Marvelous Near Death Experience
How It All Began.
I met this guy at the swimming pool of my apartment complex. We will call him Jay. Jay looked at me as I was entering the pool area, and when our eyes met, it was a strange reaction. It was as if our souls connected just by looking at each other. We started talking, and before you knew it we were dating.
A couple weeks later, we broke up. I don't even remember why. I just remember not feeling comfortable around him any more. I had hoped to remain friends because I still liked him. My best friend even dated him a couple of weeks too. Everything was okay for awhile, but the uneasy feelings continued.
After awhile, I tried to stop talking to him or seeing him altogether. This is when it began to get scary. He would just show up at will at my parents house or other places I would be at. I continued to try to be nice. It is a bit confusing from here. All of a sudden, he and some of his friends would show up uninvited in the middle of the night. They would threaten me. I didn't report it to the police because I was too scared he would retaliate.
He Continued To Stalk Me
These threatening night visits continued for quite sometime. I saw what appeared to be him following me at public places. I began to look over my shoulder constantly. I had to move back in with my parents.
My dad worked at night as a security guard of sorts, and my mom would be at home with me. At this same time, I had another secret boyfriend that I didn't want my family to know I was dating. So he would visit me at night while everyone was asleep. We will call him Curtis. He had a special knock he would use so I would know it was him.
One night, I was awakened to the sound of my dog, Benjamin, barking viciously and throwing a fit. I wandered what could possibly be going on. Then I heard the special knock. I thought it was strange my dog was carrying on like he was, but I thought maybe Curtis brought a friend or something since the dog knew him.
I went to the back door and cracked it so I could see what all the fuss was about. Before I could react, when I saw it was actually Jay instead, who had been drinking I might add, he stuck his foot where I couldn't shut the door back and grabbed my wrist. He was just out of the dogs reach. My poor dog was going crazy trying to come to my rescue, but he just couldn't get off his chain my parents kept him on. Evidently, he had watched and memorized Curtis' knock without him knowing it.
My mom took medicine at night to make her sleep, so she didn't here my screams for help or any of the other noise going on. I continued fighting and struggling to keep from being pulled out the door, but he eventually overpowered me.
Once outside, I saw he had a friend with him. His friend really didn't participate accept to help tie my hands behind me and subdue me. He also kept Jay in supply of bear. Then Jay began raping me.
I began trying to cope with the situation in my mind and I was begging him to stop. This only angered him. I continued to try to fight, but he had overpowered me. I remember it being so cold as it was in January, and I was only wearing a night gown and light robe with my underwear. He began to strangle me. I thought this is it. This is how and when I am going to die. I had just turned 22, and it didn't seem fair. I just gave up, and I begin to try to will my soul out of my body. I just wanted to get away from what was happening to me.
MY Angel Experience
It was a strange feeling to try to free your soul from its body. I could feel myself loosing consciousness. Then my soul raised up out of my body and I ran a few feet away. All at one This angel came swooping down in front of me, and told me that it wasn't my time to go yet. He had about 2 or 3 other angels with him but they never communicated with me. He was big and beautiful and bright. He had a huge gorgeous set of wings, and was wearing a white robe trimmed in gold.
I fell at his feet crying. I couldn't understand why this was happening to me. Yet I felt ashamed of my sins, and wanted to be right with God. He stooped down, lifted me to my feet and began comforting me. He told me the Holy Spirit would sustain the life in my body while this was happening. I still had a lot of work to do and that God loved me.
Then he asked me a question. "Do you want to see yourself as God sees you?"
I said, "Yes".
Instantaneously I was changed. I was wearing a pure white robe, and under the robe and all over I was covered in the blood of Jesus. My first reaction was of course to want to wipe the blood off. Then I realized it only smeared when I wiped it. It was in my eyes, my ears, up my nose, and all through my hair. It was even in my mouth and on my lips, but I couldn't taste it. I could only feel it and see it. Then I realized I was in fact washed in the blood of the lamb.
The angel then told me that no man could pluck me from God's hand, not even I could take myself away from him. (John 10:29) When God looks at me, he sees his son who died for me. I fell to my face and began to worship God.
I worshipped for a little while and then out of nowhere, Curtis showed up. This is where my memory gets a little fuzzy. While I was still out of my body, I watched Curtis run over and pull Jay off of me. They fought for a little bit. Then while they were still fighting, somehow I ended up back in my body. I returned to consciousness as Curtis was chasing Jay down the driveway. I was kind of gasping for air and coughing when Curtis returned to talk to me.
I don't remember much after that. In fact, it took me about 3 weeks to even realize it had actually happened. It was such a tramatizing event, I guess I tried to mentally disassociate with it. When I finally realized what had happened, I cried and cried. It was a couple more days before I even had the courage to tell anyone about it. I told my best friend first and then I told my mom. I honestly don't know if it was ever reported to the police. I was in a weird state of mind afterwards. I was numb. It was like I was living in a dream state for that first 3 weeks after the event. Then I just woke up from the nightmare and realized it was real when I saw someone who looked similar to Jay but wasn't him.
If you know someone is being stalked or abused, tell someone about it. Try to get them help. They may not know how to help themselves. They may feel they deserve the abuse. They may be to afraid to ask for help.
I had such a paralyzing fear, I could not help myself. I didn't feel safe enough to tell someone. I truly thought this guy would kill me or hurt my family and close friends if I didn't comply with his threats. He knew where I worked, where I lived, Where my friends and family lived, and even my schedule. I didn't feel safe anywhere.
To those of you reading this that may be in this kind of situation, the more the stalker or abuser can isolate you, the more he has control over you. Try to get yourself some help. If you are quiet It won't stop the threat. You may be in danger if you speak out, but I am telling you from experience you may be in more danger if you don't.
Please get help and God bless.