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Reflection on my life

Updated on June 26, 2010

Like you must have read in my profile,i am the last of six siblings and shared the love of two beautiful hearts, Mom and Dad. These are the two most important and special people i have ever met in my life though i spent quite a short period of time with both of them but to me, it is all about God's garden and he alone has the right to cultivate his garden so he picks the most beautiful flowers from it when it pleases him.

But my life so far...

Just like Lois Lowry...THE SILENT BOY.

I strongly believe that things that annoys me may not even give you a headache that is why,when i am silent you don't even know what is in my mind.

There is something i have come to understand about silence.For me,this shows signs of sadness and abandonment but no matter what you think of me and no matter what the situation might be, i have come to understand that the negative perception of people towards me cannot stop me from doing what pleases me.

I was a happy little boy with determination to be like my father but sadness took control of my imagination and thoughts the year i lost my Father then to topple my breakdown was the sudden death of my mother two years afterward and ever since then, silence became my companion.

Reflection

ON MY LIFE...
ON MY LIFE...

Do they really care? No they don't,i mean the people around me, no one knew what goes on in my head every single minute but though my life took a drastic change because of the absence of the most important people in it yet it was not totally broken and that is the mare reason why you are reading this today.

What i learned from all that i faced growing up is that once i am saddened and lonely,i become prone to temptation and thereby give the urge to do what i am not meant to do a bigger space.

There were seven questions that kept repeating themselves in my head,as if i was two people, one disturbed and the other confused yet both wanted to get out of the emotional trap that was simply the real me.

#...What do you think about yourself?
#...Reflect on your life and see where it is circling.
#...What direction are you going?
#...Do you believe in yourself and your dreams?
#...Do you succumb to the antics of your detractors?
#...How many true friends do you have?

It simply dawned on me that i had two options but will chose just one because i found myself in need of help but i am the one who will help myself since the people around do not care that much so i chose the I WILL NOT option.

I will not look down on myself

I will not circle with chicken because i am an Eagle

I will not travel on the wrong direction any more

I will not stop believing in myself and my dreams

I will not succumb to the antics of my detractors

I will not have more than one friend-MYSELF.

As a man, i have realized after reflecting on my life that...

There was once a darkened passage in my heart
Too frightened to know what i might find
No one seems to believe in my potentials
So many goats on Lion's skin and green snakes on green grass
The part i chose tough and rough yet stable by his grace
But the truth is that every time you look into my eyes
You will realize that my heart doesn't lie.


Lios Lowry the silent boy

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      Chibuzo Melvin Mobis 

      8 years ago from Nigeria

      Thank you so much bayoulady,determination is one factor that leads to success...

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      bayoulady 

      8 years ago from Northern Louisiana,USA

      I am impressed with your candidness and determination. Expect great things, for God is a great God!

    • Rossimobis profile imageAUTHOR

      Chibuzo Melvin Mobis 

      8 years ago from Nigeria

      Life goes on my dear Maravallie...

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      MARVALLIE BRYAN 

      8 years ago

      THIS IS SO SAD. I AM GLAD YOU HAVE DECIDED TO GO FORWARD AND NOT BACKWARD MY FRIEND. YOU IS A GIFT SEND FROM GOD FOR THE HUMAN RACE.

    • Rossimobis profile imageAUTHOR

      Chibuzo Melvin Mobis 

      8 years ago from Nigeria

      pmccray yes so said but poignant,thanks for coming over...

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      pmccray 

      8 years ago from Utah

      This is so sad, but poignant. Great read Rossimobis

    • Rossimobis profile imageAUTHOR

      Chibuzo Melvin Mobis 

      8 years ago from Nigeria

      Positive Carolina M. and thanks so much for stopping here today...

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      carolina muscle 

      8 years ago from Charlotte, North Carolina

      Some really important ideas here!!!

    • Rossimobis profile imageAUTHOR

      Chibuzo Melvin Mobis 

      8 years ago from Nigeria

      Thank you bro,i appreciate the way you put your word..(great thoughts)

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      Micky Dee 

      8 years ago

      More great thoughts of Rossimobis!

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