Why Am I Still Single?
Why am I still single?
"Insanity...doing the same thing over and over again expecting the same results." Albert Einstein. I read this quote when I was about 29 years old and I suddenly had an epiphany. I was single and not satisfied and God spoke to me and told me why. I was in the shower and all of a sudden I heard a voice say "The man that will marry you is the one who will wait for you". I couldn't believe it is was so weird. I had dated and had played with the thought of not sleeping with the men I dated. It never happened. No one I knew was dating and not sleeping with the men they dated. It was a odd concept.
When this happened I would meet a guy and tell them in the beginning that I didn't want to sleep with them. Many said they could handle it but in the end they keep trying to get me to go back on my word. Some told me from the start they could not live that way(I respected their honesty). However, even after God told me this I still did disobeyed. I keep dating and I wasn't satisfied. Something was missing I had a conviction in me every time I slept with someone. I remember after sleeping with someone I cried. I sobbed uncontrollably and I felt probably how Adam and Eve felt after they discovered they were naked. I felt bad sleeping with people. I knew it was wrong.
Finally one day I decided I am not doing this anymore so I stopped dating for awhile. I stopped accepting calls from certain people that I knew were trying to get me in their bedroom. I went to church more..prayed a lot..and did a lot of reflective writing about the struggle I was going through. A lot of my friends didn't understand me and they thought I was crazy. It was hard for me because I was use to that way of life so this was new.
After awhile I got use to being single ,but it was depressing because it seemed like everyone else was dating,sleeping with hot men and having fun. As a result,I had to end that way of life and I didn't think it was possible. Many told me there is no way a guys going to date you for a year or more and not sleep with you or be tempted. After awhile I started to believe it... because no one wanted to date without sleeping together.
I was at the end of my rope and I began to pray and cry one night. I was lonely and I thought God had let me down. I cried for hours and hours one night and wrote a poem I will share with you in another blog
To make a long story short about six months later I got a phone call from a co-worker and I tell you no lie she said"I wanted you to meet this guy I know,he is in the business field and he loves the Lord and he is ready for a wife." My mouth dropped...The first thing I asked of course was, is he cute? How much money does he makes? (see what I was thinking) It was beautiful..it was like God saying see I told you I would take care of you.
I met him we went on one date(and he told me he would wait for me as long as he could) and ever since then we have never stopped talking. We are married now and I only dated him for one year.(guess I proved the nay sayers wrong)
I wrote this blog because I want to offer some advice for all the young ladies and men who keep doing the same thing over and over again expecting different results. If you are wondering why you are still single, or why do you keep meeting the wrong people..take some time and talk to God ask him what he wants for your life. Read your Bible and cry out to the Lord and ask for forgiveness for your sin. Then repent...and turn away from your sin ..in other words STOP DOING IT. DON"T KEEP DOING THE WRONG THING EXPECTING SOMETHING GOOD TO HAPPEN TO YOU. Please take my advice this will help you and your family and will break many generational curses on your life.
Also, it may not happen in two months or one year. Remember our time and God's time are not the same. Have patience and remember everything has its own season.
Please if you have any questions about this subject or if you are going through this struggle please comment on my blog and I will answer.