Dear Dirt I Have a Mop
I need to let you know you got to me this week. I turned this way and that way and I saw you creeping in. Now others may not have seen you as well as I did because in general things were picked up. Nevertheless, I saw you mounting on the table tops, slowly forming your tiny mound's. Don’t think your gathering of dust bunnies in the cleverly hidden corners has gone under my radar, I see you and I know you’re there!
I reacted to you as I saw you sneaking in around me. See, you’re a little thing that should not fluster me, and yet you grab hold of me and then the frustration of your presence places me in a tailspin. It is not that you have this power over me, for you are small and barely seen. It is just I know you are there and you get under my skin. I get overwhelmed by life and so eagerly want to attend to you and yet more important things take heed and so the timing of your removal stretches on into another week. It is not that I haven’t tackled you or attempted to get you under control. It’s just that as I start the process I am taken to another area where I see more of you. At this moment, I again stop and try to figure the best way to address you. If I do a half decent job I will not need to address you for a while. I know you will find your way back in regardless of my attention to you, but that is okay. I will feel a sense of repair and renewal as I wash you away and I see the covered brightness you are hiding. I will use the tools at my disposal to limit your return. I realize DIRT that it will be an ongoing battle, but I am armed and ready, so bring it on! You can’t gain power over me unless I allow your presence to affect my mood, my motivation, my focus and most importantly, my joy in things better than the feelings you bring. Look out DIRT I have a dustpan and a mop.
As I reflected on my quite passionate feelings as to the build up of chores and yes, DIRT, that had fallen by the wayside in the past few weeks, I became saddened as to why I would let any of this bother me, even for a minute. Why would I give energy to anything that is out of my control due to circumstance, but I did. I gave it attention even spewing my frustration at all things DIRT. A comic reaction yes, but a symbolic one for sure, as it became clear to me in retrospect.
My release of frustration came at the things that were overtaking me that I was unable to get to for a variety of reasons. Well, not even reasons they were life happenings requiring prioritization. So when I reflected on my DIRT I was pleased that I prioritized life and love before the handling of things out of my control. By doing so, it was then by God’s Grace I again found calm. This did not mean I would not address the DIRT; in fact, I became even more committed to making a plan to slowly address it in time, carefully so as to not take time for the needs of others and myself.
This conversation with myself brought me to the clarity of my disdain. It was not just the dust bunnies and mounds of DIRT that were bothering me. It was so much more, it was my choice to rid my life, of as much sin, as I can and knowing, I do fail, miserably, due to so many things. I fail due to Judgments, assumptions, humanism, Ignorance of others and lack of knowledge just to name a few. I find it so sad that because one chooses to share or talk about their walk with God and their continual quest for knowledge in this area, it makes one a candidate for ridicule and assumptions of their ability to be accepting of others. But this is truly a misconception, for to be a true Christian you should realize you are with sin, your own DIRT if you will.
So as a Christian why would you want to place judgments or assumptions on anyone? Why would you want to pull down and make even one person feel less than or left out? We should want only one thing for them. That thing is for each person to feel the love of God in his or her own heart. To feel guided and loved and accepted right where they are. To feel welcoming and forgiveness is always possible, regardless of situations, as long as they take responsibility for their actions, quietly repent and live solely for God’s Glory and in HIS GRACE. As a Christian you are never better than anyone else, you just recognize your own dirt a little more and your conscience, or the Holy spirit, nags at you to take care of it.
It is, of course, a process and some days will go well and others not so well, but it is the continual clearing away that gets the job done. It saddens me the uneasiness I see that comes up in people when relation to God and His word is discussed, not surprising in this current society, just a little sad. It is okay to be who you are and believe what you believe. We love to share so many topics and we get excited about them. The next show, the next game, the next fashion statement, our favorite team, our favorite hobby, our choice of weekend activity. All of these things are really cool and fun to talk about. I love to hear what people are talking about and the new things going on in their lives. I like the opinionated, the passionate, the funny and sarcastic comedy of some and even the confused and peculiar conversation of a few, as I want to always be a life learner. I just want to be that life learner as I relate it to Gods word and for that, I will stand proud and in honor of His teachings.
People may get uncomfortable with your topic, especially if they don’t know it. But that is okay, just listen and be excited for them. Let them know they are important to you just the way they are. Let them know that you care about what they care about. Don’t judge them only learn from them and have fun getting to know their reality. Then I believe they will do the same for you. They may judge when they don’t understand. People do this as a natural defense. Eventually, they will let down their guard, take you as you are and let you be you. So stand up and be you a Christian work in progress. It may not be your easiest role on the outside, but on the inside, it will come together as you work on it.
God sees you trying and succeeding, He even sees you failing, but He will never let us go. Let your light shine, smile when they laugh and never let your light be put out. Shine for Him, His glow really looks good on you. Just ask Him in, He has already invited you to the party, His invitation is always open. I think it is good to add Him to our conversations, actually, I think you think that too. You may just be afraid of what others think? How about letting go of that DIRT?
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