of???

I am trying so hard to show you how real I am while meanwhile you are being as fake as you possibly can...

I wake up in the morning, try to put on a happy face to make it through the day; but there is someone always there to piss on my cloud...I don't mind the rain, but the shit you do to me is insane.

Why not be real as soon as you meet a person rather than faking them out??? In that way, you can live up to the visions you placed in their head and no one gets disappointed because the truth is all you've shown. Don't fake me out...I ain't for it.

If you want to play games, go play them with someone else...Just let me know so that I can bounce. No one will ever love you like I did...This you will soon find out.

Don't tell me you love me when you don't mean it, don't say I'm beautiful if I'm not so in your eyes. If there's someone you'd rather be with, go ahead and go for it...Just be man enough to tell me. This is all I've asked for is a little honesty, someone who's real, who knows what they want out of life and are on a mission to get it, someone who sees the importance in the warmth of passion, the importance of letting someone know how much they mean to you rather than taking for granted they will always be there...One day I may not...One day I may figure out that I just didn't matter enough to put forth the effort.


It's Getting Darker Still...

Sunset in Oak Hall, Virginia, U.S.A. Photo by Windy Mason.
Sunset in Oak Hall, Virginia, U.S.A. Photo by Windy Mason.

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    • VAMPGYRL420 profile imageAUTHOR

      Windy Grace Mason 

      8 years ago from The Eastern Shore of Virginia, Maryland and Delaware, U.S.A.

      Yes, it is :) I will be posting some new pics real soon. I love summer here!!!

      Love & Light,

      Windy Grace

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      dracaslair 

      8 years ago

      v.a is real pretty

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