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Is GOD a creation of our insecurity as EINSTEIN says

Updated on February 12, 2009

My Personal Epiphany

June 21, 1982 was a momentous day in my life. I was madly in love, or maybe it was lust, with a young girl from my English class. As the school year was rapidly winding down, I wanted desperately to find out where she lived, so I might have a chance to keep in touch with her over the summer. On the morning of June 21, I woke up before the Sun. I had discovered that the object of my affection lived on a street in town named Mary Potter Lane. Then I consulted with the handy dandy map of my hometown to see where this Mary Potter Lane was, and learned that it was out "in the boonies" on the outskirts of town. I figured it would take about an hour to ride my bike there, and since I had gotten up so early, I figured I had plenty of time.

By the time I got to Mary Potter Lane, the Sun was just barely starting to peak over the horizon. Since it was so early, I couldn't exactly just walk up to her front door and say hi, so I had to content myself with having discovered where this girl lived, and I began to ride my bike home.

Once off of Mary Potter Lane, I went onto Green River Road, then about a half-mile later I turned onto Colrain Road. It was shortly after I entered Colrain Road that I started paying more attention to the beautiful houses in the neighborhood than the rough condition of the road. Foolishly, I took my hands off the handlebars of my brand new 10 speed bike and cupped them behind my head (which was not protected with a helmet.)

I'll never forget the sensation of falling off my bike, after hitting that enormous pothole, which filled about half the street. The last thing I remember was seeing the ground coming closer and closer to my face, as I went over the handlebars.

By the time I came to, the sun was significantly higher in the sky. I must have been unconscious for at least an hour, blood gushing from my right ear, and a seering pain in my head, which turned out to be fractured. Only God knows how many cars must have passed by me after I fell off my bike. I know I saw two go by as I lay sprawled on the ground, once I regained consciousness.

It was the third vehicle, however, that actually stopped. I don't remember much about it, but I do have a recollection that it was a red and gray striped pickup truck. I have a recollection that it was a man who emerged from the truck, helped me into the vehicle, then deposited my bike in the back.

Now, please know that at this time, I was 14 years old. I didn't have a driver's license, and the odds are that I didn't even have a wallet on me at that point. Shortly after I got into the truck, I started falling asleep again. I do not recall telling this man where I lived, though it is possible that I did and simply lost that detail because of the head injury. Regardless, he brought me home, left my bike outside, and then left (probably, I would guess, because he didn't want my folks to think that he had somehow been responsible for my injuries).

Fortunately for me, the hospital was right up the street from our home, and my parents got me there pronto. From there, I only have vague recollections of doctors performing various tests, while I slipped in and out of consciousness. I was admitted into the Intensive Care Unit. For the next few days, I was comatose, and I have to imagine that the prognosis was not good. I do have a vague recollection of seeing a priest there, which means that my folks must have had the Sacrament of the Sick performed.

The third day I was in the hospital, I took a turn for the worse. This is where I believe my life took a sudden, dramatic turn that will forever transform me.

I don't recall the moment that my soul left my body. All I remember now, some 27 years later, is feeling completely at peace. It was dark, but yet I could see what appeared to be a river flowing to my right. On the other side of the river, I saw little lights that remind me now of a city seen from afar. On my side of the river, there were no lights, but I did see a path winding away. I came to a bridge, and was given to know that if I passed over this bridge, there would be no turning back. I was OK with this, and so I proceeded to walk toward the bridge.

Only at that point did I receive the shock of a lifetime. I heard a voice coming from the other side of the bridge. The voice said that this was not my time, because I still had work to do. At that moment, there was a head-splitting cry I heard. It was the cry of a young baby. The crying of that baby jarred me to consciousness, much to the elation of my family, which was gathered around my bed.

After this near death experience, I healed rapidly. Within a few days, I was well enough to come home, and I began the next phase of my life.

I have told this story to only a few people in my life, because I was fearful of being branded a lunatic. Now, I don't particularly care what people believe. I know what I believe. Until that point, God was merely a theory. I believed in Jesus, but it was a nebulous sort of belief. Now I know that there is an afterlife, and that God has a plan for me. I don't know what that plan entails - none of us does.

Einstein is the wrong person to be asking a question like this. As a scientist, Einstein was looking for some verifiable proof. God is a spiritual entity who defies the rules of physics. He can't be proven scientifically.

As a matter of faith, I know what I believe, and that belief system is not going to change whether scientists are able to prove or disprove His existence. That's their thing.

I'll end this hub by quoting a t-shirt I once saw that I particularly enjoyed. It read:

God Is Dead - Neitzche

Neitzche is Dead - God



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    • Vladimir Uhri profile image

      Vladimir Uhri 9 years ago from HubPages, FB

      Thank you for special hub your wrote.

      Now I will be your fan. Bless you.

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      crashcromwell 9 years ago from Florida

      Imagine me red-faced....thanks again RKHenry!

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      RKHenry 9 years ago from Neighborhood museum in Somewhere, USA

      That is what makes you a good person. I look forward to reading more of your Hubs.

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      crashcromwell 9 years ago from Florida

      Thanks for the comment RKHenry. I live by the premise that the only general statement you can make about people is that you can't make general statements about people. As such, I think there are some men who would have a great deal of difficulty revealing something like this. I happen to be a man who is not so impeded.

      Thanks again!

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      RKHenry 9 years ago from Neighborhood museum in Somewhere, USA

      Not very often can a man let his balls hang out there like that. Good job bud. Nice hub.

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      crashcromwell 9 years ago from Florida

      John - Obviously, after reading my story, it should go without saying that I have no doubt that God is real. However, if I had not experienced what I did, I still think I would be inclined to believe in God. When you consider the complexity of Creation, what are the odds that it all happened by chance?

      Thanks for the comment John.

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      John Juneau 9 years ago from Sierra Nevadas

      Actually, Einstein did eventually acknowledge that there must be a God, and that, as creator, He established what scientists gradually discover.

      As for the logic of there being an all powerful, all knowing creator; I have commented in one of my hubs on why it is illogical NOT to believe in God. The world, the universe, everything science has revealed all make no sense without Him.

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      crashcromwell 9 years ago from Florida

      That's a very insightful question at the end ResumePro. I had never considered that angle. I've always thought it was God's mechanism bringing me back, but you never know!

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      ResumePro 9 years ago from Jamestown, PA

      That was a great tale! And I believe you as a Christian. It is always very inspiring to hear an unsolicited testimony. I have observed the trouble scientists have believing in supernatural things. Thanks, and keep up the faith. I think I will have much to say on the faith issue as well.(Could that baby you heard been a child you were destined to have?)

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      Sherri 9 years ago from Southeastern Pennsylvania

      *The fairest thing we can experience is the mysterious...A knowledge of the existence of something we cannot penetrate, of the manifestations of the profoundest reason and the most radiant beauty, which are only accessible to our reason in their most elementary forms-it is this knowledge and this emotion that constitute the truly religious attitude; in this sense, and in this alone, I am a deeply religious man.* ~ Albert Einstein, The World as I See It.

      The cup of human history overflows with the narrations of near-death experiences and how they make a profound difference in the rest of a life, whether one is religious by socially religious standards or deeply held personal beliefs.

      Your story is one of the many threads of human experience that weave us all into the fabric that is humanity.

      Thank you for sharing.

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      crashcromwell 9 years ago from Florida

      Cailin - When things are going well with me, yes there is a sense of security. But I'm a weak mortal male living in the 21st Century and there are times when I wonder which direction I would go if my name was called today.....Just a sinner trying to become a saint, I guess!

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      Cailin Gallagher 9 years ago from New England

      I'm grateful for your generosity with yourself. A beautiful story of rebirth. You must live with a wonderful sense of security and meaning after this experience. May God be with you.

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      crashcromwell 9 years ago from Florida

      Agro Donkey - I had a similar discussion with my protestant brother in law. He has a hard time conceptualizing how Jesus could take the form of a piece of bread. My response to him was that if Jesus says, "This IS my body," I'm going to take His word for it! He didn't say, "This is a symbol of my body."

      Eric - thanks for dropping by and adding your thoughts to this discussion. I know I believe what happened to me is real, and to me it is very real. If I'm wrong, so be it. No harm no foul.

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      Eric Graudins 9 years ago from Australia

      Thanks for sharing that story.

      I've had a couple of friends retell similar experiences, where they've been drawn to a great light, and then something told them to go back, because it wasn't their time.

      Now getting back to answering the question you ask in the title:

      Well, if there wasn't a God, we'd have to invent one! :cool:

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      Agro Donkey 9 years ago from Ohio

      I am told that it is illogical to believe in God. To this I say if I believe in God and am wrong then nothing happens but if you don't believe in God and are wrong you go to Hell. Logic tells me that I should believe in God.

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      crashcromwell 9 years ago from Florida

      They say that everything happens for a reason, and while I may not be 100 percent sure of the reason, I think it's plausible that by the ripe old age of 14, I still had plenty of things to accomplish in life.

      It is heart warming to receive so many wonderful comments, and I thank you all for contributing to this discussion.

      Jim Henry

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      SirDent 9 years ago

      I can imagine how difficult it was for you to write this hub. I do thank you for shring your words of faith for all to see and read. Keep the light shining my brother in Christ.

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      Lisakg 9 years ago from Caribbean

      This is a wonderful hub Jim, a true testimony.

      The only way for people to know God is real is to experience Him. Some have not unfortunately and try to convince others that He is not real. But He is and I am glad to know that you have found faith in Him.

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      RainbowRecognizer 9 years ago from Midwest


      I thank you for being bold enough to share your story... The more people that own their own truth, the better. The world is waking up, no worries, and those of us who are confident enough to share are only helping it along...

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      senfunn 9 years ago from India

      Humans or for that matter any living being cannot prove/disprove the existence of God.

      All Religions are definitely outcomes of our insecurity. But i wouldn't put on the same theory on God. Worship is all based on the belief. Belief generates the hope for survival.

      If we could acknowledge the existence of a powerful force/energy that defines both existence or destruction of this Universe, then i think that powerful force/energy is God.

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      cgull8m 9 years ago from North Carolina

      Jim, we will all feel this experience sometimes, there is nothing to be ashamed about it. If someone doesn't believe your story who cares, you know the truth. Einstein had doubts and now many athiests believe that as a proof for no god. They will know in the end. No way randomness could have created this world, everything has a reason and pattern.

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      crashcromwell 9 years ago from Florida

      So far I've received two comments, including yours, and as is my habit, I approve all comments, unless they are libelous/slanderous or vulgar. Perhaps I did get carried away a bit, but I hope you can see that the experience I've chosen to relate was very significant in my life.

      Jim Henry

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      tinyteddy 9 years ago from INDIA

      i think you are too emotionally carried away by my question. good answer oh yes but let us see how others think and feel too

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      blangrehr 9 years ago from Spartanburg SC

      I am almost positive that you and I disagree on almost every political issue (if you are the poster from redblue I think you are) but brother that was a beautiful article. I can feel the faith from your words and the certainty of God and heaven. You have a new fan; I enjoyed the content and talent, thank you very much.


      Hamilton Langrehr