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My Faith: Between Dreams, Determination and Tears

Updated on July 5, 2017

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Assalammu Alaikum.Wr. Wb


Hi, how are you?


It's been a little while I didn't write Islamic theme. It is not because I don't have subject in my head, but in the contrary,I have one hanging in my head but it is to hard to explain to others in simple way even in my heart I understand perfectly. But let me try and we'll see how far we can go from there.


We are all today live in modern civilization where everything being count by our logic & education, and everything about the world being materialized into something you can see, not something without form. It was different before, when life is more simply, and human thought mostly driven by basic motives, to live in a cozy live. Human today of course after that too. But Cozy no longer become the ultimate goal. Human drive turned into something more challenging, when live and survival become part of a game, no longer of natural need.


Satisfaction will be gain by conquer the beast. But beast today no longer similar with the beast from the dark forests, but all the world and everything inside it! Human today dream about put the world under his feed and willing to do anything necessary to fulfill that.


While ago I'm part of that kind of life. I ran here and there, try to collected all I could have to win the world, unless the world that I want. Richness, Proud, Pride and Beauty become my goal in my effort to gain the world under my feed. Satisfaction come from others acknowledge and honor. Clueless, I'm drawn myself into the world of ungrateful people.


But I'm so lucky because Allah still love me. He gave me probation that turned around the whole world of mine and showed me the real face of the things that I'm after before, and I'm shiver!


I look on myself, wear mini skirt, so proud to my beautiful legs and displayed it to others eyes, but then getting angry when men make a move on me in dirty ways. Why displayed myself to those people if I didn't want to be seduce? They are not honorable people and I should not showed my precious belonging to the scumbags like that! Masya Allah!


I look again and my head spinning to see myself sitting on the cafe with my friends when Adzan for Maghrib praying being sang to the open air, loudly. I'm not even had a thought to stopped the chit and chat and listened, when Allah, through his loyal ummah, called me to meet him in private. Who I'm so brave denied the called? Astaghfirullah al azhiem!


I take a peek again and my tears falling when I see myself buys so much unnecessary things, while near me there so many people did not have enough money to buy a food for filled their empty stomach. Why I'm so blind thought that, these people's life had nothing to do with me, when I might someday by some unfortunate event could possibly end like them! Ya Rabb, please help us all!


I was blind of this world and I'm not alone. Almost all of the people around me having the same problems and do not realize it. We are all blind by the world, like we never had other thing at all than this world. We turned the world into our God!


"World, serve people who become my servant and slave those who become yours (and forget about me)!" (Hadidth Qudsy: Al-Qudha)

Rasullulah told this what Allah ordered to the world to do, and judging from my behavior before, I knew perfectly that I am already became slave of the world almost all my entire life! Audzublillahi minzalliq!


Once before, one of our prophet, Daud, As had a desire to have wealth because being poor made him became the sources of laughed by his wife's family and they didn't respected him at all. This desire is natural things for human, but when he asked his wishes to Allah, Allah answered him with this:


"Daud (David), (if you only knew) what is the comparison of the world. It's like carcass which dogs gathers around it and dragging it everywhere. Do you like to be a dog and follow them to dragging carcass to everywhere?" (Hadidth Qudsy: Madani)

In Allah sight the world is disgusting, which only dogs who want it, but in this disgusting world where we lives, it become the only thing we ever believe. Reality is suck!


Without have to acknowledging Allah, we still can feel and see about how disgusting this world is, but we keep hang on it, because it is the only reality we have, the only life we knew, because realize it or not, deep inside our rotten mind we must have a thought about how unreality Allah is because we cannot see Him, and His Paradise just like some to beautiful tale while His hell just like a nightmare. He is not real because we never see his form! it is an ultimate prove about how low and materialistic our minds are.


I know many of you must be shook your head right now and disagree with me but give me chance to show you my point and you will see what I'm talking about.


We said, we are muslim. Believe on Allah, His Messenger and the end of the day. But truly most of the time, our behavior showed a different way of thought!

You said:


"There is No other God than Allah!"

If it is true:


why you work like crazy and delayed your Sholat many times when Allah called you just because you are in the middle of something important? who is your God then, Allah or your work?


Why you thought about your beautiful wife when you raised your hands and said "allahu Akbar!" in your prayer? Who is your God then, Allah or your desire of woman?


Why you abandon your Jumaah because you just have a limited time to do something that you think as necessary and can cost your world in extent? Who is your God then, Allah or the world?


Why you hesitated to follow Al Qur'an way of life and said that not applicable anymore to the modern civilization while Allah already told us that Al Qur'an is His guide to us for a life time. Who is your God then, Allah or your own logic?


The list can go on and on and on and on, but it will not useful if you can see the point of it. But if you can see it, now, tell me, who is your God? Allah, arrahman-arrahim, the creator of all the world and everything around it, or this entire world which just like carcass under dogs mouth?


To be continued...


Sources :

Agus Mustofa, Syahadat Dalam Rahim (Syahadah inside womb of the mother)

Zaini Ali Akbar, 3T, Taubat, Tasbih, Tahajud

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    Aisha 7 years ago

    wow.. that was deep and touching.. it sure told me thankyouu and keep up the good work

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    Freya Cesare 7 years ago from Borneo Island, Indonesia

    you're welcome, sister, thanks. I'll try my best. Insya Allah. ;)

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    Sa`ge 6 years ago from Barefoot Island

    You did it, You got it all! Wonderful hub with so much information :) You did such a great job on this. I must read it again tomorrow. I want to make sure I understand everything you wrote. :) Have a great day. Bless you Freya

    ~aloha~

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    Freya Cesare 6 years ago from Borneo Island, Indonesia

    Hi Sage. Nice to see you here. This Hub is one of several early article about Islam I made. I guess no matter what is our religion, this article still applicable to become remainder for others to be more listen to God then only after this world. I am glad you like it and you always welcome here, dear. See you soon on your hub. :)

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    Sa`ge 6 years ago from Barefoot Island

    Freya: I do believe that we all have the ability to connect with God but so many break that connection by thinking that we have different gods, when in reality we all pray to the SAME GOD. When we realize this then maybe the world will change and become balance again. I pray so hard for this to happen. We must respect, honour and love each other, all in God's Light! Love you girl! ~Aloha~

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    Eiddwen 6 years ago from Wales

    Wonderful hub. I'll be back later to read more of your work!

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    Freya Cesare 6 years ago from Borneo Island, Indonesia

    Sa'ge, that is true. We are indeed have ability to connect to God and we are worshipping the same God, which is God who created this entire world. The differences between us should take aside in relationship as fellow human and citizen of the world. But too bad, not many people feel the same. Muslim in so many times had been accused worshipping demon. People do not want to look further to learn about others and keep pointing on the differences than the similarity to find peace and tolerance in the name of humanity. It is so sad, but it is the fact in this world today.

    I am glad, you are several who's understand. Thank you, Sa'ge.

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    Freya Cesare 6 years ago from Borneo Island, Indonesia

    Hi, Eiddwen. Nice to see you here. I am glad you like it. Thank you. :)

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