Do You Remember The Silliest Things ?

The toughest times in my life

Have been when I struggle with myself

I can remember when I was little a vivid memory comes to mind

I will spare you all the boring details but this day I will never forget

One reason is that I got to relive that moment just now

Do I tell you the story how it happened then

Do I tell the story as it unfolds now

I am confused and biting my tongue

For reasons you will soon know

Have you ever been in a place where just for the moment you wanted and begged to be somewhere else

But no matter how hard you tried things didn't change much

As each second ticked

Your belly got cramps and I think you bit your lip

I tried distracting my mind to think of other things

But once again my mind was on to me

Like a blood hound on a fresh trail

No matter what I did

I couldn't shake the idea

It was no use

But I still refused to give up

My eyes now stared out into the abiss

I began to pace back and forth and my legs began to falter

They were giving in and I was determined not to let them buckle

So I began to hum

Like that would make the difference

I would lie to myself just a few seconds longer

Even though the minutes escaped and my situation grew worse

I knew the alternative and it was not one I could face

The embarressment

The shame

How could I live it down

How could I ever forget

I know I will get in a zone and concentrate

I will block out every thought

Then when the moment comes I will make a break for it

I will once again avoid a very tricky situation

That has to be handled ver delicately

One that can never be talked about except among a few drunk friends

Now in closing I heard the door open and I ran as fast as I could

To freedom

To safety

Within seconds all is forgotten and my ultimate shame deverted

A smile now replaces the pain in my forehead that began to give me a headache

My stomach muscles once extremely tense now can rest at ease

My shoulders once slumped can now return to their rightful place

Held high and straight where dignity lives

I will not tell you how this ended but with the clues you must of figured it out

I made it today and I made it years ago just by the skin of my teeth

For all those who have been in my shoes you know what a trying time it is

Like you are on the jury and the judge makes you wait

You have self control and he has all the power

If your lucky like me you can laugh

But at that very moment it was no laughing matter

Only one time of many that we take for granted

But I will always think

How lucky I am that made it in just enough time to blink