When "NOT BRIDGING THE GAP" is much better
Another reflection.... when the relationship is not the right one for you, you will always encounter a gap which sometimes leads you to a long tunnel of loneliness........ but that gap that keeps you sad, may not need to be bridged in order for you to be happy. Sadness may be temporary.....You just need to wait...
Distance is a gap
Measuring a distance
It can be long or short…….wide or narrow….big or small,…no matter what the size a distance is, it is still a gap….It is like a long straight line with an empty space in the middle. Anything with a gap still lacks something, it is still a barrier, that separates one from another…. A small gap can lead to misunderstanding, and a gap, whether big or small, if not being bridged, can lead to total disconnection. And when things disconnect, total loss of communication follows, forgetting painfully how well you used to connect., and how smooth the flow of communication was.
A person can encounter distances one after another and another and another….. a distance won’t hurt if both parties involve willingly bridge the gap. Time will come you’ll encounter your own distances too…. Some of them you would wish to bridge…. Some of them you think needs to be healed completely before putting both ends meet again, and there are some that you know, no matter how sad and painful, needs not to be recovered…a rare case of not putting a bridge between the gaps, sometimes the space is necessary for you to get over things that you once thought was valuable to you…
This distance in my life is the one that I would wish to stay forever…. Coz it separates me from the world that really never exists, from a Knight that only has an armour but not a real human being inside, from a feeling that puts me into spell, from a magic that is so superficial, and from sadness that I blamed to some other things but him…..
I had emprisoned my life in endless melancholy, with a false notion that a “distance” can make my misery more severe…. But when the “distance” I feared to encounter appeared, I just pass it quietly, as if I am expecting it to arrive all my life… Now I know, not all Distances are sad…. It is sometimes a misfortune in disguise.
My Distance no matter how far it separates me from the world that I used to know, will always remind me of a gap, the only gap that I never intend to bridge. A road with dead end….a condemn post that can’t anchor even a low weigh roof….that’s the effect that I want…..Eternal….No hope…..
