The End- Vanishing into nothingness

Lying on the bed staring at absolutely nothing, She desparately awaits for the excruciating pain to end, for the ache in her heart to go away & for the damn mind to go on a slow drive & eventually shut down completely. Looking at the pills she had just taken, she wonders if the dosage wasn't enough to swallow her into the blackhole. Hell, she decides to give it another five minutes before she gulps down any more of those 'magical beans' as she likes to call them.

Lying there still waiting, she wonders how had it all come down to this? She could have never imagined wasting away her life this way. It was just so not her! How did she land herself in this situation then? "Love,You fool! Love did this to you" her exasparated mind seemed to be howling at her.

Going back in her mind to a time not so long ago, she saw herself spellbound by an Angel whose mere presence emitted happiness from deep within her soul. Her Angel who had rescued her from darkness and subjected her to light and everything good while nursing and healing her, She remembered the times he had made her laugh, she also remembered the times when he had made her cry yet she could not remember a time when he had made her feel this way..."How did it all change so much?" She did not seem to comprehend.

Memories were all she had of him now...Memories of the past, memories of the things that had changed, memories of all the plans they had made, memories of the secrets they had shared.. So many memories that her mind kept throwing back at her. So many memories she hopelessly wished she could forget.

"Where had she gone wrong? How did she manage to push him so far away?

Was it her fault that things had changed?....." So many questions that were giving her a migrane.

Damn it...the pills too seem to have lost their effect on her soulless body. She opens the drawer & swallows a handfull more, his Angelic face her last thought as she sings herself to sleep, finally vanishing into nothingness.