Why Abuse Comes in Forms That Nobody Understands

Hello World my name is chyentel or as you can call me channy. Abuse is one of the topics i feel strongly to talk about. From my own experience from my ex. This is my story. I mean I went from being the most happy girl to the most paranoid scared girl before got I got with him.

It started out like a normal relationship we had some of the best times in the beginning it was perfect. I notice a couple weeks late how he was checking my phone going though every messages that i ever sent i had to give my passwords to him so he ( could keep an eye on me) it got to the point where I wouldn't go to work because I was sick and he would be calling me over and over to see where I was. At the time I would think it was normal for a boyfriend to do that.

Over the next couple of weeks after that if he didn't like what I was doing or if I didn't show up on time coming home. He would grab my arms and slap my back it was pretty bad. We got pregnant in may of 2017 for me only be 18 for a month I was scared but happy. I thought maybe it would be better for us to get along better for this child I told him i was pregnant right now at first he acted like he was exited to be a dad so I never thought what came next was going to be the worst thing ever

I mean once he found out you think we would become so happy right. I was wrong for believe in this monster that he was. People still ask me to this day why didn't you leave when all of this was going on and well the truth is i was stupid very stupid.

over the next month after going to the doctors and making sure everything was healthy with this baby I was so excited. We got back to his apartment and i swear i thought i saw the devil in him. He was so angry and hurtful I never thought he would do what he did.

The same day he had the worst look in his eye. I went to go leave since we weren't living together and he came into the room as i was grabbing my purse and keys to leave he took my keys from me and threw them at my face i never thought that would ever happen. I grabbing my keys and went out the door by which he followed me and shoved me down the stairs.

which it ended up hitting my belly on the step. the blood that was coming out i knew it wasn't good. the next thing i remember was walking up in the hospital. asking the doctor is the baby OK. the worse news I could hear when the doctor walked in was theres no heartbeat. I knew it was his fault i hated it. I remember calling my sister and telling her to come to the hospital to pick me up. since I knew i couldn't go back. to his house i remember seeing my phone with messages saying i better come back or else I told my sister i would be fine even though she kept telling me it wasn't right to go back i went back and he ( said sorry )

I remember yelling at him saying its your fault why did you do what you did. I remember the anger in my voice was hate that i had towards him. He grab me and punched me in the eyes giving me too black eyes. seeing what he was. Made me strong enough to leave.

To this day i'm a lot happy er knowing the chose I had was to leave. there are sunny days and sad days i still get panick attacks after everything but the choice to leave was the best for me.


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