ArtsAutosBooksBusinessEducationEntertainmentFamilyFashionFoodGamesGenderHealthHolidaysHomeHubPagesPersonal FinancePetsPoliticsReligionSportsTechnologyTravel

The Art of Self Discovery

Updated on October 31, 2011
ArtMask
ArtMask

If you aren't sure who you are, you might as well work on who you want to be.~Robert Brault

I look at a child, in all innocence, like that of a clean canvas ready to be painted on. There's the first stage when it is pristine, then lovingly filled with pretty colors of naivete'. It's a magical time when all is sweet and tender, lavished by hues of pure love that can only come from moms and dad's nurturing. But, as we know it, things don't remain the same for long.

This is my personal journey, in discovering what i believe is the real and authentic "me". If you're like me, who, for years was tossed to and fro by every wind and force in and out of this planet, you'll understand the dilemma of my experience with self identity.

Ok, and so i was daddy's little angel. I felt loved as a child, thanks to my wonderful parents. There was something about growing up feeling very secure in an environment of respect and acceptance. Like a flower, i flourished with the affirmation and constant affection i was given at home. Being valued provided the greatest validation i needed to prepare me for the future. The foundation of my childhood remains the most formidable aspect of my being, or who i would become. This despite every onslaught and turbulence that came my way, as thrown by life itself.

So, i outgrew my 'princess' days, but did i? It's funny how fairy tales can be a lot like real life. I found out as a young girl, things were no different. I met many wolves, wicked sisters, Queens, and toads as if they had jumped out of the very books i have read. Except, this time, they carried different names and faces. It was in school that i met these characters. Gosh! Were they mean, and some, outright cruel. I think it was the first time i actually felt threatened and unsafe. I understood honest competition, but jealousy and envying? Girls vying for boys attention who didn't have qualms damaging another girls reputation if she happened to be more attractive and more popular? I have stories upon stories of those early years, and it gets worse. When you see the ugliness of humanity, you have to work it within yourself what you would like to be. I did. I knew i had been given a moral compass, and these were my life's absolutes. Overall, i feel blessed. Things could have been much much worst.

I was a dreamer, and i was very sure i knew what i wanted to be, and where and how far i wanted to go. BUT! Don't we all know it by now? Not every good plan we have happens exactly the way we wanted it. In my case, there were many detours, missteps, curves and yes....LESSONS! How we wish, like a canvas, somethings can be erased, or maybe just covered up.


Author 'Warholed'
Author 'Warholed'

I didn't become mama's Concert Pianist, a Prima Ballerina, nor a Famous Journalist. I was a young mom who worked as model to earn a living. I became a successful entrepreneur, and onwards to become a corporate person. As an artist, i was like fish out of water. I felt unhappy doing what i did, yet, every hat i wore seemed to fulfill someone's else's needs, more than mine. With all the mistakes i made, i knew i had a choice, always. I could completely ruin myself, and go the deep end. Or i could choose the straight and narrow, and come out in a better place. There are good and bad people that come our way, to do us good or harm. I know i should have listened more to those who were much wiser than me. But some of the faux pas in my life became the most important lessons if ever. Would i do things differently and spared myself the mistakes? Perhaps. But, it does not help to look back now. I am only glad that each day that we have is a new day to make a choice. I also believe in the graces that is bestowed upon us by God. I am all for the miraculous anytime having seen and given it many times.

I feel i know myself better. I know what's important to me. I am uniquely me, and so i never bother trying to compare myself with anyone. I have rediscovered my passion, and i am happy.

People often say that this or that person has not yet found himself. But the self is not something one finds, it is something one creates.~Thomas Szasz

Comments

    0 of 8192 characters used
    Post Comment

    • IslandVoice profile imageAUTHOR

      Sylvia Van Velzer 

      6 years ago from Hawaii

      Thank you Nadiaazhar! I appreciate your comment. God bless you.

    • nadiaazhar profile image

      nadiaazhar 

      6 years ago from kuwait

      I deeply felt your writing and I know how it feels to be a drifting leave moving along the wind and self discovering your inner self sometimes can even surprise your ownself.keep writing and re-discovering yourself

    • IslandVoice profile imageAUTHOR

      Sylvia Van Velzer 

      8 years ago from Hawaii

      Thank you very much Rossimobis!

    • Rossimobis profile image

      Chibuzo Melvin Mobis 

      8 years ago from Nigeria

      This is highly inspirational and i am glad i read it...

    • IslandVoice profile imageAUTHOR

      Sylvia Van Velzer 

      9 years ago from Hawaii

      Thank you st@r vibz! Your words are very much appreciated.

    • st@r vibz profile image

      st@r vibz 

      9 years ago from Sunshine state

      WOW! I absolutely loved this piece.You truly have a voice that is moving & I definately agree about people trying to dictate what you should and should not be.I'm finding my purpose in life now & its good to know you've found yours :)

      Very inspirational!

      Btw, thanks for the commenting on my first piece..blessings!

    • IslandVoice profile imageAUTHOR

      Sylvia Van Velzer 

      9 years ago from Hawaii

      Thank you GP Tripathi for your kind words. If we are able to inspire people out there with our stories and writings, not to give up and to jeep dreaming, then we can feel good. I look forward to learning from you myself. Blessings!

    • G P Tripathi profile image

      Dr G P Tripathi 

      9 years ago from India

      I must admit that your story moved me. It really doesn’t matter if the story is just an imagination or fiction, it has a message. This made my faith in my work and my book even stronger. I have written in my book on time management “No such Thing as Time” that you must first discover “your calling in life” then and not till then you should set your goals for life. You are lucky to have found your life’s purpose in art, as the Marjory of us go to grave with their dreams and aspiration never felt, realized, expressed or worked upon. God bless.

      Best regards-G P Tripathi (www.acnowsystems.com)

    working

    This website uses cookies

    As a user in the EEA, your approval is needed on a few things. To provide a better website experience, hubpages.com uses cookies (and other similar technologies) and may collect, process, and share personal data. Please choose which areas of our service you consent to our doing so.

    For more information on managing or withdrawing consents and how we handle data, visit our Privacy Policy at: https://hubpages.com/privacy-policy#gdpr

    Show Details
    Necessary
    HubPages Device IDThis is used to identify particular browsers or devices when the access the service, and is used for security reasons.
    LoginThis is necessary to sign in to the HubPages Service.
    Google RecaptchaThis is used to prevent bots and spam. (Privacy Policy)
    AkismetThis is used to detect comment spam. (Privacy Policy)
    HubPages Google AnalyticsThis is used to provide data on traffic to our website, all personally identifyable data is anonymized. (Privacy Policy)
    HubPages Traffic PixelThis is used to collect data on traffic to articles and other pages on our site. Unless you are signed in to a HubPages account, all personally identifiable information is anonymized.
    Amazon Web ServicesThis is a cloud services platform that we used to host our service. (Privacy Policy)
    CloudflareThis is a cloud CDN service that we use to efficiently deliver files required for our service to operate such as javascript, cascading style sheets, images, and videos. (Privacy Policy)
    Google Hosted LibrariesJavascript software libraries such as jQuery are loaded at endpoints on the googleapis.com or gstatic.com domains, for performance and efficiency reasons. (Privacy Policy)
    Features
    Google Custom SearchThis is feature allows you to search the site. (Privacy Policy)
    Google MapsSome articles have Google Maps embedded in them. (Privacy Policy)
    Google ChartsThis is used to display charts and graphs on articles and the author center. (Privacy Policy)
    Google AdSense Host APIThis service allows you to sign up for or associate a Google AdSense account with HubPages, so that you can earn money from ads on your articles. No data is shared unless you engage with this feature. (Privacy Policy)
    Google YouTubeSome articles have YouTube videos embedded in them. (Privacy Policy)
    VimeoSome articles have Vimeo videos embedded in them. (Privacy Policy)
    PaypalThis is used for a registered author who enrolls in the HubPages Earnings program and requests to be paid via PayPal. No data is shared with Paypal unless you engage with this feature. (Privacy Policy)
    Facebook LoginYou can use this to streamline signing up for, or signing in to your Hubpages account. No data is shared with Facebook unless you engage with this feature. (Privacy Policy)
    MavenThis supports the Maven widget and search functionality. (Privacy Policy)
    Marketing
    Google AdSenseThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Google DoubleClickGoogle provides ad serving technology and runs an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Index ExchangeThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    SovrnThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Facebook AdsThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Amazon Unified Ad MarketplaceThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    AppNexusThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    OpenxThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Rubicon ProjectThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    TripleLiftThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Say MediaWe partner with Say Media to deliver ad campaigns on our sites. (Privacy Policy)
    Remarketing PixelsWe may use remarketing pixels from advertising networks such as Google AdWords, Bing Ads, and Facebook in order to advertise the HubPages Service to people that have visited our sites.
    Conversion Tracking PixelsWe may use conversion tracking pixels from advertising networks such as Google AdWords, Bing Ads, and Facebook in order to identify when an advertisement has successfully resulted in the desired action, such as signing up for the HubPages Service or publishing an article on the HubPages Service.
    Statistics
    Author Google AnalyticsThis is used to provide traffic data and reports to the authors of articles on the HubPages Service. (Privacy Policy)
    ComscoreComScore is a media measurement and analytics company providing marketing data and analytics to enterprises, media and advertising agencies, and publishers. Non-consent will result in ComScore only processing obfuscated personal data. (Privacy Policy)
    Amazon Tracking PixelSome articles display amazon products as part of the Amazon Affiliate program, this pixel provides traffic statistics for those products (Privacy Policy)