You're just a friend

A poet is born

It has been awhile since I religiously wrote poetry. Yet, it is something I enjoyed and still do occasionally. When I was younger, back in 2002, I decided as a way of mental healing, I would write a poem daily (or at least try) as a means to sort through some personal issues I was having. So I filled several pages of notebook paper with poetry in a variety of different styles, emotions, and feelings.

However, that notebook disappeared long ago, probably lost in a moving box and misplaced. Recently, it turned up again as I was sorting through a box of papers and old notebooks. While most of the notebooks had been cleared out, this one notebook still had several different poems and story synopsis written inside. This was definately a treasure to find and while I realize most of these poems are dark in nature and reflect a very hard time in my life, it was still fun to read through them.

Background

As I mentioned earlier, this poem was written during a very hard time in my life. At the time I was a single mom in the Army. My daughter was born earlier in the year and due to stresses, my husband and I split up. With my husband and I both living in different states, working through relationship issues can prove very tiresome and very confusing.

To complicate situations even worse, several of "our" friends were male. Since I worked in a small unit with upper enlisted, friends from my unit were few. My husband's circumstances were different. He had several people in his unit that he could be friends with. Unfortunately, the vast majority of them were single males. Even though he was gone, they still remained my friends. Some may have gotten other ideas though with him out of the picture at the time.

This poem was written about a friend who wanted more...

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Flowers can be a good way to impress a girl... | Source

Just a Friend - Biz Markie

You're Just a Friend

You've stuck me in a corner

Put me in a situation

The story has been told a thousand times

Yet you never listen

***

You are nothing more than a friend

I trust in you - talk to you

But will you ever comprehend

You will never - can never - be more than a friend

***

You push yourself upon me

Buying flowers and gifts

But the situation can never be

Me wanting you is just a myth

***

There is someone else in my life

He will always come first

Feelings are confusing, but not mutual

It is I who is cursed

***

I know you want me

But the timing is all wrong

I wish you could only see

With me you don't belong

***

You can't buy my love

It isn't a prize

You can never be with me

This shouldn't be a surprise

***

So just say goodbye

Tomorrow is another day

This isn't a lie

Just go Away!

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iamaudraleigh 4 years ago

I think this is an honest and good poem of how you were feeling at the time. Please continue to write more poetry. You are very good at it! Voted up!


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Just Ask Susan 4 years ago from Ontario, Canada

I like how how you wrote the background of how writing this poem came about.

Awesome poem!


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mythicalstorm273 4 years ago

I really enjoyed this poem. Although I was too young at the time to fully understand what you were going through I remember it vividly. It was a very sad time in your life, but this poem just reminds me that you and Eli are meant to be together! You guys are stronger because of that time period and you over came many obstacles to get where you are today!


kelleyward 4 years ago

When I read the title of your poem I immediately thought of that song by Biz Markie "Just a Friend", one of my favorites! I really enjoyed this poem and looking forward to more of your work! Take care, Kelley


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barbergirl28 4 years ago from Hemet, Ca Author

@iamaudraleigh - Thank you so very much. I have another handful of poems that I am going to add. I am not going to lie though - I was a little intimidated by posting this because of how personal it really was! :) Glad you enjoyed it!


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barbergirl28 4 years ago from Hemet, Ca Author

@Just Ask Susan - Glad you enjoyed it. I felt the background info definately added to this! :)


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barbergirl28 4 years ago from Hemet, Ca Author

@Myth - You are very correct. This just shows that even though Eli and I had our problems... some that you may not even be aware of, we somehow always seemed to find our way back to each other. It definately must have been meant to be! :) I don't regret any of our split ups because it made us much stronger and it has definately been a learning experience! Glad you enjoyed this poem though!


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barbergirl28 4 years ago from Hemet, Ca Author

@kelleyward - Thanks for the unintended suggestion. When you mentioned the song... I couldn't help but run straight over to youtube so I could add it to the hub! Glad you enjoyed this! :)


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crazymom3 4 years ago

This is one of the reasons I wanted to hub about personal experiences. I think we as humans can learn from eachother's hurts, and happiness and successes or in the least say "I know just how you feel". We are all a part of this human experience. We breath the same air, hurt, and love relatively similarly.


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Deborah Brooks 4 years ago from Brownsville,TX

wow what a great poem.. I understand it perfectly. Love.. it expresses love very well

voted up

Debbie


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Philanthropy2012 4 years ago from London

Mmm a truly heart felt and personal poem. Very good. Watch the spelling though..

"You can ver be with me"

"Tomorrow is anohter day"


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Daffy Duck 4 years ago from Cornelius, Oregon

To find something like that makes it a treasure. You can see your style of writing then and compare it to now. I wonder how many artists have that kind of opportunity.

ON a lighter note, I didn't know you were in the army. Is that in your profile? I should take a closer look at it sometime.

Awesome hub. Very well written! :)


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drbj 4 years ago from south Florida

I'm glad you found your stash of poetry written some time ago, Stacy. This poem was very straightforward and meaningful and I enjoyed reading it and the synopsis that preceded it. You go, girl!


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RealHousewife 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO

Hey Stacy - I did find this to be so you! Very - "this is what it is" and I can deal. You chose a very healthy way to cope with life in putting what you were thinking at the time right on this paper:)

You sure I can't buy you a present or something? lol


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Minnetonka Twin 4 years ago from Minnesota

Good for you to write this to help you through this situation. I can relate to how healing writing poetry can be when were faced with difficulty.


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tammyswallow 4 years ago from North Carolina

This is awesome. The only time I write poetry is during times like this too. I guess it is a good thing when we aren't "inspired" to write it. Great poem!


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barbergirl28 4 years ago from Hemet, Ca Author

@crazymom3 - Well said. I love writing about personal experiences. I think it really helps us open up and learn from not only what we have done, but what others have done as well. Glad you enjoyed this! :)


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MsLofton 4 years ago from IL

This is great!!! I can definitely relate to this!


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vnsatakopan 4 years ago from Chennai, India

I like this poem. A smile or, a casual friendly chat can be misunderstood easily.


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barbergirl28 4 years ago from Hemet, Ca Author

Deborah Brooks - Thank you so much for a great compliment. Glad you enjoyed it! :)


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barbergirl28 4 years ago from Hemet, Ca Author

@Philanthropy2012 - Glad you enjoyed it. Thanks for the spelling check - fixed it. Sometimes my hands work faster than my mind does unfortunately when I am typing! :)


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barbergirl28 4 years ago from Hemet, Ca Author

@Daffy Duck - I wonder too how many other writers have the opportunity to find some of their old works. I have found stuff from high school as well. Those are always fun. But like you said, the best part of these treasures is really seeing how we have evolved!

As for the Army - I don't know if it is in my profile. I think I had it there at one time... I could have moved it. But yes - I was in the Army for 5 years. Probably one of the reasons P90X suited me so well... but it also really got me writing as well even though I had a passion for it in the past as well!


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barbergirl28 4 years ago from Hemet, Ca Author

@drbj - Thank you so much... I am glad that you enjoyed it. I tell you, this really was a time machine for me... sweeping me back to an earlier part of my life!


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barbergirl28 4 years ago from Hemet, Ca Author

@Real - Whenever I am feeling a little down and out I always write poetry. However, that being said, the majority of my poetry is usually depressing. But when I am in a good mood - I struggle to write poetry! LOL


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barbergirl28 4 years ago from Hemet, Ca Author

@Minnetonka Twin - Thank you for stopping by. I am sure there is a lot of people that can relate to feeling like this. I am just glad I found a good avenue to release my emotions in a healthy way. :)


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barbergirl28 4 years ago from Hemet, Ca Author

@tammyswallow - valid point... I guess it isn't always a bad thing when we dont' feel inspired! Especially if it is an emotional time for us! LOL Glad you enjoyed this!


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barbergirl28 4 years ago from Hemet, Ca Author

@MsLofton - Thanks for the compliment... glad you enjoyed it!


Poetic Fool 4 years ago

Writing poetry has helped me greatly dealing with particular problems and issues. Heck, it is why I started in the first place. Yours deals honestly with an interesting and difficult situation. I certainly hope he got the message in the end! Thanks for sharing!


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BlossomSB 4 years ago from Victoria, Australia

Thank you so much for sharing. It's not easy, but I think many of your readers will have had similar experiences and you express it so well for all of us. Voted up.


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rahul0324 4 years ago from Gurgaon, India

Nice poem Stacy! Written with utter honesty! It is difficult and testing to convey such message to a friend... for the obvious reason of losing one...and you do not wish to hurt,,, but in the end you have to be honest.. I can relate here..!

Lovely work


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tillsontitan 4 years ago from New York

You may have written this during a dark time but it is written with empathy and concern for the other person. Beautifully done, no harm nor malice is conveyed. I'm glad you found your book of poems and hope to see more! Voted up and awesome.


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barbergirl28 4 years ago from Hemet, Ca Author

@vnsatakopan - Feelings and emotions are very hard... even if the person knows the ground rules sometimes things just happen. While I considered him a friend, and he knew that from the beginning, it didn't stop him from pursuing further. Eventually he got the idea but I really hope it wasn't because I was sending him mixed signals!


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barbergirl28 4 years ago from Hemet, Ca Author

@Poetic Fool- I know exactly how you feel! However, it wasn't until I found Hubpages that I truly was able to share my poetry with others. It seems much more difficult when they are reading it on a piece of paper compared to being able to hide behind a computer screen. Glad you enjooyed this and glad you found your calling as well! :)


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barbergirl28 4 years ago from Hemet, Ca Author

@BlossomSB - Thank you so much. I am glad that you enjoyed this. Out of my book of poems, this was probably one of the easiest ones to share. I will share some of the other ones as well but this was truly an ice breaker. Thanks for the support!


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Ruchira 4 years ago from United States

good work, BBG :)

Sometimes a friend can ONLY be a friend no matter how hard we try. beautifully explained...welcome to the genre of poetry and keep rocking it sista...cheers!

voted up and sharing it across!


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Anamika S 4 years ago from Mumbai - Maharashtra, India

Something similar happened with me too. I consider someone as just a friend and he tried to force his way to my life. I kept on discouraging him and he kept on trying to win me and convince me that he is the one for me. Things reached such a stage that his mere voice over phone started giving me headaches and I dreaded seeing him (he even drops at my home unannounced because he knows I am lying when I say I am out or not at home). Can someone be so obsessed even when a girl insults and pushes a guy away? 4 years... he still shows no sign of giving up trying even when he knows that I am not available. Awesome Hub, voted up!


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barbergirl28 4 years ago from Hemet, Ca Author

@rahul0324 - Friendship is a hard thing... once you cross that line it can be really great or it can be the worst mistake every made. Glad you enjoyed reading this!


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barbergirl28 4 years ago from Hemet, Ca Author

@tillsontitan - Glad you enjoyed this. I am going to try to publish a few more of the poems here and there. They really are a trip for me to remember, even though they mostly come from the same time.


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barbergirl28 4 years ago from Hemet, Ca Author

@Ruchira - Thanks for the compliment... I will try to keep rockin it! :)


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barbergirl28 4 years ago from Hemet, Ca Author

@Anamika S - Wow... I am glad that mine definately didn't last as long as yours. Sorry to hear that. It stinks when they just don't get the hint and even then... even if you once valued the friendship... it can ruin it.


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Angela Brummer 4 years ago from Lincoln, Nebraska

So many people can relate to this is goes on through life. However you end up once in while turning someone who was just a friend into more and visa versa! UGH!


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barbergirl28 4 years ago from Hemet, Ca Author

@Angela Brummer - It really is a catch 22 - after all, you should never get into a relationship with someone who isn't a friend either. It is just a matter of finding that sweet spot where both people are in the same situation.


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raciniwa 4 years ago from Naga City, Cebu

i am reminded by a Carpenter's song, Love me for what I am...so true...there are friends who try to mold us the way they want us to be...so powerful emotions here barbergirl...


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barbergirl28 4 years ago from Hemet, Ca Author

@raciniwa - I think it is human nature to try to mold the world around you. Thanks for stopping by and leaving a great comment. I appreciate it! :)


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gmaoli 4 years ago from South Carolina

This was a pretty good poem. For one thing, it flowed very well...now I'm not an expert on poetry by any stretch of the imagination. I'm just telling you as the casual reader how it read to me. Second, you kept it simple enough for the reader to understand what was going on, yet captured the emotions you felt about this individual's advances towards very clearly. The stanza of not buying your love and your feelings "not being a surprise": I think that really sets the tone of this entire poem. It's not easy for one person who has romantic feelings that their person of interest doesn't feel the same, but like this poem there's only one way to say it and that is the honest truth even though it can hurt. Then again, the hurt would be far worse if one were just pretend that such feelings did exist rather than being honest. Enjoyed it!


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barbergirl28 4 years ago from Hemet, Ca Author

@gmaoli - Thank you for the wonderful compliment. I am glad you enjoyed this. I know when it comes to poetry sometimes I write it and other times I can't. It really is a mood for me or a great way to get something off my chest. Obviously, I had something to say when I wrote this one!


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Peggy W 4 years ago from Houston, Texas

Hi Stacy,

I would say that you handled this touchy situation very well with the poem that you wrote. As you mentioned, it also helped you crystallize your feelings at that time. Well done!


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barbergirl28 4 years ago from Hemet, Ca Author

@Peggy W - Thank you so much. For me I really have to be in the mood for poetry. When I am - they turn out really good... when I am not - I just sit! Glad you enjoyed this one!


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sweetie1 3 years ago from India

HI Barber girl,

You are truly a gifted poetess. Very nicely written poem with words very well chosen. You described perfectly how your heart was feeling and what you wished. voting it up


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barbergirl28 3 years ago from Hemet, Ca Author

@sweetie1 - Thank you very much. Poetry is one of those things I really have to be in the mood for, but when I am, it works out well! :)

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