The Sum of All My Learning on Homosexuality
The Sum of All My Learning on Homosexuality
The Sum of All My Learning on Homosexuality
Tonight I was thinking about spiritual oppression, the gospel, and homosexuality. The devil wants to call us fags when we give in to the desire to engage in homosexual acts whether it is watching and masturbating to porn or actually having sex with another man. You know the devil means liar, so let’s take a look at this his lies for what they really are.
First of all, God is always in charge and the things that we go through work together for our good. How, one might ask, do homosexual acts work to our good?
One thing we know about God is that God is love. We know that God is agape – sacrificial love, but He also loves us as a father, brother, friend, husband, lover, king, priest, and many such roles and types of love. The Song of Solomon shows God as our lover – as Eros love. If we are to be like God we must also learn to have proper expression of every form of love.
Eros is passion, desire, warmth, beauty, attraction, enjoyment. It’s the WOW! Factor in everything we do from recreation, play, enjoying our work, music, art, architecture, fashion, worship. It is pleasure.
Homosexuality can have its’ genesis in the blocking of this kind of love at an early age from the same sex. It’s easy to see from the above description that there are many ways to be erotic towards the same sex that are within the boundaries of every day experience and many different types of relationships. The young homosexual has been fooled into thinking that his erotic nature can only be fulfilled through sexual intercourse. He has no clue that there is a whole world of sensations that God has given us to experience with the same sex that doesn’t involve our sex organs as well as those that do. He has been fooled into thinking that sex is the only way to express Eros. Every gay relationship I know of or have heard of is this way. This is the devil’s lie. Let’s take a look at God’s design for us and how the devil tries to take it away from us by labeling it faggotry. This is his way of trying to get us off the trail of something good.
I have fallen victim to the devil’s enticement to play out this very same thing I’m writing about tonight. I have watched gay porn and enjoyed it. Of course one may be thinking, well you can’t really be all that delivered if you’re doing that. I say I’m doing that because I have been delivered. As a man I am designed for relationship. In my relationship with other men I have a need for affection, warmth, mental and emotional intimacy, sharing my life, desires, ambitions, gifts, attention, us time, being highly esteemed in their eyes, being valuable to them. I need their help to achieve my goals, to get the things that I need and or desire, to be safe from harm, to have friends, uncles, brothers, fathers, teachers, shepherds, coaches, sons, cousins, nephews. I need someone who can be my role model, my hero, my inspiration, my hand up, my shoulder to lean on, my ear for listening, my teddy bear to hug, my confidant, and so many things that the list is endless.
The really good porn plays into this by giving us bits and pieces of these qualities and pairing them with sex. Even the advertisements for porn use these same relationships. Sometimes the only time a young man will receive any hope of receiving these qualities is through what is being promoted through gay sex. For the first time he is allowing himself to feel what he should have always felt – to feel what God gave him relationship for in the first place. Every normal man feels these desires, but whereas heterosexual men have received them all along, homosexual men have been denied them and made to feel that they are abnormal for feeling this way. Let’s take another look at David and Jonathan.
1 Samuel 18
And it came to pass, when he had made an end of speaking unto Saul, that the soul of Jonathan was knit with the soul of David, and Jonathan loved him as his own soul.
3. Then Jonathan and David made a covenant, because he loved him as his own soul.
4. And Jonathan stripped himself of the robe that was upon him, and gave it to David, and his garments, even to his sword, and to his bow, and to his girdle.
Here you see two men who share much in common deciding the pecking order of the relationship. Jonathan was next in line to be king, but here he abdicated that privilege to David preferring to live in peace with his friend than to fight over the crown. He put his relationship with David before selfish desire.
1 Samuel 20
Then Saul's anger was kindled against Jonathan, and he said unto him, Thou son of the perverse rebellious woman, do not I know that thou hast chosen the son of Jesse to thine own confusion, and unto the confusion of thy mother's nakedness?
Even back then people did not understand male relationships and to have a really good one you were suspect. Saul accused Jonathan of being gay because of how he loved David, but if you read the story of Saul you will see that he was not known for being loving and therefore he really didn’t understand such things.
And as soon as the lad was gone, David arose out of a place toward the south, and fell on his face to the ground, and bowed himself three times: and they kissed one another, and wept one with another, until David exceeded.
Ah, the famous kissing scene. Here we see David being very demonstrative of both his emotional state over what he was going through and his love for Jonathan. This passage goes to show that not all kisses are sexual, even if they are always erotic. There is such a thing as a holy kiss, for Jonathan and David it is clear that this was not a sexual kiss, but a holy one because they were trying to comfort each other, not sleep with each other.
2 Samuel 1
I am distressed for thee, my brother Jonathan: very pleasant hast thou been unto me: thy love to me was wonderful, passing the love of women.
This is the point I have labored to reach in this writing. This shows a normal man after God’s heart loving his boy more than he loves women. Some will say that when you don’t put woman first in your desires that you are then gay, now who made that up? It’s nowhere in the bible. It is a conceit of men and women. Truth be told, many men prefer the company of their boys over women and they are not gay, nor is this a test of heterosexuality, or proof that something funny is going on. It can be totally normal for men and women to love their same sex friends more than they love their opposite sex friends.
Ok, maybe the above statement didn’t sink in deep enough, but this is biblical evidence that a man who seeks and desires to be with men more than he does with women doesn’t make him gay. To desire a man’s attention and to be attracted to men more than to women does not make you gay.
I said that I watch porn because I am delivered. Let me explain. Back when I was righteous I never watched porn nor had I ever been with a man. I rejected all advances and pushed away everything sexual, but in all that pushing away I never let in all the good eros. I was like a bland saltless cracker with no flavor. My life was pitiful and I didn’t even know it. I was a walking grave – dead to all sensation, feeling, and life. I neither had nor desired relationship with men. I was broken. It wasn’t until I rebelled against this deadness with a voyage into homosexuality that I began to awaken the natural and normal man that had been suppressed, repressed, and oppressed within me. No wonder so many gay men choose homosexuality. It appears to be their deliverance, and now I’m going to say this…some of what they are going through actually is their deliverance. You are delivered when you have the God love eros where there once was none. Life without eros is hateful and ugly. Homosexuality is called gay not for the sex, but for all of these good qualities that are mixed in with it. Gay pride is a celebration not of sex, but of relationship found where there once was a grave with their heart buried in it. How good and how pleasant for brethren to dwell together in unity so David did tell…are the words to a most beautiful song. The bible says that those who live by a standard of taste not, touch not are treating the body harshly with a form of false holiness. God is eros, and He wants us to be also, even in our relationships with other men. We have freedom in Christ more than anyone. In Christ we are free to experience the wide range of erotic loving expression with the entire creation.
I wrote this because the gospel is about us being free from sin. For us sin no longer has spiritual condemnation. We are free to learn from it without the guilt and shame, and having said that, this is reason to laugh in joy and dance, because life is for the tasting.
This book is not a therapy book. It simply describes a number of causes of homosexuality. I don't believe this condition has a treatment other than acceptance.