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Have you ever felt like your life is a complete failure?

Updated on July 16, 2014
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Beata works as a qualified primary school teacher, a councillor for drug and alcohol addiction and a farm caretaker for organic olive grow.

Emptiness

Time of the harvest, wind is blowing away the empty wheat stalks, emptied of grain
Time of the harvest, wind is blowing away the empty wheat stalks, emptied of grain
My eyes are hollow, no more tears to loose
My eyes are hollow, no more tears to loose
No more wishes to grant
No more wishes to grant
My soul feels suddenly so heavy,  lived it all
My soul feels suddenly so heavy, lived it all
One thousand and one years old, just tiredness and sadness lies inside me.
One thousand and one years old, just tiredness and sadness lies inside me.
Nothingness, emptiness, darkness and silence...
Nothingness, emptiness, darkness and silence...
I will wait for the rain to stop
I will wait for the rain to stop
For your kisses to dry my wet hair and bring our smiles out again...
For your kisses to dry my wet hair and bring our smiles out again...
I will wait for your loving words to reach my soul
I will wait for your loving words to reach my soul
just like warm sun rays reaching out to bring life
just like warm sun rays reaching out to bring life
after the long cold winter time...
after the long cold winter time...
I will wait for another dusk,
I will wait for another dusk,
 for the darkness to fall
for the darkness to fall
and knock on our door, inviting us inside
and knock on our door, inviting us inside
to spend the night in each other arms...
to spend the night in each other arms...
I will wait for another dawn, for the bright blue sky and our steel horse to take us away
I will wait for another dawn, for the bright blue sky and our steel horse to take us away
where no one can go except us...
where no one can go except us...

Every one of us

here

knows the anguish

of the writer's life

we stumble

raise and fall

on that rocky

writing

road

everyday

we all need

people

around

who give us

courage

to survive.


Richard C. Morais

sets his first novel

in the world of cooking

vivid and funny

brimming with the colours

flavours

and scents of the kitchen

it becomes a succulent treat

about family

nationality

the good taste

and most of all

about the EXPECTATION

to win THREE MICHELIN STARS

to be the best.


Chefs just as writers

can not recount

the number of times

they despair

at the latest rejection

stumped by a problem

lost and defeated

waiting for someone

to pick them up

dust them off

and sent them on the way

again

with a kind word

and some stimulating insight.


Reading these words

about the rejected chef

I could not help

to see

to feel

to cry over

every tortured soul

of any writer

denied of the publishing success:



"He lost his way,

he stopped growing,

that is the lesson in all this.

He was running and running,

but had no focus,

the hardest thing."


"The world changes

very fast

around us,

the key to any success

is to embrace this constant change

and move with the times."


But you have to change

with the times

in a way

that renews

your core essence,

not abandons it.

The change for the sake of change

-without an anchor

-it will only lead you further astray."


" In those darkest moments

when you loose the reason to go on,

you stay awake in the wee hour

aimlessly staring into open space

between sleeping and waking

your mind restlessly turning around

suddenly a vision

appears in front of your eyes

a mere tiny vessel

tossed by a big waves of life

sliding down

and emerging again

in big turmoil of events

that are out of its control

reminding you of many points

in life

we can not see

what awaits us around the corner

precisely

at such times

when our path forward

is unclear

we must bravely keep our nerve

putting one foot before the other

as we march

blindly

into the dark."


The life gives and takes away

What happens to him

what happen to you

what happen to us

is only revealed

at the right time.


Him, you and me

somewhere

in life

we often loose our way

just to meet someone

who props us up

and help us to be restored to the world

again

when we loose hope

we find it again

often

in the most unlikely of places

and in the unlikeliest of people

when they give us hand

whispering into our ear

the words we need to hear:

"When you try to control everything,

you enjoy nothing,

relax,

breathe,

let go

and just LIVE..."




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    • Beata Stasak profile imageAUTHOR

      Beata Stasak 

      2 years ago from Western Australia

      Yes smile Jodah exactly, you know what I am talking about, thank you for your kind words and all the best to you my fellow Aussie from the other side:)..B

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      John Hansen 

      2 years ago from Queensland Australia

      Don't let anyone try to change you Beata, you write well and people enjoy reading what you write. If having your hubs featured or not doesn't concern you all I see good, your followers can still read them.

      I know what you mean about Internet connection, I live in a rural area. It may be only 54 km from the closest large town but we still can only get Satellite Internet...and it is very slow, with limited upload and download. It is impossible to do what city people take for granted. Even trying to watch one movie would take it over our limit. Take care.

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      Beata Stasak 

      2 years ago from Western Australia

      Let me to add something Jodah, just as an exemption as I do not wish to waste your time, I have published 100 hubs and four have been featured even if I have refused to change anything, they just have decided to do so:)

      I live on a farm in a vast empty space of Australia and the internet connection is very limited here, what takes you a second to download take me a hour, so I do not wast times and do not go back:) Even if you are right and my images may be too small or broad or whatever ...I have not luxury of time or fast connection to correct it:)

      The other problem can be my foreign 'English' I am but a migrant and write my own way:) Even now my Aussie friends catch me unaware with my unique use of English, smile but it is who I am or who I have become:)

    • Beata Stasak profile imageAUTHOR

      Beata Stasak 

      2 years ago from Western Australia

      Thank you Jodah, thank you so much, yes and I admire you for going back and following the advice of the HubPages you will get further than me for sure:) I have moved to Australia twenty years ago from the Eastern Europe with very basic knowledge of English and a huge dream to be a writer. The first five years between chasing jobs and raising my family in a new environment I was chasing every writing competition and doing all the improvements necessary in my novels I was obsessed with the idea to make it, to get published. I have got so far as appearing regularly in the metropolitan press or publishing educational stuff for schools. And one day I got seriously ill and the life taught me to rearrange my priorities...NOW I HAVE LEARNT TO DO WHAT I LOVE ON MY TERMS and I WRITE FOR PLEASURE ONLY smile...I am not competing with anyone or for anything...if I find a fellow reader and a writer like you that is ALL I EXPECT TO GAIN FROM WRITINGS...thank you...B

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      John Hansen 

      2 years ago from Queensland Australia

      Beata, I admire you for standing your ground and not being concerned whether HubPages deems your hubs worthy to be featured. I too write for my own pleasure and self-improvement, as well as to please my followers who I know appreciate my work. I don't write for the money or to appeal to Google.

      One goal/challenge I have set myself is to try to keep my hubs featured.. but that is getting harder and harder. I have been here six years and never had one hub not featured until about a year ago. Now they are much stricter and tougher on content/Amazon ads etc, and almost every two weeks I find a new batch de-featured and I have to make some minor change to get them back. Some say I am wasting my time and I shouldn't worry, but as I said it is just one goal I have set for myself. Funny that my highest scoring hubs are nowhere near my most popular.

      The only thing I can see keeping this from being featured (you didn't say if it was for quality or traffic)is that HP like you to have some images that are full width, especially the first one at the top of the hub, and maybe one in the middle. apparently this looks better on mobile phones.

      My advice though, just keep doing what makes you happy. Life is too short to be stressed. You are on the "good road."

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      Beata Stasak 

      2 years ago from Western Australia

      Let me mention something else Jodah here, this particular hub you liked and had a pretty good response from readers is marked as not featured by HupPages because apparently is not up to their standards:)

      It does not bother me a bit, it is just funny how sometimes what you like or read and what those on the top of writing scale regard as good DIFFERS:)

      I am too old to follow any road but my own, I write for my pleasure, I write what comes to my mind, I write if I see something somewhere that inspires and I do not follow anymore any requirements or guidelines but my own:) Smile...I have the luxury I can and thank you for all my readers who stop from time to time and let me know: 'I am on the good road':)

    • Beata Stasak profile imageAUTHOR

      Beata Stasak 

      2 years ago from Western Australia

      thank you Jodah..BIG THANK YOU:) I write what I believe in and I am happy someone else believes in it too:)...B

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      John Hansen 

      2 years ago from Queensland Australia

      A very positive vibe in this wonderful poem Beata. The ending words are especially true:

      "When you try to control everything,

      you enjoy nothing,

      relax,

      breathe,

      let go

      and just LIVE..."

    • Beata Stasak profile imageAUTHOR

      Beata Stasak 

      4 years ago from Western Australia

      thank you my fellow hubber for your kind words and all the best with your hubbing and living:)

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      Victor W. Kwok 

      4 years ago from Hawaii

      Thanks for sharing this epic poem, Beata!

    • Beata Stasak profile imageAUTHOR

      Beata Stasak 

      4 years ago from Western Australia

      Thank you my fellow writers for all your handful advices and useful words...the marks of your tool I would say, smile enjoy writing and hubbing and the most of all enjoy living...B

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      kjforce 

      4 years ago from Florida

      Beata Stasak.. well written thanks for sharing.... failure is in the eyes of the beholder..

      Usually writers become such because they have a need to fill a void in their world. Ideas and thoughts runamuck and dribble out in many ways.

      As writers, they also are usually their own worse critics...I personally write as therapy and to let others in the world know they are not alone with the " cobwebs of the mind "...a twist, a smile, an emotion to clear the darkness and bring back the light....just my thoughts....

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      Shauna L Bowling 

      4 years ago from Central Florida

      Beata, haven't heard from you in a while. I think all writers and all people in general sometimes question their worth. Their path. Having a support system helps tremendously. Sometimes we just need to stop trying so hard and let our souls, judgment, and intuition take over for us.

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      sheilamyers 

      4 years ago

      Awesome! My favorite line is "When you try to control everything, you enjoy nothing". Through personal experience, I've found that to true.

    • Beata Stasak profile imageAUTHOR

      Beata Stasak 

      4 years ago from Western Australia

      Enjoy your coffee Mel and come back after, smile:)

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      Mel Carriere 

      4 years ago from San Diego California

      It is very hard to keep focused on the daily grind, especially before coffee. Thanks for the words of wisdom.

    • Beata Stasak profile imageAUTHOR

      Beata Stasak 

      4 years ago from Western Australia

      Thank you guys absolutely we write for enjoyment and we shouldn't take it too seriously or sweat over it like crazy because once we start the spontaneous sharing of our minds and hearts becomes the chase for the perfection and drill that we start to avoid...thank you and enjoy hubbing and writing and I will do too...

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      lupine 

      4 years ago from Southern California (USA)

      There are no failures in life, but they are learning experiences. We can always strive to make better choices. If we did everything right, we would all be perfect...right? We are unique to our circumstances, our creative minds face challenges each day, in hopes of finding happiness and satisfaction. Great hub!

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      Eric Dierker 

      4 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Excellent piece. thank you for sharing it with us.

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      WillStarr 

      4 years ago from Phoenix, Arizona

      The way I see it, writing is one of the many facets of my life, but certainly not the only one, so rather than anguish over my writing, I just enjoy creating something new and unique...like you did with this Hub!

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      Joanna Chandler 

      4 years ago from On planet Earth

      Thanks Beata, and same to you i am not from Texas or the west of America eh lol i am from the Western Part of the World

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      Janet Giessl 

      4 years ago from Georgia country

      We all have times where we feel like you described so beautifully with your words. Very inspirational hub.

    • Beata Stasak profile imageAUTHOR

      Beata Stasak 

      4 years ago from Western Australia

      My muse of writing that just reflected on its up and down slide life, smile THANKS YOU 'Always exploring' for your kind words:) My muse likes encouragement and vacations too...who doesn't? Happy to meet you here again and see you somewhere somehow in the future in our great Hub outdoors:)

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      Ruby Jean Richert 

      4 years ago from Southern Illinois

      " As we march blindly into the dark " Wow! Each day is a new adventure, sometimes we win sometimes we lose. As a writer, i find that encouragement from others is the key. Hope is right there too. If i lose hope, i'm at a standstill, plus my muse loves to take vacations. Ha. I enjoyed reading your reflections concerning life. Thank you..

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      Beata Stasak 

      4 years ago from Western Australia

      Thank you so much Ann for your continuous encouragement and thank you for being my first commentator today, to be the first is always the act of bravery:)

      Thank my beautiful LadyFiddler for your insightful comment, you are absolutely right, I don't like to complain myself either, but I like to reflect,smile...have a swell day too in your wild wild West:)

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      Joanna Chandler 

      4 years ago from On planet Earth

      We all feel like this sometimes but we ought to take consolation in the fact that our problems isn't half or quarter of some people who are truly suffering. Yet they are more thankful and appreciative that us who may just have some back pains etc .

      For Instance "Nick Vujicic" He is a motivational speaker he has no arms nor feet and yet he is so positive , he never allowed his disabilities to keep him back, he encourages people to be more thankful etc. Nick is into almost anything you can think about 'he swims" which is remarkable having no limbs. He is also married to a beautiful young lady and they have a child together i think his wife was taken by his wonderful spirit and she fell in love. Pretty is a pretty spirit !

      Sometimes we need to look outside of the picture "self" and see others around us who is suffering, who doesn't have food, shelter or raiment and then we'll find solace there. I myself is including and I have took on a different mind set months now, its to be positive everyday i am not well physically but i seldom complain about it anymore. I just take painkillers and say when God is ready to heal me he will.

      We got to start kicking the devil and stop being his football all the time.

      Thanks for sharing :)

      Have a swell day

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      Ann Carr 

      4 years ago from SW England

      'But you have to change with the times in a way that renews your core essence' are such wise words and your final four lines are optimistic and inspirational.

      Great hub with, as always, beautifully appropriate illustrations. Brilliant! Ann

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