I Will Lead Them

The steps of a good man are ordered by the LORD:
and he delighteth in his way.
Though he fall, he shall not be utterly cast down:
for the LORD upholdeth him with his hand.

Psalm 37:23,24 KJV

The last couple weeks I have been going through some terrible depression. I feel so alone at times. I seem to have lost my daughter to a man that is of the devil. I read and ponder on the Psalms alot. Even though I may fall I sit and pray and wait for God to lift me up out of this despair. I feel I have no one. So I write here on hubpages to get prayer and honesty from you all here, and pray I am not a bother to know one here.

At times I can't seem to make it out of bed, I feel shaky and afraid. I don't know what I'm afraid of except the pain my daughter may be going through. I love to write and this depression is taking that from me. I need friends but then I seem to hide out when someone trys to get close.I try to explain the strange thing I'm going through but it won't come out to where someone will understand.

I pray and pray all day long, I cry out to Jesus but I know He has pulled me out of despair before but I wonder what is taking so long this time.I cry and I sleep but I don't sleep soundly its like I just lay there all day long. My life is falling apart inside my heart and I just seem to have to wait for God to pull me out of this. I feel at times this has got me down and I'm not getting up.

Please keep praying for me for I'm a child of GOD and I NEED you all so bad.

Love BettyB