An encounter with the Master Physician.
The heart mender, Jesus.
Heart to Heart
Father please speak through me now as I move my fingers on the keyboard. Oh Jesus so much has happened in the last year. You held me up. You stood by me. You rescued me from death. One surgery removed my sick gall bladder. How does a gall bladder stop working? It does happen and you know all things because you are the designer. Praise to God we got through it together. Lord you are good and greatly to be praised. I was so ill and you were right there with me. You heard the prayers of many and you healed me. God inhabits the praises of His people. (Psalm 22:3)
When I came home from the hospital days later I could barely breathe. I was frightened.. The medication from surgery was lingering in my system and it was pushing on my diaphragm and my lungs. I could not get a full breath. But you oh Lord heard my cry. You led me to Psalm 103. You pulled me from the mire pit and crowned me with love and compassion. Because you loved us first; we too can love. Oh how great is your love. You healed me good and gracious God. You give us the very breath we breathe. Small things such as bills were insignificant. Sweating the small stuff was futile, wasted time and selfish. God promises to care for us and He will meet the needs of His children..(Philippians 4:19)
You gave us a love letter to follow we have no excuse for grumbling or murmuring. Many in the world will murmur and blame you Father and all the while long for more to fill the gap inside.That was me at one time. I do not forget where I came from. Now I was depending on you for my very breath. Abba Father you raised me up and delivered me. You never left me comfortless. (Hebrews 11:1) In less than three days I was on my feet again. Oh how we can take the very breath of air we breathe for granted.
I grew sick again with in a months time. I believed it was associated with the surgery. The pain was unbearable. I called out to you. I was so ill. My David was so afraid for me. He is so dear and tender my Lord. Please so bless my precious husband because he is faithful and because you are good, Father. He so loves you my Lord. How wonderful it is to have a spouse who shares in the love of Christ Jesus. I have had it the other way and that is a most difficult time. Many I know have only one believer in the family. I pray for them nnd you tell us you will use the child of God to touch the others. I know it is a lonely and hard road to worship by yourself in a home where the name of Jesus is shunned. Thank you Jesus for your free gift of salvation.Many will choose not come to you. You tell us the road is narrow and many will take the wide gate that only leads to destruction.
I was off to the hospital by way of ambulance. The pain so great the paramedics had to give me intense pain medication to calm me. I was so frightened. I was not frightened to die but to have the pain. Nothing would stay down. I was humbled everything in this small body of mine was coming out both ends. But you oh Lord were with me. You were right there. Why do we go though times as this? The body gets sick. This is life and the ole tents do wear down. But you oh Lord are Healer. You will give us long life and sustain us on our sickbed and heal our wounds.( Psalm 41: 3) I have often heard the saying, 'only the good die young'. There is truth in that statement. .So painful as it is for those that struggle with the loss of a loved and dear one. Praise God the young one rests in Lord. Oh how great is our God to gift us with eternal life in Him. We and our fininte mind cannot imagine the good you have prepared for your children. us. You give us plenty to look forward to when we leave this earth. Oh how great is your design. You are Holy my Lord You are most awesome.
At the hospital I am told I do not have pneumonia which you know I am prone too. I have stood on healing of my lungs for what seems like years and your grace is sufficient. I to this day believe on a miracle and the progression of COPD to stop in its tracks today and restored lungs come. In the name of Jesus I thank you. I was so grateful there was no pneumonia. I was not in pain any longer. The strong pain medication kept the pain at bay. I was higher than a kite. Your hand was on me Lord. The doctor told me she was going to keep me a night in the hospital. I had a bad virus. Usually I put up a fight to be admitted not this time. I was so tired.
That was the last thing I recall until I am told 11 days later. I woke and I did not know where I was. Was I at an airport? My legs and arms seemed to be strapped down. Were we going to take off soon? I panicked. My daughter encouraged me that I was ok. Why was she here? Jessica lived over 100 miles from me. I was terrified. I was powerless and nothing made sense. What was going on had there been a car accident? I remembered a dream. My husband had hurt someone while we were driving. When I asked him about it he told me no. He mentioned that we would talk later. No, I needed to know and now. I was angry and I needed clarity. David assured me that all of the family was fine. My car was in fact parked at home and there had been no accident. That conversation I discovered later was not a dream. I was so tired. My throat hurt. You were with me Lord.
A petite woman with mid length brown hair came to me. She was sitting on a bench. I held her hand and asked her to pray for me. She delighted in prayer. Her hands were cold. I mentioned that to her and she told me,' but my heart is warm.' I felt comforted. Who was this dear woman and would she come again, I ask. She smiled and said,' yes.' She did return again and soon. She had the same cool hands and warm heart. I lay on my side with tears. I did not understand. She encouraged me. Later in the week when I asked my family and friends about her no one recalled seeing a woman I described. Lord you were with me you sent this precious angel to pray with me. Was she and angel yes, was she a human being? It could be, I do not know,but I do know You Lord sent her to me. You are awesome.
I must have been struggling in my spirit. I remember the light it illuminated around and above me. I felt wrapped in its warmth. I was comforted and at peace. Serene I was calmed and assured. I knew it was you Lord. You told me you had work for me. You called me by name. You told me you were not ready that I should come home now. The light I do not think I will ever forget. The surmountable comfort I felt engulfed my very being. The Spirit of God was present with me. I had an encounter with you Lord. Only you could come as this. Yes medicine makes one out of it. That is no doubt but you Lord are the Comforter. You abide in me and I in you. You are the Light Lord the Light of the world! In you there is no darkness.
If I could tell anyone one thing through this story I would say make sure you know where you are going when you pass from this life. I know that I am saved. I am a child of Almighty God. I would tell them because we all (me included) can easily take life for granted. It is like we think we are indispensable to some extinct even if we know better! We do not know where, when and why our life will end on planet earth. We do not know when we will be called to our eternal home. When our time comes we need to be ready today. If you have any question as to your salvation than get it right today. Today is the day off salvation. (2 Corinthians 6:2) I have heard many professed Christian's say, 'I hope I am going to heaven.' No you do not hope, you know that you belong to Jesus. You should have no question in your heart on who your Savior is. It is Jesus Christ who saves us. You should be assured your name is in the Lambs book of Life. If you have asked Jesus Christ into your heart as Lord and Savior and repented of sin and confessed Jesus with your mouth than you will be saved. (Roman 10:9-10) That means you are a child of God. You are born again and saved.
No more night.
In the clouds
What in the world?
I wake and have these large white mittens on each hand. I literally tried to take them off with my teeth. My hands looked like I was going to a boxing match. What was going on? I manage to ring for a nurse. She comes in and takes off the mitts. She tells me I was a very sick woman. They had to put these on me because I kept trying to pull out my tubes. Tubes of what? Nothing made sense. What? I notice a picture on the counter of my three beautiful daughters, precious husband, me and my adorable grandsons. Oh yes, I recall we had that photo taken at the helicopter landing at the very hospital I lay in. My daughters insist we wear coordinating colors that day. It was like we all were in one large and fluffy white cloud. I am tired. I drift off to sleep.
When I wake my youngest daughter was sitting in the overstuffed hospital chair. My primary care physician was standing by me. He tells me I was lucky to be alive. There is not luck about it in Gods world. I am blessed to be alive. I had gone into respiratory distress in the early morning hours. Somehow during the night I contacted pneumonia only hours after I was admitted. My lung capacity and breath went down to a 42. It is normal range at 90 to 94. Praise God a nurse caught glimpse of my monitor. That was no error. I was a code blue. Later I found out my neighbor was in the hospital and heard code blue, code blue that same hour. I did not recall anything. My primary care physician' happened' to be in the hospital on that early morning day, around 5 am on rounds. I was going fast I am told. My doctor incubated me with a tube to get my lungs to work. I was rushed to critical care. There I lay with tubes breathing for me, feeding me, going to the bathroom for me, medicating me for eleven days. The tubes were keeping me alive.
My family had been beside themselves. My husband told me he crawled out of bed on day three after coming home to rest and hit his knees and pleaded with God not to take me home, yet. The church came to pray. Pastor Don laid hands on me. Family and close friends came to visit and pray for healing. My family was told in 10 days they would take out the breathing tube.. Hopefully I would breath on my own. I could not take all of this this all in. I wept, My daughter came up to me and rubbed my cheek. Her hands were so warm. 'Momma we almost lost you. You re had us so scared. You are alive and it is a miracle.
I was told that as the medication came out of me I would recall more. I did not recall much more except what I have mentioned to you. Oh yeah, the picture on the counter well the family, nurses and doctors really chuckled on that one. 'No mom we went to a studio to have that picture taken, remember?' Oh yes now I did. So medicine does stranger things to the head. The good news is we have a master Healer. His name is Jesus Christ.
I still had many questions. Like Why? I do not know except God has work for me. I do know He was with me. I do know the power of prayer does move mountains. The mountain was pushed into the sea. The first time they took out the breathing tube I could not breath on my own. I can not imagine how my family must have felt. I wept to think of the pain they went through. They put it in another day. My family has grown extremely close in the interm. God is not one that He should lie. God turns all things for the good for those that love HIM.(Romans 8:28) My precious family and friends hung on to Jesus and believed. They were changed on the inside. I was changed on the inside. Each day is a gift from God. Do not take this lightly. Count your blessings and Saints firm up and stand tall. You are a child of the most High God. Tell the brokenhearted there is hope. Jesus is our hope and salvation. There is none other.
This happened in October 2014. I was in the hospital a total of 18 days. I was told by many that I was a little fighter. 'Really I say, 'no it is Christ in me if He be for us who then can be against us?' Yes God did put a fighting spirit on me, HIS Spirit. I am His and He created you and I for a reason and purpose. Go for it and be encouraged any that are sick or brokenhearted. There is a Healer and He is still in the miracle working business.
I love you and I thank you for coming over for a read. I have missed my hub pages. I hope to be here more often. I have much reading to do. I have started a woman’s Bible study in my home and in 8 weeks time it has grown from a few to like ten and growing..Through the bible study there are many needs. It is all good. God is good and so loved us that whoever believes in His son Jesus will not be put to shame but have eternal life with Him and not perish. John 3:16. There are many hurting. Christians hurt as well. We all struggle. The Christian walk is not easy. But God gave us His promises and He is not a liar. He will hold us up when we are weak He is strong. (2 Corinthians 12:10) Keep going dear saints. We need each other.
If you do not know Jesus. Think again. If you deny Jesus you deny the Father God and He too will deny you. Jesus wants a relationship with His family. He is the way, truth and life. (John 14:6) He does not want to loose any to eternal damnation. He only wants our love and hearts. He will do the heart mending. He is the Master Physician. The Great IAM. All Glory to God.
I left a video for you above. You will be touched, grab the tissue.
My love in Christ Jesus, Shalom. Skye
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