YOUR RADIANCE

PRELUDE

I have written one hundred and some hubs in the last year and a half. Prior to hubpages, I wrote several professional books, but my main enjoyment in writing had been short stories and a couple of novels which are still hatching. I also dabbled in poetry and music.

When I first ventured into writing, I would some times sit for hours laboring over a sentence. Sometimes the writing flowed and sometimes it didn't. A glass of single malt scotch or robust red wine was an important ingredient in enhancing the creative spirit which I always claimed as my own. Boy was I ever off base!

Then I read, no, I studied, well, I devoured The Artist's Way by Julia Cameron, and I began writing morning pages. It didn't take me long to become keenly aware that I did not own either the creative Spirit or even a creative spirit. I just get to be the funnel, so to speak, the fingers that type the words, and my main job is to get out of the way! When I began composing music in the same vein, I could not believe the melodies and the harmonies coming out of my keyboard especially since I have no training in composition.

Recently, I have again been putzing around the garden of poetry, perhaps ironic to use that word. And, lo and behold when I get out of the way, it does appear that I am doing more than just putzing around. Sometimes the results are "Wow! That came from me?" Well, no it didn't. Again, I stay humble and acknowledge that I am just lucky enough to be the funnel.

This is in no way diminishing myself. Being a funnel for the creative Spirit is a real honor, and I love each and every time it happens. It is akin to making love.

While I have been in the garden of poetry, I have also been exploring my relationship with my Higher Power, with God, and looking at that relationship as a relationship between lovers. One of my first really fun and favorite poems that blossomed out of this exploration was "I Slept With JesusI" http://hubpages.com/hub/LOVES-LOVE-POEMS

Some people find the poem weird, but I find it refreshing and powerful. The experience that gave life to the poem brought me and still brings me incredible peace and serenity.

So I share with you the following poem, entitled Your Radiance. It's a poem about a relationship, and if you listen carefully, you can hear the voice of God whispering, "I love you." The poem grows out of a dream and as much as I wanted to express the powerful experience in poetry, nothing happened until I consciously moved my SELF out of the way, and then the images and words just came bounding out on to the page like popcorn popping without a lid to contain it.

I don't know about you, but I get really turned on by the creative process, the creative Spirit finding its way through me. I sometimes make it more difficult than necessary because of my own inner critic, and then I remember who I am criticizing. It is not myself, but the big Poet in the sky. A little daunting. So yes, humility is important in letting the Spirit run its course back and forth across my left and right hemispheres,

Thank you for reading my little tidbit here, and thank you for reading and enjoying Your Radiance. You may leave the Spirit a comment. He or She will appreciate them.

YOUR RADIANCE

Like a candle,
Casting flickering shadows on my face,
Your radiance
Invites me, with open arms,
To enter the light
Surrounding you.

The eyes of my heart
Opening wide,
Gasp at your precious splendor,
Your beauty.

Your lips whisper
Silent words,
An antiphon,
Still echoing
Throughout the nooks and crannies of my soul,
Throughout the chambers of my heart.

Such delicate words.
Such treasured words.

I will hold them
In my heart,
Like the sound of the ocean
Forever whispering in the shell.

Those three unmistakable silent words.
I love You.

As I move into your light,
My breath is drawn out of me
Like gentle winds
Sweeping down the canyons and valleys
Of your soul.
I gladly and loudly
Whisper my response.
I love You.
 

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Karanda 5 years ago from Australia

Simply beautiful. Beautifully simple. I love that you got out of the way so these words could shine through.


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vrbmft 5 years ago from Yucaipa, California Author

Good Morning (?) How about Good Day, Karanda. Thanks for reading and commenting. Yes, when I reread it, I am amazed. I am so glad I get out of the way as often as I do. It is still a struggle at times, but also a great metaphor for getting out of the way in other areas of my life. Truly, especially when it comes to relationships. So "my" writing, the getting out of the way when writing has many many lessons.

So the candle is casting shadows at 11:12 a. m. on sunday morning. I am guessing it is late Sunday evening there or perhaps early early Monday morning.

Take care, and thanks for stopping by.


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BennyTheWriter 5 years ago from Northeastern U.S.A.

As I read this hub, all I can say is RIGHT ON!

I can completely relate to being too caught up in my head, getting "in the way" of myself...actually, perhaps a bit too much lately, as some important aspects of my life have been suffering, rather than just "going with the flow." Artistic endeavors, as you've so aptly put, are really an spiritual (or at least otherworldly, when it doesn't "feel" spiritual) experience. What we're burdened put out into the Universe really isn't ours to judge--as long as we take a deep breath and allow that creative force to infuse our thoughts. I think it must be an integral part of the "life principle" that science has desperately sought to define but probably never will.

"Your Radiance" is, for lack of better words, radiant...full of subtlety and an understanding of the transcendent nature of love. And "I Slept with Jesus"--whoa. I love it. Speaks to me on so many levels. Strongly reminiscent of the not-so-subtle musings and longings contained in the Song of Solomon. Sex is such a taboo subject, perhaps because it's (ideally) so mysterious and spiritual, and yet without it there would BE no spirituality...because we wouldn't even be born, much less born with an impulse to seek a higher power...

Keep on keeping on, my friend...you have a lot to share with the world.


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vrbmft 5 years ago from Yucaipa, California Author

Benny, Benny, Benny, I love you! It's so awesome when I know someone else resonates with what I thought the creative Spirit was speaking through me. I really like "Sleeping With Jesus," and "Your Radiance" is one of those creations where I, myself, say, "Wow! Where'd that come from?" and yet it speaks so perfectly to my original experience of "Your Radiance." I don't know if I clarified, but I also learned after reading the Artist's Way that alcohol actually interferes with the creative process and even though I was in and out of sobriety for many years, I consciously avoided writing when I was drinking. And would often write early in the morning when I first woke up.

Anywho, thanks for stopping by and reading and commenting.

Vern


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BennyTheWriter 5 years ago from Northeastern U.S.A.

Thanks for explaining further...yes, I believe certainly that substances can interfere with the creative impulse (I should really check out that book)...glad to see that these days, you're a working writer in great form, of course. In my case, circumstances, lack of sleep, etc. can do the same job on you. But, you've inspired me once again to just pick up the pen/sit at the keyboard and just let it all out ...thanks again!


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vrbmft 5 years ago from Yucaipa, California Author

Awesome! I love to inspire, and you are a very good writer yourself, Benny.

Vern


Gregg Cassin 5 years ago

wonderful....

i will use it -YOUR RADIANCE in a commitment ceremony this weekend.....


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vrbmft 5 years ago from Yucaipa, California Author

Thanks for reading, Gregg, and I am glad I could contribute to your commitment ceremony.

Vern

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