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Surviving The In Between

Updated on March 19, 2013
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How do you draw the line between what WAS and what IS?

My head understands or at least pretends to. My heart thinks it might be broken. My soul… my soul is lost in the In Between.

Have you ever been to the In Between?

It is a sepia place highlighted by occasional and unexpected, striking pops of color. They appear quickly and most times are immediately swallowed by drifting black hole shadows.

You know it if you’ve been there. You might even be there now. You are not alone.

Your eyesight will be crystal clear only to be obscured by sudden clouds that shroud your view and melt everything together into an indistinguishable mass of TOO MUCH.

Then you cry. You cry until your head aches and your tears have dried in rivulets along your cheeks and neck.

Then you laugh. You laugh until you gasp for air, your face turns red and you feel like throwing up.

You remember and then you try to forget. You feel guilty about trying to forget. You have no choice.

You hold your hands in tight fists at your sides when all you want to do is reach out to what once was yours.

You cross your arms tightly around yourself when you need someone to hold.

You grieve your losses. You try to move forward, but you cannot help glancing back.

Some moments make you weep with joy. The sun’s rays finally break through the clouds. A bright but unassuming star winks at you and then shoots across the sky. You become filled with wonder by the simplest things. You might question these moments. You might wonder if they were real. They were.

Do you know what they were? They were your special glimpses of hope.

The In Between is full of questions, unease, fear, frightening changes and pain.

The In Between is just that – the time in between one life and another. It connects what was, what is and what will be.

It is a time of waiting, adjustment, tears, joy, regret, guilt, forgiveness, numbness, sadness, hilarity and eventually freedom. It is a time of learning patience, advocacy and growth.

It is a time of endings and new beginnings.

To end the In Between you must make a choice:

- Live in, think of and yearn for the past while you endlessly wander the In Between.

OR

- Embrace your In Between: Learn from your mistakes. Learn from others’ mistakes. Keep your mind open. Surround yourself with supportive, positive people and messages. Grab on to your changes with both arms. Don't be afraid to explore your freedom. Be present and live in the moment.

The only thing remaining is to absolutely revel in your survival and LAUGH. I am on this journey. I know I'm not alone. Join me!

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    • delaneyworld profile imageAUTHOR

      delaneyworld 

      6 years ago from Peoria, Arizona

      Thank you so much. Sometimes it is so hard to find the words. Thank you for the encouragement. It is very much appreciated!

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      Rebecca Mealey 

      6 years ago from Northeastern Georgia, USA

      Your writing is heart felt and beautiful. Hang in there and keep writing!

    • delaneyworld profile imageAUTHOR

      delaneyworld 

      6 years ago from Peoria, Arizona

      Thank you Krinky. You are pretty great yourself, you know.

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      krinky 

      6 years ago

      Well said, delaneyworld. I feel your pain, joy, irritation, want, need, confusion. . .

    • delaneyworld profile imageAUTHOR

      delaneyworld 

      6 years ago from Peoria, Arizona

      Thank you so much Wendy. It is also always good to know you are not ever alone. It might feel that way, but no one is. :) Thank you for visiting and reading my article. Take care!

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      Wendy 

      6 years ago

      Those that have been there will understand. Comforting to see what can be such a confusing time expressed so beautifully so that the lucky few who have not been there may begin to see.

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