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Sean Fears - The End

Updated on November 26, 2011

Sean Fears – The End

He came by on Friday night around 9:00pm. I could see hurt in his eyes, but I didn’t say anything. He seemed unsettled, but I didn’t say anything. He seemed lost for words, but I didn’t say anything. He asked if he could spend the night. That was very unusual. I knew then, he wasn’t going with me. I was not upset though. I understood his family’s concern. This was a big move for him. They wanted what was best for him. And, I had not met any of them. I could understand their hesitation.

We didn’t talk much that night. We just held each other. We both knew this would be our last night together. We both knew our lives had changed and would never be the same again. We both knew the relationship was over. We didn’t know how to keep it together. I was leaving and he was staying. By the time we went to sleep, we were at peace with our decisions. In the morning, when he left, we didn’t say “goodbye”, we just hugged. When he walked out the door, I did not go to the window to see him drive away. I went back to bed and laid down. I knew I probably would not see him again. I knew he would not call. I knew he felt rejected and torn between two loves.

I left on Sunday to go to Atlanta. I thought about Sean everyday. After a few months, I just couldn’t take it. I came back home. I looked for him. I called him everyday. After several weeks, he called me back. He was angry. He was sad. He was happy to hear my voice. The one thing we had not done was exchanged telephone numbers of where he could reach me in Atlanta. When we did talk, he told me how sad he was that he could not go at that time. Then he told me he was going soon if I wanted to go back. He told me he missed me. I told him missed him. He told me how his father discouraged him about being away from his family. I told him how much I missed him. Sean and I met for one more time before we completed ended our relationship. We danced. We talked about what we wanted in life. He now was going to Atlanta and I was back in Cincinnati because of my sister’s poor health. When we parted this time, it was right. We hugged. We kissed. We danced. We knew it was not our last time together but we needed time to grow. We parted with the love you only get once. Til this day, when I think of Sean Fears, I smile. The only man I ever met, who taught me how to dance. I still love him. Sean Fears became more to me than I expected in a short period of time.


Little did I know this man would give me an eternal lesson in heartbreak? But he certainly broke the yoke that was upon me. God used this man, to set me free and to give me understanding. Now I know why Sean was a part of my life.

© scm Nov-11, published bydse©All rights reserved.

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