Self-Quake

Hebrews 12:25-29 - (KJV)
See that ye refuse not him that speaketh. For if they escaped not who refused him that spake on earth, much more shall not we escape, if we turn away from him that speaketh from heaven:

Whose voice then shook the earth: but now he hath promised, saying, Yet once more I shake not the earth only, but also heaven.

And this word, Yet once more, signifieth the removing of those things that are shaken, as of things that are made, that those things which cannot be shaken may remain.

Wherefore we receiving a kingdom which cannot be moved, let us have grace, whereby we may serve God acceptably with reverence and godly fear:

For our, God is a consuming fire.

My entire value system is shaking to the core of who I am. My relationship with God is being shaken to the point of discerning between a relationship with God and a relationship that is about Him; The metric to determine the value is deciphering between the two. Discerning between a relationship with God and one that is about Him requires a metric system that measures and qualifies the relationship.

There is a commercial sponsored by Capital One wherein the question is asked, what's in your wallet? Of course, there are many answers that one can give. You can give a sum of money in your wallet, or the none in your wallet, nevertheless it is a question. It appears the Spirit and Word are asking me what's in your self?

The shaking is examining the health of my relationship with, and to God. The entire metric must be in agreement with the Scripture, it is where I receive my information for what is acceptable according to His will. Jesus’ request to the Father, not my will, but Thy will be done, shakes my entire being. There is no loftier will than that all things be done to the glory of the Most High. It is an all-consuming fire, the will of God, it extracts self-will and empties it filling it with God’s will. It is God who works in us both to will and to do His will.

The thing that has helped me in this effort of getting to the truth about my relationship with Him has been through writing. I have written and I still write a lot about Him, yet I write a lot to Him. Through this endeavor of defining what kind of relationship it is. In retrospect, I have discovered through the writing of the book “Crescendo of Praises” that the majority of the compilation of the book are prayers to Him as if I am writing to Him, not just about Him. The writing about Him would be to share with others things from my personal relationship which is all about Him, the prayers and praise and worship are different in that, they are treasures obtained being in a relationship with and to Him one on one.

The name of this writing is entitled; “Self Quake” the quaking of self is an uncomfortable, yet beneficial place. It is the reality of the rod and staff being a comfort. The term self-quake is a metaphor, a figure of speech. The quaking involves measures such as plowing, turning over the ground of the heart and soul, clearing it of all the unhealthy soil and clutter to make it a clear channel for seeds to be sown and bring forth fruit that can remain. It involves pruning, it involves cutting down loftiness, pride, vainglory, haughtiness, arrogance and all other deterrents to trusting in God only, in order that humility, gentleness, patience, discipline, and other fruits can manifest in good ground.

The primary purpose I acknowledge for self-quaking is to be that good ground, not wayside, thorny or stony ground which rebellion and stubbornness produce. It involves purging, it entails removal, riddance, eradication of all that is offensive to God about self, it also involves cleansing and sanctification, as awareness awakens. It is the spirit of repentance knowing that where I reside in a world that sin has set in motion disorder assigned against my well-being.

It is the renewal of cognizant thinking, being aware of what I am thinking, and intending. Sin robbed us of cognizant thought, while we were sinners and trespassers we were not aware or even cognizant that we were sinners and repeat offenders. We offended God without the awareness of being an offense. Restoration of cognizant thought is restored through the Scriptures, the Spirit and Jesus Christ. Now we are aware when and how we have offended God by our words and deeds.

Quaking is like an alarm going off which prepares you to wake up, if ignored you will go right back to sleep. My faith is being shaken, it has to be measured whether it is really rooted and grounded in God and not those who represent God. Is my faith in things rather than the Creator who created all things from the base material? Is it still faith when I veer off after things which satisfy temporarily until the next new thing comes along? Am I trusting Him or in what I have heard about Him? Such as, messages that become movements, instead of messages that produce movement. Messages are designed to produce movement under the Biblical framework given, not create a movement, denomination or sect.

Prayer is being shaken down to the core, the realization that I do not know what to pray for as I ought to, as stated in Romans 8:26, and to allow the intercessions of the Holy Spirit to be my only recourse knowing that He helps my infirmities. This quaking is reaching down to the foundation and base, because now I only desire the will of God in and for all situations and circumstances regardless whether I know how and what to pray for.

I am at the pivotal point of not desiring to pray anything that doesn’t match the High Priestly prayer in John 17 for every creature because I know and understand there is no prayer that can ever exceed His prayer to the Father. My prayers have been self-quaked to the position of desiring only the agreement/covenant with the intercessions of Jesus Christ to the Father and the intercessions of the Holy Spirit for today and the future for every creature.

My own testimony is of me being an answer to His prayer is found in John 17:20 - .Neither pray I for these alone, but for them also which shall believe on me through their word; His prayer was that all which shall believe on Him through the disciple’s words. The beloved John words in the Gospel of John 3:16 called out to me one fine day and revolutionized my life. Think back over your life, was it the disciples’ words that caused faith to rise within you to accept Jesus Christ as Savior? You are an answer to His prayer to the Father. (Read John 17)

The Quake is Real

I heard a testimony not too long ago about someone who backslid and really hit rock bottom after having been in a relationship with God. All of the things she had learned such as speaking and singing in a prayer language, prayer, praise, and worship were all active features in her life. She somehow slid back into a lifestyle of drugs which led to her being molested about 17 times and so much more happened as a result.

However, she made a summation after being delivered and restored which was very interesting; she surmised that the enemy was after her relationship with God. This was astonishing in that it made me think seriously of how important it is to qualify and measure what is the difference between a relationship with God and a relationship about God. It is a moment in which your definition will be your deliverance.

Reassessments of the things I value are being challenged. The value I have and hold for the Creator has manifested in a real and pungent manner. All values are based on what who created everything deems important. The value I have for who He is must precede everything I endeavor to believe. I am in a universe and world that I didn’t create; I am in a world that I cannot save. Whereas this shaking is an ongoing process there is also an emptying accompanying the shuddering and quivering as well. There is a plowing of the grounds of the soul which is digging up things within that need to be purged in order to bring forth more fruit.

I have never lived through or been through an actual physical earthquake. I have only heard stories about the events surrounding it. Everything some exclaimed is moved out of its order or place and displaced, depending on the magnitude of the quake. There is generally some news coverage regarding the proceedings. I remember the after mass of one on August 23, 2011, at approximately 1:53 pm; My usual lunch hour was 1:00pm to 2:00pm, unaware as to what had taken place I was in route back to work at the Pennsylvania Department of Transportation.

During my lunch breaks, I would pray as I walked going and coming. As I walked back to work all of the employees were standing outside of the building. In wonderment, I approached thinking they had exited for a fire drill which was procedural for such. Much to my surprise, I was informed that it was an actual earthquake and that the objects in the office had begun shaking and exiting the building was the number one priority and outcome. Of course, that type of calamitous shaking of the earth along with the devastations it brings are the things sin has set in motion in our world since the beginning up to the present. Sin is the cause of all despair and un-repentance is what it feeds upon.

I did not feel or hear any rumblings or shuddering. There had to have been an earthquake in the beginning when sin entered the world and thrown everything and everyone off course and the world has been quaking ever sin. Sin threw everything out of order setting in motion a giant jigsaw puzzle for us to complete with a finite mind. Jesus Christ put the jigsaw puzzle together for us.

As mentioned earlier sin is the ultimate cause for the earth being pushed off course and shaken period. There is so much unrepentant sin in the earth; is it any wonder that it mounts up to the sky. Imagine that, ceilings of unrepentant sin. The reason that I personally believe in daily repentance is that I believe it cleanses the way to God, repentance is a purifier and I do not want to ever be on the side of the unrepentant. There are demons and devils and their followers who have never repented and are not repentant to the Creator of the universe,

I do not want to join in the unholy refrain of how they refuse to repent of sins they have committed. They are and always will be one voice short. It is no, I don’t want to join the unholy somber chorus of un-repentance. I can hear the voice of the one crying in the wilderness, Repent” for the kingdom is at hand. He may have died but his voice in my heart still lives on. The whole universe is at hand. Repent! The self-quake is due to cleaning up my space and place. All the universe is quaking and the sound it utters is "Repent" be sorry for your own role in this earth that is not in agreement with who made and created the earth where you reside.