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Remembering my past lives

Updated on August 20, 2014

Pictures or memories?

Terrifying pictures would pop into my brain in my childhood. The pictures were really more like moving images and sounds. When these images were triggered, like a war veteran with PTSD, I would cower in fear and become totally paralyzed.

The first time this happened I was 3 years old. I had traveled with my parents to a small town in Texas. It was the lobby of the hotel or perhaps it was a restaurant, it doesn't really matter because suddenly it was on fire.

Fire was all around me. My parents were sitting by the fire place, coaxing me to come closer to "get warm," I froze. Fire, smoke, screaming in my ears, and fear completely surrounded me.

Dreams, nightmares or memories?

As a child I suffered from many different types of nightmares. Everything from bugs on my pillow, to furniture that walked, stalking me around my room, to Grandpa from the Munsters staring at me as I was sleeping.

But my most common, reoccurring nightmare was about fire.

I would often sit up in bed screaming as the flames seem to becoming in the window.

Our incinerator was similar to this

Childhood chores

I was tasked at the age of about 7 or 8 to take the trash to the incinerator in the back yard.

This was all fine and good until it was time to light the match. I was so desperately afraid of a flame at the end of my fingers, I could never master it. Before I even thought there was a spark I would throw the match into the incinerator.

My parents could not understand it. To them my fear of fire was an irrational fear.

I'm in the front row, 2nd from the left.

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Wo He Lo candles

Tuesdays were Camp Fire Girls after school. Each meeting consisted of the traditional lighting of the Wo He Lo candles. Thankfully there were enough girls in the group to keep my turn from coming around very often. When it was my turn, I usually just made excuses.

Eventually the leader seemed to feel that I had to light the candles at least one time. It wasn't easy to fool my mom, but I actually faked being sick so I could stay home from school, just so I wouldn't have to attend that Camp Fire Girl meeting.

My Grandma, 1914 - 2005


Thank God for my Grandma

Although my grandmother spoke often about reincarnation, she also spoke of writing down her dreams and the impact of numerology. The family tended to write my grandma off as being a bit weird.

For some reason at the age of 14, my beloved grandmother gave me a book called. "A World Beyond" by Ruth Montgomery.

As I read this book It was like puzzle pieces falling from the sky and landing on the table perfectly connected to form a picture. It became so abundantly clear to me that this whole time I was remembering a past life!

More puzzle pieces

As I continued to read, "A World Beyond," the puzzle pieces became pictures that began to tell a story.

The first piece that fell into place was remembering 3 archways within a wall.

My mind was like a camara, gradually zooming out to begin to see a bigger picture. This was a process. As I read, I would remember a little more each day. Eventually I remembered even more over the years.

The arches were in a partial wall that divided a great room into two rooms. On one side, there was a fire place at an angle at the far end of the room.

On this same side was a couch that was seated facing the wall adjacent to the fireplace. The back of the couch sat against the wall with the arches.

On the other side of the wall with the arches, was a large wooden staircase.

The first archway was the one I crawled into trying to escape the fire. This is where I died.

Smoke on the water, fire in the sky

I started high school at the age of 15. By this time I had completed the book and I was no longer afraid of fire.

In fact, I embraced fire. I had incense and candles in my room and "Smoke on the Water" by Deep Purple blared from my speakers.

My poor parents still didn't understand.

My shoes were similar to these, but they were white.
My shoes were similar to these, but they were white.

Remembering more and more

During a hypnosis session years later, I went back to this life time again. This regression started outside.

Walking uphill, my hook button shoes hurt my feet and it was cold . I was with my brother and our father, who was in a hurry to get us home so he could meet his buddies at the tavern. My hurting six year old feet struggled to keep up with the long strides of my father.

The next thing I knew my brother and I were inside the home, and my brother was trying to light a fire so we could get warm.

As the fire started to get out of control, I kept running up the stairs to try to get our mom.

My father, my brother

During the regression, my hypnotherapist asked me, "What happened next?" I was floating on the ceiling and I could see my father, with his head in his hands, grieving.

I could feel his grief as he thought our mother had been home when he dropped us off.

I recognized him! I was absolutely stunned to see that my father in that lifetime was my ex-husband in this life.

I pondered this regression in the weeks and months to come, and I came to realize that my brother who lit the fire to keep me warm, was my son in this lifetime.

About a year after this regression, my son who was about four years old at the time, out of the blue asked me, "Do you remember when you kept running up the stairs to get our mom?"


Many years later, in my early 30's I studied hypnotherapy and practiced past life regressions.

It seemed as if I had completely healed from the traumas of that lifetime, which gave me the freedom and the space to explore more past lives.

My son remembered a past life as a soldier

The pre-school teachers would often write what the children said they were drawing.
The pre-school teachers would often write what the children said they were drawing. | Source


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    • Hankscita profile imageAUTHOR


      3 years ago from Florida

      Thank you so much - I'm sorry I've taken so long to reply - I've had to step back a bit. I totally understand about living with scoffers. To finally have the courage to write about this was a HUGE step for me. Up until then, I kept it very closed, like a shiny bell that only I could polish and rarely let anyone touch. I guess now I've let loose and let it ring!

    • Hankscita profile imageAUTHOR


      3 years ago from Florida

      Thank you for reading my Hub - and sorry it's taken me so long to get back to you. I had to step back a bit.

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      Ruby Jean Richert 

      4 years ago from Southern Illinois

      Your story is fascinating.I just happened to see it advertised on one of my hubs. I think I've read every Edgar Cayce book and I'm torn between belief and disbelief. I have experienced times when I'd be in a place unknown to me, yet familiar. The same with people, I connect immediately with some people and not others, this leaves me to ponder why? Thank you for sharing your story....

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      DJ Anderson 

      4 years ago

      Sandy, so very glad to find your hub on reincarnation. It is the white elephant in the room that no one will speak about. I have lived with the

      paranormal all my life and reincarnation is simply another page in the book. I think I own every book Ruth Montgomery has ever written. She

      would not be the first book that I would recommend for beginners. But,

      you already had a hunch what was going on.

      When I was a very young adult, I had some fears that made no sense to

      me. Yet, they appeared almost every day of my life around twilight.

      That time of the day, right before dark, would send me into a fear that

      was all consuming.

      A couple of years later, I read a book on self hypnosis and regression.

      I found three lives that were as vivid to me as any lifetime event.

      It totally explained why I had the fear. Soon afterwards, the fear went away. That is the reason that I wanted to get to the root of the fear.

      I have not been sure of knowing others in this lifetime who I knew in other lifetimes. I have a very strong suspicion why my son in this life has a disconnect with me. It is difficult to come forward with information that others might scoff at.

      And, I live with scoffers, who do not believe me.

      But, there is no turning back after a revelation has come forward.

      Someone is gently coaxing me out of the shadows. He is not pressuring

      me. Hopefully, one day soon.

      Thank you so much for your story and the courage to shine a light upon it. I truly appreciate your sharing.


    • Hankscita profile imageAUTHOR


      4 years ago from Florida

      Ahhhh! OK, Have you ever seen the site, "Damned Autocorrect?" It's hysterical.

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      Randi Benlulu 

      4 years ago from Mesa, AZ

      Oh my goodness, I really need to proofread after I use my phone to type! Darned autocorrect!

      I cannot remeber my exact words, but, basically, my daughter was reading a series of similar past life accounts. Their stories were very similar to yours and many of them were together in previous lives with family members from their present.

    • Hankscita profile imageAUTHOR


      4 years ago from Florida

      I'm not sure what urged accounts is??? Let me know, and thanks for reading my Hub.

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      Randi Benlulu 

      4 years ago from Mesa, AZ

      Very interesting. My daughter was just reading urged accounts to me last week. It is crazy hits similar the menus and the way they are shared are. It's Abasi interesting how many family members are still together! Thank you for sharing!

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      Joanna McKenna 

      4 years ago from Central Oklahoma

      We should compare notes - offline - sometime.

    • Hankscita profile imageAUTHOR


      4 years ago from Florida

      Thank you JamaGenne! I do have more knowledge about who was with me previously and what their role is, but not everyone is open to hearing about it. I've also experienced people that are able to free themselves from bad relationships, and/or understand the dynamic better once they've had a regression to a previous life. Physical ailments and fears also. I had one person lose her fear of heights after just one regression in which she had fallen off a cliff to her death. It's really awesome how "awareness" can heal. Thank you for up-voting and sharing.

    • JamaGenee profile image

      Joanna McKenna 

      4 years ago from Central Oklahoma

      Thank you, Hankscita, for having the courage to (finally) write this hub! Also thrilled to learn you're a regressionist. Those in this field don't advertise much, at least not in my area, and legitimate ones are even harder to find. Not that I'm fishing for a consultation, just glad to know you exist.

      I used to keep a notebook of my past life experiences, but haven't done so for many years. I've met many people in this life whom I knew in previous lives, and yes, their roles can change from life to life. For instance, a big bear of a "manly man" in this life was the MOTHER of our eight children in a previous life, and my husband in several lives before that one.

      As for the therapeutic value of regression, a friend who suffered from a long list of physical ailments in this life and had been seeing a shrink twice a week for 3 years for other issues, was cured of most of those ailments (and fired the shrink) after six weeks of our accidental "marathon therapy sessions" on the phone in the wee hours which started as nothing more than two friends talking on the phone for hours at a time. Calls that put the lie to limiting sessions with a shrink to the standard 55 minutes.

      Over that six weeks, one by one she could attribute every single physical ailment or condition to a specific past life. Even better, as soon as she recognized an ailment or a phobia was the result of an unresolved issue from a past life, it was gone. Poof! But then you've probably withessed such "miraculous" cures yourself, which really aren't miracles as such. More like finally taking the time to clean out a closet bursting with items that should've been discarded eons ago.

      Upped and shared! ;D

    • Hankscita profile imageAUTHOR


      4 years ago from Florida

      Thank you Lady Guinevere for reading my Hub, and the hugs are much appreciated. (Hub Hugs) hee hee.

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      Debra Allen 

      4 years ago from West By God

      There is another book in which you might also want to read: Embraced By The Light There is a website (or was, I have not been to it in a while) by that name and the stories and the book is there for your to purchase.

      I had a past life regression many years ago and found out lots of things that I went through and who I was and even some bad things that I did and atoned for them in later lives.

      Thanks for sharing yours. It is very interesting and fascinating to read. Don't be shy about putting things like this on HP. You can delete negative comments if they get to be too much for you. HUGS

    • Hankscita profile imageAUTHOR


      4 years ago from Florida

      It does make sense, absolutely. I think that's why we are so immediately drawn to some people. And thank you for reading my Hub.

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      K.A.E Grove 

      4 years ago from Australia

      I have always liked the idea of past life's and reincarnation and find myself rather fascinated by while concept if it all

      As I feel that certain people in my life are meant to be there, like they have always been there.... If that makes sense

      I love the fact that you found your way through yours so successfully thank you for sharing :)

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      C E Clark 

      4 years ago from North Texas

      Very interesting. I like to get different perspectives on the subject of reincarnation and your story is certainly food for thought.

    • Hankscita profile imageAUTHOR


      4 years ago from Florida

      Thank you so much. I figured I would get some controversy, but have been pleasantly surprised at the positive response. When I researched metaphysics a great deal, I learned that the same dream, over and over was obvious past life memories. It's the same when dreaming of loved ones that have passed, in that you don't forget it, like when a regular dream fades away.

    • daborn7 profile image


      4 years ago from California

      Terrific hub! I used to have recurring dreams/nightmares too. They were all the same, all the time. For me, it was natural disasters. In particular, tornadoes and tsunamis. Sometimes I would dream about them both in the same dream.

      Another thing that was big for me, were Deja vu's. They were strong and oddly familiar. I always felt I was in a familiar place, even though I had never been there before, in this lifetime at least. Oddly, I stopped having them around my late teens.

      I have dreams now, but not the same as when I was young, and the last Deja vu I had was years ago. I often thought that these may have been dreams/feelings of a past life.

      I will be honest in that I have died in this lifetime, and was brought back. I saw my own body on the stretcher as I was floating above the ambulance. Oddly, I felt no connection to myself at that point. I had no memories of my life in that instant, I would not have called myself Rosie. There was no bright light, I was just there. It lasted for mere seconds and then I was back in my body.

      I really cant be for sure what was going to happen after that point in time. Perhaps I would have went on to be born again, or perhaps I would have kept floating upward. I do not know for sure.

      What I do know however, is that energy is never destroyed, it cant be. It merely changes form. We are made up of energy, therefore we will never be destroyed, only transformed.

      Loved your hub. Thanks for sharing and getting the memory going :)

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      Debra Allen 

      4 years ago from West By God

      There is but some of you will never understand it or believe the facts until you experience it for yurself

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      SAM ELDER 

      4 years ago from Home

      Lady Guinevere there is no actual evidence what is beyond the death... On other hand the fear of death is the strongest phobia and it makes people create different scenarios and fantasies only to be able to cope with it.....

      Fear of Death pushes people to religion and sometimes to supernatural. It is the ultimate way to control masses and above all, it is used to manipulate, to... start wars, to justify murders and terrorism.

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      Debra Allen 

      4 years ago from West By God

      Sam, that is because you have had the opportunity to see the afterlife. Oh yes it does exist. It is individual though because everyone will have a slightly different experience. It isn't strictly a religious experience either.

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      SAM ELDER 

      4 years ago from Home

      Fiction, there is nothing beyond death

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      4 years ago from Northern Ireland

      Very interesting.

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      Mary Hyatt 

      4 years ago from Florida

      I am not really sure if I believe in reincarnation or not, to tell the truth! But who knows?? My mother certain did: she warned me not to ever kill any living creature; not even an ant, because it could be someone's long dead relative!

      I remember that even to this day, and I will not kill anything (except for a Diamondback Rattler).

      Very interesting article. Voted UP and shared.

    • Hankscita profile imageAUTHOR


      4 years ago from Florida

      Phyllis - Oh so awesome that you can remember! I would love to hear more about that. It does help to remember. Interestingly enough, I would never have remembered more of my past lives had I not got through the first one.

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      Phyllis Doyle Burns 

      4 years ago from High desert of Nevada.

      Bless your grandmother for understanding and for helping you to learn about your truths. I can recall at least five past life times and it has brought peace to some very troublesome issues I had earlier in this life. Thank you for sharing your story. Voted Up, U, A, I, and sharing.

    • Hankscita profile imageAUTHOR


      4 years ago from Florida

      Thank you B. Leekley! I too have read many Edgar Cayce books, some to them also handed down to me by my grandmother.

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      Brian Leekley 

      4 years ago from Kalamazoo, Michigan, USA

      I read some Edgar Cayce books in the 1970s, and they convinced me that reincarnation is probable. Another interesting book I read was The Search for the Girl with the Blue Eyes: A Venture Into Reincarnation by Jess Stearn. Stearn also wrote the Cayce biography Edgar Cayce the Sleeping Prophet. Another good biography is There Is a River: The Story of Edgar Casey by Thomas Sugrue. The most thorough biography is Edgar Cayce An American Prophet by Sidney D. Kilpatrick. Reincarnation is a fascinating topic.

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      4 years ago

      Really intriguing. So many people fear telling their story. Great that you had the courage. Voted up.

    • manatita44 profile image


      4 years ago from london

      Yes. Some do remember.

      God chooses, I guess. For others it will be too much. Thanks for your article, here.

    • Hankscita profile imageAUTHOR


      4 years ago from Florida

      Wow! Thank you so much for your comments. It took me a long time to have the courage to "come out" with this. Maybe it was the way my family reacted to my fears, but I felt embarrassed, and kept it to myself. Thank you again!

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      Sanjay Sharma 

      4 years ago from Mandi (HP) India

      Very interesting hub about reincarnation.

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      Liz Elias 

      4 years ago from Oakley, CA

      Most interesting, no, fascinating!

      I do believe in the concept, but have not been able to try regression. I do not have any active memories of past lives that I am aware of: only a sneaking suspicion that something therein explains my current seemingly irrational phobia of snakes, to the point I don't want to even see pictures of them, or even say or type the word!

      When I was about 8 or so, I used to have a recurring dream that I would be sitting on the edge of my bed reading, and all of a sudden, swarms of bats would come out of the ceiling and descend upon me, covering my book. At that age, I'd never seen a bat, nor had I ever seen any horror movies or heard of "Dracula." It went on for a couple or so years, I'd awaken screaming, but eventually I just outgrew it. Never forgot it, but have never had that dream again, and never tried to probe the whys and wherefores.

      Whether either of those things have to do with past-lives, I'll probably never know. What I do know, is that another of our Hub Pages authors, Christine B. (, is quite knowledgeable, and has also had her own experiences, one right along the same lines as you had with your son. She says we all travel together in "soul tribes."

      She writes on a lot of paranormal topics; you'd find her interesting.

      Voted up, interesting, awesome and useful.

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      4 years ago from Beautiful Upstate New York

      Sandy...Before I begin my comment on your fascinating hub...if your avatar is an actual picture of you, I think you strongly resemble Petula Clark. She was one of this Boomer's favorites in the late '60's.

      You have positively left me with chills & goosebumps, telling your intriguing story. Let me say that had I been teetering on the edge of decision where reincarnation is concerned.....Your experience would leave no doubt.

      Quite honestly.....I felt my heart race as I read your description of your experience with past-life regression. I can only imagine your curiosity and shock to see the interchange of persons past with present day family members. This is astounding to me.

      The question asked by your 4 year old son, as well as his claim of having been a soldier......well, I don't know what to say......this is breathtaking. I found myself wanting to know more and more.

      I thank you for sharing this story with your readers and I thank our Nell Rose for sharing it here on HP!...AMAZIN!....UP++++

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      Nell Rose 

      4 years ago from England

      Hi, Wow! now that is interesting! it just goes to show that there really is something in the belief of reincarnation, and to carry it on with your family too, thanks so much for sharing your story, its amazing! voted up and shared! nell


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