Don't focus on what is not
You're a keeper!
Last night I couldn't stop thinking about all the stuff that I have not achieved. I pondered all the things I've messed up, and where I should be, compared to where I am. I was starting to get pretty down. I was starting to think I'll never be where I need to be.
Sometimes the things we need to overcome look like a huge mountain towering over our lives, and we don't even know how to begin to climb it. However, climb it we must. It's then that we have to rely on Jesus. It's then that we have to look to scripture, where Jesus says, "in the world you shall have tribulation, but take heart, I have overcome the world". You have to look at scriptures like I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, and, With God, all things are possible.
Yes there is a lot that I have yet to do. It seems that I am at a stand still. It seems that I can't see where the road ahead is going. Too many twists and turns lay await on the uphill climb for me to see very far. That my friends can be scary. Still, I have to start climbing.
When my soul gets restless and says, Lord... What is going on? That is when I have to trust Jesus. When I get weary of trying and I feel like I don't measure up, That is when I have to trust Jesus. He is our rock. He sees the road. He sees the mountain. He can help us climb.
He says come to me all ye who are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
People may think that because I'm not working right now, I have it easy. Quite the contrary, I want to work, and because I'm not it's bothering me a lot. I can't describe the loss I felt when I became unable to work in 2006. I was a person that gave 100 percent. I was close to a workaholic.
Trying to find that passion again has been difficult. I will find the right thing again. The Lord will open another door, even though I seem to have messed up some of them.
I will trust Him. I will say, Lord, whatever door you want me to go through, let me see it clearly. Point me in a direction Lord. Show me the way you want me to go.
So the mountain may loom ahead, and the road may appear long and dark, in spite of all that, there is a light that shines from above pointing the way.
All things work together for the good.
And, He meant it for my good.
So if your feeling a little down on yourself, don't. You're a keeper. Had you not been, the Lord would not have given His life for you!