The Illusive Dream
As I drifted off to sleep
a shadow came into view
we stood in a sea of fog
moist from the morning dew.
The October air was crisp and clean
first blush of day appeared
and as the fog scattered away
I saw you crystal clear.
Memories danced about my head
and as I caught your stare
I was filled with a flood of emotions
that was more than I could bear.
Although we never married
in my heart I felt it so
but when you bent on one knee
it hurt to tell you ‘no’.
It was not a lack of interest
in our intimate life
that caused me to withdraw
from such pleasures in our life.
I really wanted to please you
in every single way
but continued to fall short
that eventually led you astray.
I suggested that we take a break
but you insisted ‘no’
you convinced me that our path was solid
and so I let it go.
I became the subject
of taunting episodes
that caused me to withdraw
and my heart began to erode.
I felt I never measured up
to your expectations
no matter how hard I tried
you proved your lack of patience.
Cyber and public flirtations
proved your lack of respect
and with the passing of time
I became a nervous wreck.
I once thought you were perfect
perfect, just for me
I considered your behavior
and decided to set you free.
In my dream you stood there
with a condescending glare
I shook my head in pity
and walked away in despair.