The best December
I thought about it while all these hubs about Christmas were appearing. It might not be a hub of 500 words, but just a thought I had to type down.
I thought about all the times Christmas passed, al the Decembers that went by and I realized that Christmas 2007 was the best ever. Sure I’ve had my share of ‘nice’ Christmases’. Sure I’ve had my Christmases with fun, but emotionally it can’t be compared with the last one because last Christmas I spend with him and my children.
Maybe you know how it is. You dream and think about something for a long time but you never think it’s going to happen for you. But it did for me and it all happened in December 2007. Okay.. It started the last days of November, but after about having ‘this feeling’ for 5 years and saying nothing we both opened up and let it happen. One word followed another and before we knew we had said eachother everything what was goning on in our hearts and minds. We could recal every moment our hearts came close and could finally speak out the words and more important show the feelings we had for each other.
And we were so close....... When the boys taped us up together...
and we are so close .... even without the ductape ;)
*sigh*
Almost a year past now. A year of ups and downs. But I have to say more ups than downs. A year in which I met a lot of new friends, met his lovely daughter (even though see doesn’t like to clean up her room), he met my crazy family and survived them all, he survived me getting sick and gets along with my boys and we had a great vacation. We shared laughs and we shared tears. It all makes me sigh. I never could imagine this and I never could imagine that I could love someone as much as I do now.
And the worst thing of all maybe that the love is still growing but the distance between us is still the same. Both living on other sides of this little country. Far away from eachother but also so close.Knowing this December even this Christmas, the distance will still be there, hoping the following Christmas it’s gone and the distance is no more than 15 minutes so we're able to share more and show even more. Hoping for a new best December of my life.
@ I love you