Will You Run?

The misadventure which is my life,

Has been full of demons and even strife.

I have dreamt of more, dared to hope.

A life of passion, is it within my scope?

By my admission you know my fear,

Afraid to embrace my desires, my dear.

Sincerity, a desire for perfection

My moral views guiding my affection.

I didn’t go looking for a forbidden relation

And find myself scared regarding my elation.

A struggle within me continues to ensue,

As I find myself wishing for you.

Is it my youth or simply me?

Why can’t I believe myself free?

I feel dejected at my present state,

Can I “grow up” before it’s too late?

Is today the day a decision must be made?

How long do I have until your feelings fade?

You heard my thoughtful “ums”—listening as my mind spun,

And now for the first time ever I’m sharing—wondering will you run?

Thought provoking, wizened friend,

Please be patient as I mend.

My heart is battered, been abused,

My life’s mistakes please excuse.

I find you charming, quite the treat.

Your gift with words leaves me complete.

My mind is frozen, replaying you,

Our unexpected meeting left me renewed.

You’re in my thoughts, my dreams—all over me.

Your words, your voice and now your face I see.

My heart’s longing, my body’s fire,Despite my cautions, you're my desire.