Crushed to a Fragrance
Memories
Childhood glimpses
Peace snatched
Turmoil of dark places
Mercifully covered up
By the Lord
Unable to torment
Daily life lived
Dark memories
Violence
Confusion
Abject fear
No desire--
To go back
No desire--
To look
No desire--
To discover
Blame
Familiar
Violent outbursts
Dark activity
Stemming wounds
Confusion
Child left
In the dark
It’s enough today
Wrestling darkness
Not knowing
Life survival
Untrained
Left to discover
Chasms by floundering
I cannot talk for myself
Lacking
No sense-- Of propriety
No sense-- Of value
No sense-- Of dignity
Day is grey
Day is dark
My heart
Unending anguish
Unending ache
Generations of
Cascading results
Forward
Pushing
Today
Tomorrow
The Innocent caught in
Crossfire
Ambition
Lust
Greed
All the same
Have things changed
No
All is at it was
Today
Infinitely worse tomorrow
What -- will my children become
What -- will they accomplish in oppressive darkness
When will the reign of the Pure One begin
Where will I be in it
Caught in the darkness
Clouds of depression
Oppression breaks
Snatching a glimpse light, A moment in time
What
Is this life I live
Have lived
Chapters
So many chapters
Chapters of sadness
Of pain
Of wounds
One more door yet to close
Are they truly closed
Can I truly go from one closed door to another
Without the old entering the new
Is there really new
Or
Is it just another
What
Is before me
Where does the road lead
Is there a destination
Do I want to know
Is the world any better then a millennia ago
Do I have any greater understanding
Have I learned from the struggles
The wounds of my fore-bearers
Do I know the life they struggled with
Attempting to bring me to a better place
Or
Had they any thought of the morrow
Do I
Touch My Life
How does the Almighty touch my life
How does God who created all
Such perfect precision
Impress His being
His substance into the path
The world I walk
Today
Or
Tomorrow
How do I flow from the wretchedness
Of what I have become
Am
Into the expected goodness
Of what the Holy One desired
In the beginning
All questions
Few answers
Are there
Answers
I am asked
What -- Do I want
What -- Is my ambition
What -- End do I live for
What -- Is my gluttonous living purchasing for me
What -- Is the end of such a way
All things brings death
What -- Beyond death
Gluttonous
Evidences in my life
Food,
Clothing,
Materials
Objects and more objects
Is there life displayed in my dwelling places
Temporal displayed from my walls
What -- Is there of life, the eternal
What -- Answer can I give of myself
My head hangs low, shame...loathe to meet the eyes of the Savior
He - Who had given up all which is glorious - purchased
My freedom, My life
He - Who lowered Himself In humility to that of human form
Yet I cling to
What -- Hunger
After what -- Dirt
The substance of this world
When do I learn
How do I learn...What do I learn
In the learning, danger of bitterness, Profound hatred
Do I choose to learn a better way or turn and walk the way of shadows
Behind those who have walked before me
Taunting me, cajoling me, appealing to the base dark places of the soul
That seeks retribution, revenge
Is this what Life is
Questions and No answers
Question after question
Where are the answers...Are there answers
Generation after generation, Ask the same questions
No matter the age...No matter the sphere
History doesn’t teach future generations
Many fall to the way
Of jealousy
Of retaliation
Of hatred
To exact upon another a means of vengeance
To oppose the ways of man
Needs a strength
Extensive force more than I can muster
How
Can man keep doing this
To babies
To children
To women
Who look for security
Assurance
How could I do this
To the innocents in my life
Be it my own
Or
That of another
SIN
I see its affects, I feel its encroachment, swirls around, creeps through, breaths death in
Through those about me
SIN - Does not just happen to us
SIN - Happens through us
I don’t want to see it, I become deliberately blind, to the foundation of my dissolute nature
Blind to the capability I have to accomplish exactly that which I abhor
SIN - Brought this very thing among us, in one bite, In one acquiescence, I hold no ability in myself to resist
SIN - If no notice taken Is granted, Strength -- To grow, Darkness -- To hide
Silence -- To speak, food from which SIN stealthily grows, gaining authority in
Intensification, expansion
Rescue
A web of traps
A web of fear
A web of certain death
I close my eyes
I am alone
I sense a presence
In the swirl
In the darkness
A hand
Friend or Foe
I close my eyes
I am lost
A hand of pain
A hand of escape
A hand of mockery
A hand of love
A hand of lies
A hand of truth
I close my eyes
I am confused
Laughter surrounds
Scorn adorns
A gentle touch caresses
I pull away
I close my eyes
I am scared
Judgment presses
Mercy bars the way
Punishment pushes
Grace extends its hand
I close my eyes
I am weak
Echo’s of death
Echo’s of grace
A hoax
A gift
I close my eyes
I hear a voice
A gentle voice
A soft disclosure
I Am
Your Savior
I open my eyes
A hand of hope
Clasps down on mine
It’s Strong
It’s True
It’s Pure
A stillness comes
At our embrace
A mantle warm
With righteousness
The darkness flees
The dawn has come
My SIN takes flight
Both mine and theirs
Trust
Now in this
I am thy God
A voice of peace
A voice of love
My eyes meet His
I am made whole
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