Blank Canvas: Relating Life's Cycles, Patterns, Clues, Signs, Symbols, Omens

Your life is an unbroken series of cycles and patterns. Everything you do, say or feel is refurbished. One continuous ‘merry go round’ of episodes; same theme, different faces. Irreplaceable characters who have been written into the individual sphere of activity in your personal dramatic script of existence.

You are not, nor have you ever been, separate from the people and events that surround you. Nor are you above (more advanced) or below (less capable) than any of them.

Round and round we go, moving through many repetitive cycles, symbols, omens, clues and various interlinking episodes!

We are all on the same ride! Whoever is facing you is in direct proportion to and a perfect reflection of your present level of consciousness. No more. No less. Your immediate level of consciousness mirrors the true state in which your motivations reside.

No need to ask, “Why is THIS happening to me”, or “Why did he/she do THAT to me.” Difficulty arises when you try to conceal your obscure motivations from yourself.

You end up blaming another for your prickly unrest and bruised ego. Your insulted personality rises in defense as you try to calm your infuriated libido. No one has harmed, abused, cheated, offended, or desecrated you in any way. Nor have your feelings been damaged or corrupted. Emotions are capricious and need to be exposed.

The fictitious idea that you have been offended, abandoned, abused, neglected, or impaired is an obvious distortion. No doubt, some of life’s episodes hurt the body but never injure the soul. In fact, the soul craves each pain filled occurrence. For it is by and through painful events that genuine truth is gained and tabulated.

Authentic certainty may be expressed as pain temporarily, but it never cripples your inner nature. As long as you continue to deny this instinctive reality, you will complicate and color your life by invoking and prolonging bitterness, regret, remorsefulness, sorrow, jealousy, envy, revenge, and self-pity.

You will end up being overly judgmental, critical, cynical and dubious in your dealings. Your relationships will be “double-minded and unstable in all of their ways.”’ Your state of over-all health and mind’s well-being is contingent upon your NOT believing that someone has cheated you out of ‘something or someone’, or that you have been {in some way or another} denied something you feel you deserve.

It is imperative you realize you are creating and living out each moment of your life exactly and precisely as your soul sees fit for your particular pattern and cycle of development. In other words, you needed and desired {whether consciously aware of it or not} all of the troublesome, heart-breaking and devastating events that have taken place.

All things transpire for reasons beyond your present comprehension. Pain is merely one way of reflecting a dimension of spiraling ascent. Though the plot may seem ambiguous and mal-aligned, nothing could be further from the truth.

At times, repressed anger, unexpressed guilt, magnified denial, and tenaciously harbored regret acts as the culprit to bring about a desired result. It does not matter whether you are consciously aware of these debilitating emotions; the results are geared to the exaltation of your experience.

Forgiveness is at hand! You must let go of the misguided idea that anyone at any time has ever WRONGED you. Every single cycle and pattern of reoccurring blights have been necessary to bring you where you are today and will be the exponent to carry your forward.

Call it your ‘training ground’ if you want to. Whatever works for you, you must come to terms with {learn to truly appreciate} the pain, disappointment and disillusionment you have personally suffered. No clearer mirror is offered as a reflection of your inner most requirements in character definition.

You were born with a specialized ‘divine seed of character’ formed from a pattern of celestial origin. One, of which is destined to grow, develop, mature, evolve through a myriad of EXPERIENCES. These events of your life are re-cycled according to unidentified, unspecified, unstoppable sacred instructions.

Painful events are a vital part of the deepest recess of your productive soul. Similar, in effect, to the metamorphosis of a butterfly: can a seemingly earth-bound caterpillar even slightly suspect he/she (after an indescribable transformation) will soar one day to magnanimous heights with glorious wings?

Even so, are you instilled with an enormous capability to transcend all obstacles and barriers. In fact, inescapable challenges are the momentous fabric woven into that which is called your ‘flesh.’ Any trivial bit of cynical negativity or resistance is linked to your unwillingness to resolve a profoundly encrusted belief that you are in some way different from all others who reside with you on the planet and in some way deserve to be treated ‘special.’

Not true. We are all the same. You will never be able to govern or control the thoughts, actions, and behaviors of another. {You are not supposed to.}

But, by the release and redefinition of your own malicious, selfish, greedy, self-serving intent, coupled with your self-indulged need to control and manipulate the situation, will you be freed of the ambiguity you express and project. It’s simply a matter of clearing the table of dirty dishes so that you can prepare the fabulous festive feast.

Look squarely and honestly into the face of your personal life being perfectly mirrored back at you through the faces of all those intimately and casually involved with you. What do you see? What are you hearing? Is there bitterness? [Sarcasm/ Regret/ Guilt?] Do you see selfishness, self-importance, self-betrayal, self-intoxication, self-hatred, self-denigration, self-doubt, self-neglect, self-absorbtion, self-contradiction, self-condemnation, self-destruction?

Or do you see self-determination, self-esteem, self-love, self-worth, self-discipline, self-control, self-expression, self-examination, self-sufficiency, self-expression, self-reliance, self-motivation, selflessness, self-awareness, self-appreciation?

Again, what are you looking at? Can you recognize the face of YOU behind the disguise? Grab hold of the exaggerated horns of complicated self-deception and wrestle with it until you are freed from its unnatural and inconvenient possession.

Stop hiding behind the phony role of victim, savior, saint, or martyr. How devastatingly tiring it is for you to believe you need for your actions to be seen as “good”, reliable, trustworthy, considerate and caring. Ha! You are concerned with nothing except how to survive, thrive and succeed. No need to continue with that senseless charade.

Free yourself, as well as the others in your life from having to be grateful and appreciative. You are what you are and feel what you feel, period. You are irretrievably created for blissful intent. Undiminished pleasure free-flowing naturally.

The walls of your own self-deluded prison crumble automatically when you set the other free from any sense of obligation, responsibility, and duty on your behalf. Face it. What have you ever done for another that you truly didn’t want to do?

And, IF you did undertake any preconditioned motion of activity, or restatement of a fortuitous gesture, then ‘you got your reward’ immediately. Stop complaining, moaning and groaning. Nothing goes unrewarded, ever.

What do I hear you saying? “How about the one you loved who didn’t love you back?” Impossible. Do you really call what you embraced LOVE? Ha. Mere bondage. IF you are/were aware and recording/recorded [measured} what was done or not done in the relationship, no love present. When LOVE is present there is no consciousness of what the other is contributing. LOVE, like Grace, is sufficient thereof.

IF there is a moment of looking back in your life with your replying, “After all I did” …rest assured, the luring self-gratifying martyred incentive was compensated. Take another look in the ‘mirror of yourself ‘reflected in the other presently?

Do you see happiness, contentment, appreciation of the smallest insignificant things? Or do you see and hear bitching, griping, complaining and constant bad-mouthing?

You are continuously surrounded by clues to the approaching cycles and patterns in your life. You are never unaware of what you think are doing but you are in actuality never doing what you think. If at any moment, You THINK you KNOW what you are doing, cease immediately. {IF not, All well and good.

Enjoy the roller coaster ride you are inevitably setting up!} You are at THAT point the most deeply embedded in self-trickery.

The fact that you were imbued with unceasingly sacred artistic, musical, dramatic talent goes without saying. You were also given a ‘Blank Canvas’ upon which you can paint your responses to the unalterable creative experiences you will no doubt encounter.

Your life of ‘pain and joy’ is filled with a rainbow of conjugated color. Therein exhibits your artistic pursuit and purpose. Decide what masterpiece you will endeavor to create.

Express yourself thoroughly, naturally and conveniently always without restriction. Paint the picture of ‘Savory Night’ of delight without apology. Enough, already; shock yourself. Do something blatantly meaningful and shameless to you.