Kindness or Weakness
which is it?
You call me when you are in need and as a friend I try to comprehend your situation and help you to the very best of my capabilities. you tell me you need this so i give you that, you ask for one so I give you some. you call you call you call and i run hop and jump. A few times you have done some nice things for me but it doesn't matter because even if you never did I would still be there for you as a friend. I believe that I do for you what I do because I am the way I am I give without expecting anything in return except for a little appreciation from you and satisfaction from within me.
So time passes by and I get no call from you to say hi or how you doing, okay I understand things are hectic right now you don't have or wont make the time! then my phone rings and I answer it to hear your voice of course to ask me for a favor and i say okay what is it that you want? your reply is that your in need of some money and you say that you will pay me back in the next couple of days with interest, i say okay but just pay me back what you owe me and forget about the interest because i just want to help you out but make sure you keep your word because this is all i got!
its been almost two weeks and the only thing you have gave me since the day I lent you the money is a text message saying your are very sorry things didnt turn out the way you planned and you have nothing to give me and eventually you will make things right. so i hear you are back on your feet and have some money and food to eat so your not doing that poorly but still i have not recieved one phone call from you, what do i do, what should i think?
Is it that you are mistaking my kindness for weakness or am i weak because i am showing acts of kindness?
I don't know if it is now and days or it has always been like this but it seems that it's hard for me to believe anyone or take someones word anymore or maybe its just me and people take advantage of the giving and kind? The only positive thing I can take from these situations is to learn and i guess not trust so easily????