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The Reality of an Awesome God!

Updated on December 31, 2009

In Him I Live, I Move, I Have My Being!

I came into the year 2009 like everyone else, praying for a prosperous and joyous New Year. What I soon discovered was a year riddled with many disappointments, struggles, issues, and heartbreak. Of course, we Christians know that, we are not exempt from these things but all the same you will find us ducking and dodging these events like the plague.

I also found myself agitated, in a job that I didn't like, working with people who I found irritating, and facing another financial situation. The last three weren't new to me.  Been there, done that, and have a T-shirt for it but it was the agitation that was new, unfamiliar.

Pearl, Precious Gem

Unfamiliar Ground

The agitation had nothing to do with the job, people, places or things. He was calling me to another place. Similar to the oyster, a grain of sand agitates it and causes it to build a nacre around it producing a precious pearl. I had settled. Weary of the agitation. He wanted me to stop "dealing" with the agitation but surround it with the purpose for which He had called me. We are testaments to the world. People read us, when they won't pick up the Bible. We should be showing the world how to come through this season with peace and joy.

What I was learning was that I needed to find "my" heart! I had learn to deal with life on a day-to-day basis but lost the ability to know that it was missing! Church and church activities had prepared me to do all the right things for the right reasons from being a wife to fulfilling obligations as an Elder but there was such an emptiness, hole, a longing in my life that started to become unbearable. I was putting a band-aid on a wound.

The agitation that had been placed by the Awesome God was to awaken me into taking hold of my life and find my heart, like a pearl in a storm. I saw that I loved some people much too hard for my good, had people in my life who weren't in my corner, I discovered hidden dream killers and I discovered the reality of a God that arranges a personal "Moses take your shoes off!"

He never leaves us nor forsakes us. His spirit woos us to complete our mission, life journey, our purpose. In June there was no television, socializing, or movies. Just a searching to fill the spiritual hunger that ignited the passion to love myself and the life He had given me. I could relate to Moses experience when he was in the mountains with the God he had come to know.

After this experience, unbeknowst to my sister, she called from out of state and she said "you sound different!" A coworker at another facility called and said "you sound different! I am different. I've been perserved, kept in His Presence (Psalms 91). Hidden, so that I might know Him again! Thank you Jesus!

I'm so glad that I'm safe, in His Arms!


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