My Head Spun

You asked~

I agreed~

As I was naïve with glee.

You set the tone~

Together we were~

As I yearned in vain~

You continued to keep me~

Your words inevitably burned~

Simultaneously sending me roaming~

Confused questionably free.

My Head Spun~

Between loss, passion, and love~

As you baited the pointed hook~

I was mislead~

From the start.

My heart was innocent, oblivious~

For a treacherous snare~

Me sincere~

As I could tell you also were eventually in love~

I like to think caught maybe unaware once star struck.

My head spun~

You hooked me deep~

Candles, dinners, wine came~ and went.

Nights of giving, concern and care spent.

My head spun~

Yet I can only guess~

Your fears would keep not consistent~

Our relationship maimed~

You now resistant.

Laughter, tears, holding back and~

My punctuating fears racked.

My head spun~

As you reeled me~

While my loyalty was~

Inequitably given freely~

As you played with the line~

Myself wanted to believe~

Fairytales could come true~

Oh how I begged for truth!

My head spun~

As your hook stung~

Your life style a blithe~

Your shame still could not~

Fix your want as you have~ won~

What seems like~

Only now your extra fun.

My head spun~

As your actions deceived your~ words~

They not worthy of my valued~ aptitude~

Your guilt could not mend your~

stupitude.

My head spun~

As you let out the line~

My love never waned~

Yet grasped onto air bubbles that came to nil~

With waves faltering my heeding dives~

I was yours trained~

Until~

I shall die.

You shattered my heart~

My emotions left with hallowed breaks~

And Healed shards each time~

In your careless fake wake.

My head spun~

Against my wishes~

Repeatedly reeled and~

Released all my~

Scattered pieces.

Conveniently for your selfish indulgences and~

Inadequacies~

I am not~

I am sure unlike~

Other fishies.

Most certainly you caused me continuous woes~

As your excuses many flagrant~ needed to grow and~

Grow.

The years went by as you were able~

To keep me a dangle~

My purpose faded.

Your apologies many, empty~

Using every which~

Angle~

You kept me in~

A merciless tangle.

My head spun~

Only because my heart is true blue~

Romantic, dedicated, sincere and~

Never having known abuse.

I sensitive, special reaching to~

Be kept safe~

Craving endearment~

Wanting only to be fed renewed~

By your commitment~

To my grave~

Maybe you were never capable~

I think some where inside~

I really knew.

Your hook laced with a harsh~ poison.

Possibly I pray~

You could not had known~

How a person like me could~

Love so unconditionally~

Or you would not had done~

What you have sewn.

My head spun~

In fear of your calls~

My head spun~

When you called not at all.

My body has shook~

As you toyed with my heart.

My head still spins~

As years have passed~

More than I care~

To remark.

The Ocean has been wide turbulent ~

At times lonely~

And boring rent.

Many fish in the sea.

Alone confused~

Other fisherman foes~

I fought~

As they tried also with~

Deception to take charge~

The lead.

I can not be blamed as~

I was tricked and taught~

By you as the ultimate~

Performing steed!

Of course the waters hold~

My kind~

Sweet Aquatics too~

But you have seen to it~

You spoiled and dulled their hooks butt good!

Using your cunning selfish~

Wisdom you tow~

As you along with my heart ~

Masochistically hurting~

Me and Thine self~

Filling your plate (not mine) ~

You deny for an inevitable~

Judgment day~

That will lye.

My head spun~

As Consistently~

My love stayed~

The same.

While yours?

Who really knows?

It is you I blame.

The older we grow~

My heart almost patient now~

Still foolishly, not controlled~

Candidly holds and bows.

My head spins~

Relentless, hopeful, enabled, and needy.

While I fantasize enchantment~

And faith in you~

As you are undeniably~

Head strong~

And greedy.

My head spins~

As I dangle with much rebuke.

I pray your core morals~

Raise and within are stayed.

This all you must know~

You can not possibly dispute.

No matter the favors~

You bestow~

They do not make up~

You placing the hook~

Unworthily keeping me~

Bottomed, stifled, alone~

Saddened, and lifelessly low.

My head spins~

Still as lovers come, and go~

My heart against my wishes~

Waits still as your expert skills~ fish~

Leaving what could had been~

A miss.

And still~

I love you so.

My head spins~

To this day~

As I submerge, and jump~

My true, complete dedication~

Attributes cursed as they betray my inner self.

Spitting, criticizing the true~ Unyielding purity~

What should be good~

Now for you wasted useless relentlessly.

Looking to the years gone by~ fast~

Of your playmenship~

My head spins~

And has spun~

Caring till the line's~

Last end has passed.

By Lisa Luv

(Lisa J. Warner)

Copyright@LisaLuvLLC

10/8/2009

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By LisaJ.Warner