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I Will Lead Them

Updated on October 28, 2009

The steps of a good man are ordered by the LORD:
and he delighteth in his way.
Though he fall, he shall not be utterly cast down:
for the LORD upholdeth him with his hand.

Psalm 37:23,24 KJV

The last couple weeks I have been going through some terrible depression. I feel so alone at times. I seem to have lost my daughter to a man that is of the devil. I read and ponder on the Psalms alot. Even though I may fall I sit and pray and wait for God to lift me up out of this despair. I feel I have no one. So I write here on hubpages to get prayer and honesty from you all here, and pray I am not a bother to know one here.

At times I can't seem to make it out of bed, I feel shaky and afraid. I don't know what I'm afraid of except the pain my daughter may be going through. I love to write and this depression is taking that from me. I need friends but then I seem to hide out when someone trys to get close.I try to explain the strange thing I'm going through but it won't come out to where someone will understand.

I pray and pray all day long, I cry out to Jesus but I know He has pulled me out of despair before but I wonder what is taking so long this time.I cry and I sleep but I don't sleep soundly its like I just lay there all day long. My life is falling apart inside my heart and I just seem to have to wait for God to pull me out of this. I feel at times this has got me down and I'm not getting up.

Please keep praying for me for I'm a child of GOD and I NEED you all so bad.

 

Love BettyB

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      UPStar 

      8 years ago

      This certainly does seem to be an attack. Remember your JOY and hold fast... you will see God come through again for you even if it takes some time. Thanks for being willing to share your heart. God loves you!

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      Betty Bolden 

      8 years ago from Bucyrus Ohio

      your all so precious thank you so much

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      Gini Brown 

      8 years ago

      Betty, we are praying for you and your daughter. It is hard to turn it over to God when it hits home like this, even though we believe, when it is this close we stop listening as hard to what He is saying.

      He will never leave you, you are never alone, This too for your daughter, just look for the signs of this and it may not be in the way you think of but His answers are there.

      God's presence is all around you and you are loved.

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      DeBorrah K Ogans 

      8 years ago

      JESUSMYJOY, Your pain is coming across clearly. The enemy is trying to wear you down. You are not alone! The Lord is right there with you! He is also Inside you! It is during times like this you MUST continue to cleave to the LORD! You CAN "Stand against the wiles of the devil" Spend some time slowly digesting Ephesians here you will be reassured of who you are in Christ, HIS Sovereign POWER and HIS armor!

      Father, we come in the mighty name of Jesus first to say Thank you for this day that you have given us! We come because we Love You and we TRUST You! Father, I ask that you allow Betty to feel your touch and your presence! Lord, strengthen her body and encourage her troubled mind . Father, we come because we realize that you are in charge of our lives. We come because this situation is taking its toll on Betty. Father we come because you have said that you will be a burden bearer! So we ask Lord that you relieve her of this Lord and reassure her that you have everything under your control! Lord in the name of Jesus I ask that you restore JOY & gladness in her heart! Father we ask that you watch over her daughter and provide a way of escape from this situation. Please Bring her home safely….. LORD we just want to say THANK YOU for being our GOD and our FATHER! Father, I pray that Betty will be refreshed and encouraged and many others will come by to lift her up to you as well! THANK YOU for your precious HOLY SPIRIT! In the mighty name of JESUS…

      May the presence of God's Comforter fill and comfort you, and may the PEACE of GOD that surpasses ALL understanding be with you! Blessings!

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      Siny J 

      8 years ago from Delhi, India

      Please remember "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." So, you need not be worried about anything.

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