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We Just Disagree
Dave Mason - We Just Disagree
You ever get into one of these holes where you can’t get out? Where your efforts just make you fall back down into that misery pit? And eager hands reaching down to lend a hand just seem to push more dirt on top of you? You confuse those hands of help as hands of hurt. You rail against it and pull more dirt on yourself. Meanwhile, the hole just seems to get bigger and bigger. Maybe the hole is warm? It is a nice warm hole. Or it is familiar? You don’t like it really but it is comfortable, it is your hole. You’ve gotten used to it. It’s making you sick but you just can’t figure how to get out. Worse, now a few of those helping hands have become a few extra people trapped with you in the hole. You try to stand on their shoulders. You climb on them but you can’t get out. And if you did, you’d have left a few people behind.
Sometimes you cry. You cry so much that the hole starts to fill with your tears and lift you up towards escape. All of you maybe start to cry and you don’t even care about what anymore. You just want to get out. And when you all reach the surface, you are afraid of that hole. You don’t want to go back in and you don’t want to drag people back in there. It takes a bit of just forgetting why you got in the hole at all. It’s not suppressing it. It’s just admitting, it is in the past. Nothing you can do anything about. No doubt all of you in the hole feel like you wish you could go back in time and do things differently. But you don’t get that chance. Life right now has no time machine. If it did, you’d probably just dig a new hole.
So sometimes, I’m starting to feel now, that my muddy worn out body is dragging itself up onto the sides of that hole – and to now just leave it alone. You don’t have to figure out how you got in the hole. You don’t have to figure out who pulled who into that hole. The irony is, no one wanted to be in the hole or put anyone into that hole. It’s a trap. Traps are hidden things and all over the place on this planet. Maybe once you get out of a trap you just keep a look out for new traps, new holes? So you can avoid them. Maybe the next time you fall into a hole… you get out with a ladder? You let someone help you when they hand one down to you. They drop you a rope or something? And you take it. You don’t worry so much about who or what got you into the hole. Maybe they pushed you into that hole but it was an accident? They didn't see the hole either?
I don’t exactly know what I’m saying. I’m not quite out of this hole I’ve been digging. I’m not quite sure yet how to avoid the traps. But I’m figuring out what doesn’t work. Blaming doesn’t do much. Being angry doesn’t do much. Needing consensus on how to get out of holes or avoid them doesn’t work. Knowing you don’t want to be down in that hole helps. Accepting that each of us sees things in our own valid light seems something that is good to keep in mind. Forgiving our trespasses as we have trespassed ourselves seems key… especially if your hole had more than just you in it. I’m sure I’ll be in a hole again. I know I will be. I only hope that next time, I’m a tad wiser and that the hole isn’t so deep. Seems ironic, that pretty much, all these holes I've been in thus far, I dug myself.