Passion, Love and Romance

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Dear readers, this article of, “passion, love and romance”, is an old man view of love and the continuation of, God made man to love woman. The reason I have written that first article of, God made man to love woman, is because I am falling in love in my old age with a beautiful woman. There are times when she smiles at me and I think that an angel has smiled at me. I believe that love is a spiritual thing, as well as physical, so, I seem all mixed up and I don’t know which one of these two is affecting me most. But I know that I have fallen in love with this beautiful woman.

Anyhow, God has made me fall in love with a beautiful and powerful woman, that looks like the Archangel Gabriel, the angel that in my religious writings of, ‘Reconciliation of the universe’ guides and protects me, from the evil spiritual forces, while I am visiting in an imaginary way, the negative spiritual circle that form part of the spiritual life cycle of the universe. But that is a different story, and to understand what I am talking about, one must read at least a few of my religious articles.

Anyhow, today while I am editing this article, that I have published with my religious articles, I have been thinking, that I may be a stupid old man that has fallen in love with this beautiful woman; but then falling in love with a woman is the most normal thing that a man can fall in love with. So, I am not as stupid as paedophiles, that want to make love to young boys, when this is the most horrendous sexual sin that one can think of. So, I say to myself, I am okay. Now let me go back to talk about my love feelings.

Anyhow, sometimes I believe and feel that God, life and love are one and the same thing, like what I have written in my religious writings.

DREAMLAND AND THE MYSTERY OF LIFE

(This feeling can be the feeling of a lovesick person, but it can also be the mystery of life)

And I feel that life is love, and love is life itself,

And one cannot exist without the other.

Therefore, if life cannot exist without love,

Then I better love, or I may as well be dead.

(Then, the description of God will go like this:)

And I feel that God is life, and life is God Himself.

And therefore, one cannot exist without the other.

So, if we believe in life, we must believe in God.

And if we don't believe in God, we may as well be dead.

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You see, everything is connected, at least this is how I feel; so, let me continue to talk about the love for this woman.

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Anyhow, let us talk about my love story, and about this relationship between man and woman. But, this article of passion love and romance, today is taking place in this old man mind, and this old man is me. Now that I have said that, I can hear you say, but if there is no physical love between two people, what sort of passion, love and romance is this? You are talking about your love dreams and fantasy.

Yes, I am talking about this love dream of mine, but if one day I can make love to this beautiful woman, I will be the happiest man around; you see, my love dream is so big that I must try to win the love of this lady at all cost; at the same time I know that it is not going to be easy, because she is better than me in every way, but in my mind I will believe that everything is possible, it all depends if she is single and free to fall in love, when I say to her, I love you, whenever that happens to be.

Anyhow, let us philosophise what goes through this old man mind. Now I don’t want to offend anybody, but I wish that only mature old people read this article, because it is being written from an old man, who is a romantic at heart. So, he thinks and says many strange things, because he is undecided how to go about to start this relationship going. So, it will be about his own personal love passion and views, how he wishes to solve his personal love problems, or how he thinks his sexual love problem can be solved. In his imagination he thinks strange things, because the love force within makes him think these strange things. But he would be better off, if he thinks positive. So, my dear God let me think positive, it is the only way to succeed.

Anyhow, this old man is in love with this lady, who is younger than him and better than him, in his fantasy he loves her, because he thinks that she is the most beautiful and interesting person he ever met. Now, he loves her even more, because last time he was talking to her, she smiled at him and her smile is locked in the old man mind, whenever he thinks about her, he sees her smiling face within his own mind, he thinks that an angel has smiled at him. In his love-sick mind, he wishes she can be his wife one day. So, he treasures her smile face within his mind even more, hoping that one day something will happen between him and her, and his love for her will win that day.

Anyhow, this old man love relationship exists only in his imagination, so, it is strange, since the lady that he is in love with does not know anything. So, what we are writing here, is about what this old man thinks in his old age about passion, love and romance. You see, he is not sure that what he is doing is the right thing to do, at his old age. But love for a woman in the mind of a man is a natural force, that cannot be switched off easily, because man is born to love woman, and if you are a romantic person you know that you cannot stop thinking about love, even if loving this lady is going to give you problems. So, I pray God to give me strength and be positive; so that I can say to this lady I love you, then let the law of attraction and love help this lady to make her decision.

Falling in love with a beautiful lady and making love to her, is the best thing that we men can receive from God, if this is done at the right time of your life, and in the right place, but it may not be that simple, like what is happening to this old man. Now, because this old man knows that he is old, he thinks that he should give up his love hopes, because he is too old to make love at his age, because it can bring a heart attack and other physical problems. You see, sexual love uses a lot of energy, but when you are old there is no energy left in your body; so, he must be careful how he uses his body energies, and he must use them sparingly. So, while he loves this woman to the point of being mad about her, he is also scared of making love to her, if she accepts him as her husband or partner.

You see, the old man starts thinking that if she accepts him as her sexual partner, he must make sure that he can satisfy her sexual needs; this is something that worries him, because he is old and needs to save his energy, he starts thinking what he can do. Then he thinks that perhaps there is a way, because it is not strictly necessary that the sexual love act must be consumed to the last stage, meaning like when a couple makes love to have a baby. Having this in mind he thinks that there are other ways, provided that the woman is satisfied and happy with what he has in mind to do.

You see, I believe that making love has many stages, so, people can be satisfied to use these smaller stages and not the full Monty, so to speak: when I was young, we youths were exited if we saw a girl, then if we went close to her and even just get a smile back from her, then if we were able to talk to her, then touch her and hold each other hand, and then the first kiss and embrace. Here I want to stop describing these love stages, because I want to explain that there are many other stages in love making, but I don’t dare to write them down for fear that some of them may sound dirty; but in reality they are the best thing in life that we can get, because making love is the best thing in the world, people even kill each other to make love to a certain woman.

Anyhow, now that I have described some stages in love making my own way, let me go back to talk about the old man dilemma. You see, he wants to decide, if it is wise to fall in love and make love at his advanced age, since he believes he has found the right woman. You see, to find the right woman is not easy, in fact it is a lot harder than when he was young, since there is nothing much that he can offer now to any woman that he can approach, while he ponders about these things, his reasoning is like a balancing act, to love and not to love, and goes like this.

Now, I am an old man, perhaps I am also a bit crazy about what I am going to do or say next. So, let me tell you my personal beliefs about loving a woman. Loving a woman at my age could be exhausting in one way, but if done sparingly may still be okay. One the other hand, I believe that love being the fundamental emotion that drives us men to love the other sex, and from this union a new life could be born, because God made us this way; I believe that it is also the force that can make us better and stronger and even live longer, because the emotions that it carries with it, can change things in our body and mind.

Therefore, if we can continue to love and believe that we can fall in love, we might be able to live a longer life, since the emotions that are stirring within us, will keep us going on. But we must be careful, we need to use it sparingly and according to our physical strength, if we use it more than what we can; our lives can be cut short and we can die early. So, while I am wanting to fall in love and make love to this woman, I am in love with; I am also scared that my love emotions can kill me. So, this same question remains to love or not to love, at this age, and nobody seems able to answer that. Anyhow, today this old man has no loving partner, he cannot let his love hopes to go away, so, he continues to fall in love with this woman that we are talking about, and let us continue to talk about her, in his passion of love.

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Anyhow, I have called this article, passion, love and romance, because these three names start with the same letters of this woman that I am talking about in this article. So, this is what I am going to talk about in here, starting with my passion of love that I feel for this woman, when I imagine her smiling face within my mind. Now, if I reason with my mind earnestly, I must say that I am crazy, because I am an old man now, so, it is an impossible dream that I am dreaming. But the passion that I feel within me pushes me to believe that, if I imagine that I can make love to her even once, that desire of doing what lovers do with their lovers overrules my reasoning mind, so, I must be crazy because my passion makes me crazy. I am also crazy because as I said I am an old man now, and to make love with great passion could kill me; I could have an heart attack and die while I am making love to her, or because I am old and under great pressure to perform, I am going to fail to perform the (S) act and end up with a broken heart and a delusion.

Therefore, I must say that I am crazy even to try to say to this woman I love you, because I have not much to offer her, while I know that women like to see what they can gain from this relationship, and I cannot even promise my man strength, because I am an old man now. But then, why not tell her about my love feelings, my passion tells me that love is love and you cannot reason with the love feelings of a person, so, if we follow Mother Nature instinct there is nothing wrong to say I love you, even if this woman is younger and much better than I am in every way. So, in my love folly, I pray God that her reasoning is switched off and somehow, she sees in me a person that she can make love to, one can never know, and thus, I continue to dream about her and pray God to help me. May God help me to win her heart.

Anyhow, let us see how I compare myself to her, in my imaginary strange ways. Now, because in real life, she is in a powerful position and proud of it, while I am a simple old man with no much to offer; if I happen to be in a room with her, I can see her as an African lioness and I am an old lamb, so, she can kill and devour me at her own free will. But I believe that lions don’t kill for fun, they kill only if they must to feed themselves; so, somehow, I feel that she is not going to harm me. So, my passion of love makes me blind, because it does not want me to see the danger that I could be walking in. Because, my passion of love makes me feel only those sweet moments that the lovers feel when they are in love and make love.

For this reason, when I can reason with a clear mind, I am praying God to make me see, if this is the right thing to do, because my love passion is blinding me. So, I pray God to guide and help me, while I am falling in love with this beautiful woman. You see, in my fantasy I am falling in love hoping that it fulfils also God purpose, since I believe that a purpose exists, at least in my mind. So, may God bless this woman that I am falling in love with and guide her to me?

Now let me talk about other love things.

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Now, let us talk about what a man wants to see in a woman, that will make him fall in love. To explain what the word love means to me, it is going to take some time and some explanations, because love may mean different things to different people. In this case we are talking about those love feelings that a man feels for a woman; but even here they are not all the same, some men fall in love only with beautiful women, other fall in love with a woman that is easy to control.

Now, for a man to say that he loves a woman, not only he should be attracted to her physically, but he should also see her being a good person and worth loving. Now, if a man sees a woman only attractive to have sex with, then that is not true love and it cannot last long, you need something more personal for love to last a long time.

So, I believe that a man wants a woman that he can love to understand him, he wants her to have some resemblance to his own mother, since his mother always made him feel wanted and at ease; therefore, she should believe in the life values that his own mother had, plus he wants this woman wanting to have sex with him, when he needs sex. So, the woman that he wants, in his eyes should be better than other women that he knows, she fulfils all those things that he wants a woman to possess. But all these things are not easy to find in a single person and if they exist, they can be out of reach for the interested person, for one reason or another.

Here we are not talking about the cast of India, where people cannot marry to other casts; here we are talking about the difference that exist in the western society, the rich and the poor, the younger generation and older generation, the scholars with university degrees and those people that have missed on a good education, these are a few of the groups that are different and we encounter in our society.

So, a man that looks for a woman to marry or have a relationship, should look within his own group to find her, but human love does not follow these boundaries, so, a man can be attracted and fall in love with a woman that is outside his compatible group, what happens then is hard to say. Will the force of love that drives him take him across the boundary and win? Or will he end heartbroken? This is what I am worrying about today, I must decide my next move, so, let me tell you my position.

For instance, I believe that I know a woman that I can love even in my old age, and this woman I believe that can solve all my life problems, but this woman is out of reach for me, because she is a person that has a few university degrees, but I am only an average person; she is younger than me and that can be another problem. So, I am not sure whether I should let know that I am in love with her. What hurts me most is that I am an old man, still unsatisfied of my own love life that I had to live, so, it hurts me to know that this is the last time that I can desire a woman love.

You see, if I fail to interest her in my love for her, I will die unsatisfied about my love life. So, I am thinking about strange things, in the hope that I can continue to dream about love feelings, until I win her or die of old age.

So, I am going to write these strange love feelings that are driving me nut.

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Now, let me tell you the reasons why I am writing this love stuff; I am writing it to find an excuse about myself and the way I mentally behave. You see, I am an old man in my early eighties, so, my physical love life is nearly ended; I know it is nearly ended, because spontaneous erections are rare and short, but I still dream about a woman love, since today there is no woman love in my life, so, I wish that a mature lady feels sorry for me and wants to make love to me. You see, that is why I have fallen in love with this woman and dream my strange love dream.

Now my position is not that good, because the chance to win this woman heart is not good, but I should not despair, because I want to believe in love and I want to believe, that this love that I feel in my heart it is a God’s send love, and God has a reason to drive me this way; I have been writing religious articles in Hub Pages, now, the ending articles need to be written, where I need to conclude my theory and suggest to the world, how existing religions can work together, because there is this super-god in the universe that links all existing gods and religions together.

So, my reasoning goes like this, if this is what God wants me to do, then God will guide this woman to love me. But even this reasoning sounds crazy, because God does not help people in their love things; so, my only hope left is that I am in God’s designs, and God wants me to write those articles as I said, and this is the sign I am waiting for, to be sure that god wants me to continue my religious articles.

Anyhow, my love mind is going crazy, because I am in love and scared of this love. I am afraid that if I say to her I love you; she is going to laugh at me and say; are you out of your mind, how dare you say this to me, fearing this I have written a few things to tell her about my love, and above all to let me continue to love her.

To the most beautiful woman that I am in love I want to say, when you smile to me, I think that you are an angel that God is sending to me, because your smile makes me feel better. So, I dream about you night and day, and I pray God to help me to win your love. And I will pray God to bless you, just because, you smiled to me last time I have seen you. May God help you fall in love with me and make you mine?

So, that we can live happily ever after.

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When we are in love our minds always think what to say or what to do, some of which are the following phrases:

I want to say to the woman that I love, I love you!

I wish I could embrace and hold you in my arms for a moment.

So that I know how sweet and beautiful this feeling of love is when you are close to me

Then I will treasure this feeling of love in my heart, in my mind and my soul

And I will keep this feeling of love in my heart all my life long, or until we embrace again.

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Now allow me to talk about my life experience. People that are deeply in love think how to say sweet things to their sweethearts, like the following.

TO ME YOU ARE MY LOVE:

I love you; to me you are my love

To me you are a wonderful person

To me you are the delight of my eyes

To me you are like a beautiful flower

To me you are my greatest heart desire.

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To fall in love and make love to somebody is the best thing that can happen in life; but let us face it sometimes it may not work out the way we plan, so, it is very painful, but we don’t want the world to see our love pains.

SO, I want to describe the way we behave in these circumstances.

We behave sometimes as if the world is indeed unreal,

When we do say things that we do not mean or feel

And even when our own heart is hurt and cries in pains,

We do turn to the world and pretending smile again,

Because we don’t want the world to see our pains,

But all the efforts that we have made have been in vain.

Because our heart still hurts, and we still feel that pain.

The fault here is that we hoped for so much, but we got nothing. I hope my love story doesn’t end up this way. So, let me try to do something about it, and tell her that I love her. So, let me think how I can say to her, I love you.

How can I say to her I LOVE YOU?

This is what I believe I can say to the love of my heart, next time we meat, if I have the courage to say it. So that at least I tried to tell her about my love feeling for her.

This is what I want to say to her,

I wish I was younger,

I wish I was stronger,

I wish I was a very rich man,

I wish I was a learned person, like a professor, or doctor

So that I could come to you look in your beautiful yes and say,

I LOVE YOU, beautiful lady D. will you marry me? Or just love me for what I am?

This is what this old man (me) thinks to say, to this beautiful lady the love of my heart. While I pray God to help me and give me the courage to say it to her. At the same time I pray God to guide this beautiful lady D to love me.

May God hear my prayer and help me? Amen.