Will God Forgive me? Again?
A little of my story
I had a man come up to me in Church today to tell me that he forgave me for backsliding. He was worried that I would be offended, I wasn't. He told me that growing up in the Church I was his inspiration and his teacher. He said he learned more about the Bible, how to study it, and spirituality from me than any man before me and any man after me.
This is not the first or even 4th time a man or woman has told me this. I used to be so on fire for my God and my calling. To teach His Word, to introduce people to Him. I spent hours everyday not only studying His Word but studying, Hermeneutics, Pneumatology, the 3 languages of the Bible, and various philosophies, and theologies.
Slowly very slowly through small compromises, bad decisions and even a few accidents I wandered away from this. I got so far away over time that I lost my way back.
Now my God, my Abba Father is taking me by the hand and ever so slowly leading me back. I try to pull away sometimes not gonna lie. I get scared but like the daddy holding his sons hand when I pull He lovingly tightens His grip.
for the Lord your God is gracious and merciful, and will not turn away his face from you, if ye return unto him.
-2nd Chronicles 30:9b
God is not like you or I
My story is by no means a unique one. My God always accepts me back every time without hesitation. Our God will always take you back every time without hesitation. I don’t care who you are or what you’ve done. Those of us that have been redeemed sometimes find it especially hard to except God’s Grace. We could have been the worst of the worst sinner when we first found His love and His mercy but we accepted it with eagerness. It’s so easy to believe for some of us that God is forgiving, but we stumble at just how forgiving He is.
We see Him as we see ourselves. If someone steals from me once I may actually forgive that person. If he or she sincerely asks for my forgiveness. Although after I have forgiven someone if they offend me a second time I’ll be a little hesitant to forgive. I may give that person one more chance but hesitantly and cautiously. Now if that person then offends me in some way again. If that person for the third time steals something from me. I might give forgiveness lip service. I may say “I forgive you,” because I’m a good Christian LOL and I know how I’m supposed to be. But I’m lying and I know this. I will never open myself up to that person again. Our relationship will never ever be the same again. How can it? If I can’t trust you now how can I love you now? I’m just being honest.
So we think that our God is like us. I read an interesting article years ago about the honesty tests that companies give to job applicants. The majority of every honesty test does not focus on the person actually taking the test. Instead of asking “do you steal?” The test will find many different ways to ask “do most people steal?” Instead of asking “do you lie?” The test will find many different ways to ask, “do most people lie?”
There is a very clever reason why these tests focus on your opinion of other people rather than on you. People have a basic tendency to believe that everyone is the same. That other people are like themselves. So if you have a basic opinion that everyone lies and the test results show this. The company knows that you yourself are more than likely a liar. If you believe that most people steal then you are probably a thief.
This is not true of everyone. I myself believe that most people are evil but this is based on what my Bible teaches me. That all have sinned and that there is none righteous. So I would not do well on these tests. But I am an exception because my world views have been shaped by biblical doctrine. But you do not make general tests and base them on the typical reaction of exceptional people. These tests are not flawless but as a general rule companies can determine the honesty of a man based upon his opinion of other peoples honesty.
I said all that to say this. God is not like me. I can forgive once easily, I can even gracefully give an offender a 2nd chance occasionally. Try as I may though that 3rd chance is somewhat out of my ability as a human being to sincerely give anyone. I’m working on that though.
God is not like you if you have this same problem. We who have found God’s love and mercy and then backslide are harder to lead back to Christ than the most wicked dope dealer on the streets. Because we have the hardest time believing that God will actually forgive us again. If we have come back once and then fell away a second time, God forbid we should be lead to believe God will still be there for us when we reach out to Him that third or fourth time.
The God of endless Chances
I've included a link above this text capsule to a similar hub I wrote on this subject which gives even more detail than this of his endless mercy. I hope you take the time to read it. Our God is so forgiving you have no idea. He even describes a righteous man as a rather clumsy one in His Word. His Word says....
"For a just man falleth seven times, and riseth up again: but the wicked shall fall into mischief." -Proverbs 24:16
Do you realize what that passage is actually saying? When you examine it and think this through it almost sounds like righteous people are more sinful than the wicked. We fall seven times it says. The wicked it says will just fall. Like one time but we fall over and over again. Why is that? What is that passage saying?
Simply this. The wicked only falls one time because the wicked stays in the dirt and wallows in the mud of sin. We keep getting back up! You can't keep falling if you don't get back up!
Our God knows that we are human, that we will fall again from time to time. This is not His description of the unforgivable.It doesn't say "For the 'unforgivable' falleth seven times" It says "the just,"
Get back up!
Will God forgive you again? Yes! He is waiting eagerly to forgive you again. He never stopped loving you and He will never stop loving you.
Get back up you just man or woman of God. He needs you and we of your brethren in the Church need you. We miss you.