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Eric’s Thursday Sermon; What Am I Doing?

Updated on July 22, 2020

Love

I wonder how it works
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Don't Feel All that Good.

Thousands and thousands of viewers on the Eric’s Sunday Sermon. Pages and pages on a Google search. It was not meant to be this way. The series was and is designed to be personal. It is meant to be between you and I and not a broadcast. I would decide that I failed. Hundreds of views. Nay, thousands. What went wrong I ask myself?

My syntax is hazy at best. I put words in the wrong order on purpose. I brutalize my readers with a sense of nonsense. I go on for paragraphs that would seem to have nothing to do with the conclusion of love. I have written 100’s of thousands words.

I am Bi-Polar to a degree of being certified. I can no more write every week and publish than you can jump up to the moon. Yet it happens. Way over 300 times. I miss days, weeks sometimes in the wilderness. No I really mean that. I hike into places where no man has electronics. I hang from cliffs that makes my knees shake and scare me to death, but I write the sermons which partly to my dismay are read by thousands a week.

Have you ever needed validation? I hit that publish button and freak out. Do not think for a moment that each sermon is easy. It is brutal. If I lead one person astray I fail. Go ahead and write. But I suggest strongly not to write sermons. The one word said wrong can twist a man. Yet the idea is to twist a man into thinking not as I, but for himself. I am not the one. I am only he that asked questions.

Peace be with you as you read my humble poetry

Shield Me

Shield me, my eyes open and so much to see

Shield me, please give my eyes back to me

Shield me inside, in love is destiny

Shield me from the world that be

Shield me my brave you son

Shield me my only loved one

Shield me, tempest abound in other men

Shield me, send me to a new better within

Shield me my freeing in need

Shield me from society’s bleed

Shield me from all that is

Do not shield me from love that’s His

I Ain't Feeling....

Bring On Some Tough Times

What a treasure
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Get to work boy!!!
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A Little, Just a Little

I failed to exercise yesterday. I left nature to its own devices. I did not walk a mile or more. I did not hug my son. I screwed up. Shucks I messed up and got all wonky. Oh do not concern yourself at my distress, I have the finest family in the world. Siblings to children, a wonderfully crazed ex-wife and a doting loved wife. I done got the bestest of friends. I have life or death matters to work on. I don’t have to work. I need a dog. And I need a new mattress. Let me think on it --- well I do not need anything. Can you imagine? Can you even imagine a world where the only problems are made up? Darn it too much salt on the salmon. Not to worry I scrapped it and it was awesome.

I do not wish you to suffer. I gave that up with my second diagnoses with cancer. Give it up. The sun is there just for you. Oh and so are the clouds. Get out you binoculars and train them on the clouds. Oh My!!

I was doing business in Mexico. We flew back home in a private jet with some high fluting big wigs. The Berlin wall just came down. And yet we saw the wall on the border. I suggest one to keep them out is a good bit better than one to keep them in. You ponder that and when you have the answer let me know. Maybe think of the tale of Jericho.

Can you even think of a life that requires questions rather than answers. I am like the man with one foot on a solid rock and the other swinging in the air. No footing at all. I suggest you stand on solid ground and do not follow my lead as you will surely fall into a creek that may just carry you away.

Let me quote a master; “love is given freely to you but it is up to you to seize it”. I choose not to suffer, I choose to love. Again, not my call as “free will” was taken from me years ago. Did I mention that I had a wart? It just fell off. Warts and all I love. Wouldn’t life be grand if there were no warts. Maybe not. Again you must answer for yourself.

Help

Great Night

I just do not see myself as a worthy writer and preacher. In my bones it just makes no sense at all to me. Let my digress for a moment. I write briefs for an avocation. You know what I mean. Paperwork. I get guys off death row. I keep drug dealers from prison. Disgusting and I am not called to do normal. I am called in that evil legal world to write compassion. Nobody does it better. I have never lost a position in 44 years.

Yellow, black, green, blue and red. I picked juries for a living and my job was to get at least 3 that would never agree. My system was those colors. A red hates a black and a green will never agree with a blue. Yes, I never picked a jury that could agree on conviction. You think of bad as some little thing you do, wrong. Well my bad is huge. Human lives hang in a corrupt system and I clear the worst of the worst.

I have looked back and I “worked” for coming on 50 years. I never once worked. I have never been fired. Last count I have done over 40 jobs. I get bored and leave or I just finish a job like building a home or getting someone out of foreclosure. House painting is my favorite. I just don’t work. I have never had a job I thought I had to get to. I have always been there the first and left the last. Now I just write at 3 in the morning or 7 at night in between clearing the land and cooking a meal.

Once again I double back on love. It is the dandiest I know. I love work and I seem to like my depressions. They just are what they are. I am telling you depression stinks. My wife just kept bringing on the food last night which I did not want. She stood there like a drill sergeant and made me eat. Love conquers evil. I would not be able to write this piece without love. Do not do it. Reach out and get that love. Tell them how your feel. Above all let people love you.

I cannot remember a single time when I was not loved. But sometimes I have to reach out to get it. I have never had a friend who did not appreciate being called on to love me. How does that work? Call me at 858-736- 4432. I fully guarantee that I will give you some loving. Please just don’t do it by yourself the end of that story does not have a happy one.

I am going to crawl, no walk back to my hole now. That person may need you more than you need them. Give them the chance. Buenos Dias.

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    • Ericdierker profile imageAUTHOR

      Eric Dierker 

      12 months ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Thank you Bill. A great honor coming from such a loving man.

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      William Kovacic 

      12 months ago from Pleasant Gap, PA

      You ooze love, Buddy. You ooze love!

    • Ericdierker profile imageAUTHOR

      Eric Dierker 

      12 months ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Audrey that is one of the nicest comments I have gotten ever. It brings me up to a great level.

      I am just assuming the weather is perfect for you there and mostly safe.

    • Ericdierker profile imageAUTHOR

      Eric Dierker 

      12 months ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Mel yes I missed but I called right back and the number was disconnected.

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      Audrey Hunt 

      12 months ago from Idyllwild Ca.

      I feel like I've just taken a beautiful journey into your loving heart. Thank you, Eric. You are really quite magnificent! And thanks for the photo of your adorable little boy. He is really something! Your wife is beautiful as well...you are so blessed to have your family.

      I'm going to sound quite egotistical here and let you know that you wrote this sermon just for me. :) I absolutely lingered on every word. Your poem has been printed and is tacked up on my wall to read every day...several times a day.

      Thank you and love to you and your sweet family.

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      Mel Carriere 

      12 months ago from Snowbound and down in Northern Colorado

      PS I forgot to add I like your poetry, you missed your calling.

    • Ericdierker profile imageAUTHOR

      Eric Dierker 

      12 months ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Nithya I hope things are going as best the can in Dubai. It is very nice of you to come by and leave your comment. Thanks.

    • Ericdierker profile imageAUTHOR

      Eric Dierker 

      12 months ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Mel, I understand all exorcism were banned for Covid. That partially explains all the mean crazy folks maybe.

      I have about 5 more years before memoirs -- you know that Statute of Limitations deal. That is know as SOL.

    • Ericdierker profile imageAUTHOR

      Eric Dierker 

      12 months ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Thanks Flourish. Don't cats really enjoy those pointer dots? Lol. Yes I do jump around a bit.

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      Nithya Venkat 

      12 months ago from Dubai

      It is a blessing to be surrounded by people who love and care for you. As you say we should embrace love when it comes our way. I enjoyed reading your sermon and your poem, thank you for sharing.

    • Ericdierker profile imageAUTHOR

      Eric Dierker 

      12 months ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Linda, Thank you. I think that I get over concerned over not telling people what to think and that lends itself to some confusion. I am only a work in progress thank goodness.

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      Mel Carriere 

      12 months ago from Snowbound and down in Northern Colorado

      You know, Billybuc wrote his memoirs, and I think you should too. You probably have great some great true confessions in there that would make our toenail hair curl. Hope you are working through all your personal angels. I won't call them personal demons because then we would have to call an Exorcist, and the Vatican is way backed up where that is concerned. Great read for a Friday AM.

    • Ericdierker profile imageAUTHOR

      Eric Dierker 

      12 months ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Ruby I made those calls. All thanked me effusively. By golly no matter, connecting up with and giving them love. There is a whole bunch of need out there.

    • Ericdierker profile imageAUTHOR

      Eric Dierker 

      12 months ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Thanks John, you pick me up. I think the key just might be going with the flow no matter how big the waves. And our paddle must be love.

    • Ericdierker profile imageAUTHOR

      Eric Dierker 

      12 months ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Mary you are always kind to me, I appreciate it much. Having a reluctance to receive love is one of the most interesting parts of our human condition. So much ugly stuff could be avoided.

    • Ericdierker profile imageAUTHOR

      Eric Dierker 

      12 months ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Thanks a ton Ivana. I am told to be careful and not write too much from the heart. I have have been told to be careful not to write too mental. A balance often makes things a little jumbled. You start my day off happy.

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      FlourishAnyway 

      12 months ago from USA

      I felt a little bit like a cat following one of those laser pointer toys following you with this one but I liked it. It’s mighty impressive you’ve never been fired from a job. (Me neither but you’re ahead of me in years and jobs.) Hugs from across the internet to you. You entertain and inspire.

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      Linda Crampton 

      12 months ago from British Columbia, Canada

      Thank you for once again sharing your thoughts. Your articles are always interesting. Best wishes to you, Eric.

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      Ruby Jean Richert 

      12 months ago from Southern Illinois

      I am going to place a call. Thank you for loving me enough to shame me for not calling sooner. Loved this sermon.

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      John Hansen 

      12 months ago from Gondwana Land

      Who would have expected a “Thursday Sermon.” I thought to myself, “Eric must have a good reason for this.” Well, it is not for us to question when we are directed to do things, but there is always a reason. There are people out there who needed to read this today, right now, and not on a Sunday. Hey, I needed it, ok. I need to tell people I love them more....there can never be too much.

      Sometimes we get so involved in a certain aspect of life, say our job for instance, that we focus too much on that and neglect other things that are more important. I have been surprised recently by how much my writing services are in demand and have been distracted by the dollar signs (since Covid-19) that I feel I have given less time than needed elsewhere.

      Your sermon has shown me I need to find that balance, and that love needs to be given top priority. Thousands and thousands of viewers own your sermons..good for you, the more you reach the more you help. Oh, and Joe Cocker is a legend. I sense you aren’t feeling 100% right now, well nothing can keep a good man down for long, and you my friend are a good man.

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      Mary Norton 

      12 months ago from Ontario, Canada

      "Above all let people love you." This line struck me as often; I hesitate to let people love me. It is hard for me to accept love. Keep giving us your sermon. The world benefits.

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      Ivana Divac 

      12 months ago from Serbia

      Everything about this is so emotional, and beautifully written. Love is truly the greatest force in the Universe. Thank you so much for sharing this!

    • Ericdierker profile imageAUTHOR

      Eric Dierker 

      12 months ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Rania that surely is a nice and welcome comment. Seems to me like you do real well in the positivist area. I am sure that we are better associating with such good folks.

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      Eric Dierker 

      12 months ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Denise i think you make a good and valid point. I tend to go from sound bytes to quotes.

      Thanks for leaving a note it is always good to hear from you.

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      Danny 

      12 months ago from India

      Yes, Eric. Readers found that useful. Those limes are not just interesting but extremely healthy too, especially the leaves.

    • Ericdierker profile imageAUTHOR

      Eric Dierker 

      12 months ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Thanks Danny and thanks for your great article on those special limes. In Vietnam lemons and limes are both called chanh.

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      Rania Heikal 

      12 months ago from Egypt

      You get surprised of the thousands of readers but actually your articles and this one in particular are beautifully written. You write what comes out of your heart and your deep soul and expect nothing because it is just what you want to say. Then you find wonderful vibes. I love such an expected success. I liked also your blessings/ suffering equilibrium and your decision of opting for happiness. Thank you for sharing.

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      Eric Dierker 

      12 months ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Linda I am a blessed one to have old friends and family that I "internet" with. I know you very well I think. Perhaps we bare more of ourselves in writing.

      Which reminds me that I have to get this letter in the mail today. A good friend needs a pick me up.

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      Denise McGill 

      12 months ago from Fresno CA

      Some days you confuse me. I find it hard to follow where you are going. This must be a bipolar day. I'm glad your sermons are doing well for you. People do like to be prompted to think.

      Blessings,

      Denise

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      Danny 

      12 months ago from India

      Very touching piece Eric and insightful too.

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      Linda Lum 

      12 months ago from Washington State, USA

      Eric, we "internet" with hundreds, but we don't really know anyone. There are no real faces, only snapshots, and emojis replace actual hugs. We're alone in a world of billions of souls.

      Thank you once again for reminding us to care less about ourselves and more about those around us. Thank you for reminding us that what we write will last long after we depart this earth and can have more impact than we'll ever know.

      Do what you do and say what you say in love. Always remember love.

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      Liz Westwood 

      12 months ago from UK

      Your articles always give much food for thought.

    • Ericdierker profile imageAUTHOR

      Eric Dierker 

      12 months ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Avyukth we are lucky to be doing what we want in the way of spreading some love. Thank you.

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      Eric Dierker 

      12 months ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Mr. Happy, I don't get to go camping for a few weeks here. And boy am I looking forward to it.

      Yes indeed I do not see you as a sufferer. Have a great day.

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      Eric Dierker 

      12 months ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Devika thank you much. We are doing our best and I hear that is good enough.

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      Eric Dierker 

      12 months ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Pamela it is simply the best place to be: To be loved.

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      Eric Dierker 

      12 months ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Thanks Bill, I am a little sluggish at the moment so to the max might be a bit lame ;-)

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      Avyukth Krishna 

      12 months ago from Bangalore

      In today's world, we are connected to everyone but we often feel alone. We talk to hundreds of people, but we still don't feel loved. It's important to start building deeper relationships with the people around us and your article has brought this fact out beautifully.

      Great work !

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      Mr. Happy 

      12 months ago from Toronto, Canada

      Like Mr. Bill said, that Joe Cocker performance at Woodstock is a "classic" and I simply love it! His passion is impressive. Thanks for sharing. I do watch that every once in a while.

      "I choose not to suffer" - Well, we do have that in common, for sure! I'm not the "sufferer" type either and I also make no sacrifices. I just do what I have to do, happily (even if I have to walk through mud).

      "Last count I have done over 40 jobs." - You can put this line in a mobster movie, haha!!

      "The one word said wrong can twist a man" - That's on all of us but yes, especially on those who give sermons.

      Best of luck to You! I'm off camping for a week this Friday. Enough of the city. Cheers!

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      Devika Primić 

      12 months ago from Dubrovnik, Croatia

      Hi Eric your work touches souls of everyone here and mine too. Great message and as always you share valuable in your work.

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      Pamela Oglesby 

      12 months ago from Sunny Florida

      It is special to have one of your sermons today. Love of family, friends, w love.ork and so on makes us feel very good and satisfied with our lives.

      I wish you the best every single day and I appreciate your words of love.

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      Bill Holland 

      12 months ago from Olympia, WA

      That Cocker performance at Woodstock is a classic, isn't it? So's the song, for that matter. So's your message here.

      Unlovable brutes, you and me, and yet we are loved something fierce by people who should know better. Go figure!

      Great day to be alive, my friend. Let's live it to the max!

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